Seeking depraved M sadist.

[utterlyworthless]

To be honest, I think there's something seriously wrong with me, but here goes. I'm extremely submissive to the right person and I'm a masochist who will scare most guys away with the shit I can take. I have strong kinks for verbal humiliation, degradation, objectification, you name it. I can also endure and even enjoy violence. I don't need love, hearts and flowers, hugs or aftercare. 99% of the time I need to be nothing but a slave and an outlet for sadism. I have a list of limits that can be written on the back of a postage stamp by a pre-schooler. I am and will always be a very sick little bitch.

Before the 'see a shrink' brigade come and stomp all over my thread, I have not had a troubled upbringing. I was not abused as a child, nor have I suffered domestic abuse as an adult. I am just simply wired this way and nothing else even comes close. A loving vanilla relationship would make me dead inside. This just seems to be who I am and so I won't be ashamed of it or made to apologise for it.

I'm looking I guess for online as a precursor but I do want to meet and eventually be owned by someone RL. I am not career oriented but nor am I seeking some sugardaddy. Anyone who can afford to keep me at a very basic standard of living could be suitable. I'm picky but mainly because a lot of guys talk the talk but balk at walking the walk (fucking hell, I'm a laureate too!). I know what I need and once I find it that guy will be the proud possessor of me, there'll be no safewords and my limits will be set by him.

I'm in my 20s, petite and reasonably good looking with fair colouring and dark hair. I'm intelligent and educated. For medical reasons, I'm not suitable for breeding, nor am I child oriented.

I'd prefer a guy aged 28-45 but I can be a little flexible about that. You don't have to be conventionally good looking but being well presented will command respect from me. I'm not interested in being a basement dwelling mistress so you will be single. I am not a viable step-parent. You will be able to demonstrate that you can offer me the kind of existence I need on a day to day basis and provide for my basic needs, including some idea of what would happen to me if something happened to you. I will demonstrate that I mean what I have said here. You don't need to micro-manage me but I do need very clear and real boundaries. I need to genuinely fear you. Having said that, I need to concept of fairness or quid pro quo. You can be as capricious and arbitrary as you like with me.

I'm not bullshitting here. I am a once in a lifetime opportunity. Please don't contact me unless you're genuinely interested in what I'm offering.

 

[dave's thing]

Now this is interesting.
Should be a lot of wannabes but how many gonnabes are there.
Staying tuned here.
Keep that inbox empty!!

 

[WillDoAnything]

I sent you a PM, I'm looking forward to finding out if you're for real.

 

[Primalex]

I don't believe in 1-post-fairies.

 

[utterlyworthless]

I don't believe in 1-post-fairies.

And who the hell are you?

I don't believe in 1800 post RL doms/sadists.

 

[utterlyworthless]

I sent you a PM, I'm looking forward to finding out if you're for real.

You sent me a one line, throwaway pm that tells me nothing about whether you're for real. And WillDoAnything is a weird nic for a sadist.

 

[utterlyworthless]

Now this is interesting.
Should be a lot of wannabes but how many gonnabes are there.
Staying tuned here.
Keep that inbox empty!!

I'll keep emptying it, don't you worry about that. I know what a shot in the dark this is.

 

[Primalex]

And who the hell are you?

Someone who doesn't hide behind a single use account.

I don't believe in 1800 post RL doms/sadists.

Don't worry, I'm happily married and don't match anyway, no matter what you believe in or not.

It does amuse me though that you think that you are a "once in a lifetime opportunity" - for the horny net geek maybe. For everyone else, you are just another cunt. Women always overvalue their uniqueness.

 

[utterlyworthless]

Someone who doesn't hide behind a single use account.

I've read stories here for a while and found the forum recently. Never had reason to join up and post before. Don't know whether this will come to anything, just thought I'd see what came of it. You seem determined to harangue me for no good reason and I find that quite sad.

Don't worry, I'm happily married and don't match anyway, no matter what you believe in or not.

And your wife is happy for you to waste your life sneering at anonymous lit usernames? Interesting.

It does amuse me though that you think that you are a "once in a lifetime opportunity" - for the horny net geek maybe. For everyone else, you are just another cunt. Women always overvalue their uniqueness.

As do men, particularly dominant ones.

And have you not seen my username? I'm not suggesting I'm some superslave, just that not many people actively seek what I'm seeking.

