Thanks to all of you for understanding how I felt. I hope that we can share our feelings without the threat of attracting labels like "drama queen".
I should mention that I didn't start this post to seek attention for myself, as Fake Name tried to imply - I did for more human reasons.Because I am a human who feels human emotions. Fuck, what am I saying - I seem to be trying to justify myself for the benefit of Fake Name *laughs because I have just realised that to do that would be to dance for him* Not even I should fall for his dim demands.
Okay, so now I need to brace myself for an attack back from Fake Name in retaliation. Go ahead Fake Name, throw your insults at me - come on do it for us all to see - dance for us motherfucker, dance *laughs at the irony*
See you all,
Slut_boy
[This message has been edited by slut_boy (edited 03-07-2000).]
Originally posted by slut_boy: bly I am probably what people would call a 'thinker' as opposed to a 'doer'. That makes me a pretty worthless individual to society, right bs?
The person in the mirror didn't look back at me - he fucking screamed back at me. And you know what bs, my whole life has been a struggle of being understood. A life of screaming going on inside myself. Most of the time I get misunderstood. Made to feel like a misfit, misplaced. Sometimes I feel like someone just kinda hurled me into this world.
Thanks for your wisdom, and thanks for your insights. Like I really needed someone to tell me what a fuck up I am.
Slut_Boy
From one academic to another, if youre a fuck up then so is the rest of this world. There isn't a human being that I know of that hasn't been a fuck up at least once in his/her life. I do understand your feelings although and its takes a damn big man to admit his failings to people, especially a group of sttrangers...Granted we all have psuedonyms instead of our real ones, but except for a few who do know each other here personnally we are a group of people that are scattered about the globe that sign on here to discuss things great and small, deep and shallow. Your input is as important as anyone elses and I salute you sir!!!!
And another thing, if being a thinker makes you a nerd than I am damned proud to be a nerd. The world needs more thinkers anyway, the doers have basically screwed up the planet and folks in general because they didn't think before they did. My background is in Theology and Anthropology...but I work in computers (long story). Anyway, like I said before, your you, I'm me, we're us, and we've all fucked up or have been fuck ups at least once. I can't say don't sweat it, but take it easy on yourself...after all youre only human, and thats probably the best way to be.
Peace
Arkane
[This message has been edited by Arkane (edited 03-07-2000).]