 

[WillDoAnything]

You both have good points to your opinions (Primalex and utterlyworthless) but your attitude is definitely not what I was looking for and it's probably putting off any of the other true offers out there. The way you talk here just doesn't match your original post at all and all that does it adds further merit to the posts against you. Enjoy your time at lit and I hope you find what your looking for, just not with me thanks. xx Kiss Kiss

 

[Lady Reiha]

I eat my hair.

 

[utterlyworthless]

You both have good points to your opinions (Primalex and utterlyworthless) but your attitude is definitely not what I was looking for and it's probably putting off any of the other true offers out there. The way you talk here just doesn't match your original post at all and all that does it adds further merit to the posts against you. Enjoy your time at lit and I hope you find what your looking for, just not with me thanks. xx Kiss Kiss

So because I'm advertising for a Master I should roll over and say 'yes Sir' to everyone who pms me and also the people who post here just to be sarcastic? I feel sad for you, because you're clearly the kind of emotional retard who finds security in 'owning' a doormat of a woman with zero self esteem. In reality, it takes great strength of character to be able to give oneself to another in the way that I want to. If I was to be subservient and obsequious to everyone I encountered, where would the value be in my submission? What would my owner have that every jumped up cyberdom couldn't also command?

Those who have only engaged in BDSM online really fail to comprehend how real life, real people and real relationships work.

I know what I want and need and I mean that as self indulgently as that sounds. I am only seeking a M/s relationship at all because I know what I want and need. I'm not fucked in the head enough to actually, genuinely, really really believe myself utterly worthless. That is just how I need to be made to feel, in order to serve and thrive. I need to be worth the value of my service and little or no more. I don't know why either, beats the hell outta me. I will totally submit to the right person in due course but until then everyone else, with the possible exception of yourself, is my equal.

"When I speak of you, it is always in superlatives." Oscar Wilde.

 

[pellso27]

God is a sadist

 

[utterlyworthless]

I eat my hair.

Now there's a fetish I hadn't contemplated before. Ten out of ten for inventiveness.

 

[utterlyworthless]

God is a sadist

Haha.

If I don't go straight to hell, I've no doubt I'll goad him into it.

 

[useyou]

Utterly....finally a chick with the guts enough to lay it on the line. Congrats.

 

[Primalex]

I've read stories here for a while and found the forum recently. Never had reason to join up and post before.

Yes, this is strange.

I mean, there you are, "scaring most guys away with the shit you can take" in real life. Obviously, you are a fucking experienced pain slut, after all you know that you have nearly no limits. Then you realize that you are looking "for online as a precursor". After all, everyone knows that the online world is the best place to figure out if someone just talks. So, after the dozens of Doms in real life, you decide to make a forum account here and create as very first step an ad.

Don't know whether this will come to anything, just thought I'd see what came of it. You seem determined to harangue me for no good reason and I find that quite sad.

I don't care much what you feel or think. Your story is fishy, that's it.

And your wife is happy for you to waste your life sneering at anonymous lit usernames? Interesting.

Shouldn't she be happy when I'm happy? Interesting attitude.

And have you not seen my username? I'm not suggesting I'm some superslave, just that not many people actively seek what I'm seeking.

I think your username reflects the reality very good, just in a different way.

 

[WillDoAnything]

I don't care who you bend over for or don't, there's nothing wrong with your attitude about knowing what you want and what you don't want. Instead of saying "No thank you", asking for more information or simply not replying at all you decided to be rude. That is your attitude problem right there, simple fact is your post interested me I PM'd offering to discuss it further if you wanted, I didn't want to sit there and write an essay about myself just to get no reply or a rejection or turn out it was all just an attention seeking act. I hope you find someone dumb enough to put up with you I really do because then you might leave these forums quietly.

Love hugs and kisses from London xxx

 

[fulvius]

Wow

Wow guys, lay off her already. So what, she was rude to you. No reason to start a debate on her very sexy thread!

 

[sacada]

Wow guys, lay off her already. So what, she was rude to you. No reason to start a debate on her very sexy thread!

I second this! It sucks when someone bruises your ego. But you can (and should) just ignore her and leave the thread.

 

[RawHumor]

I liked the opening post. I didn't really object to the other posts either.

You're definitely intriguing, and a part of me would enjoy going down that dark path with you.

Unfortunately, I have two issues with it:

1. I do have two daughters, and such a relationship would not be healthy for them (and you stated that you're not step-mother material)
2. I know that for me personally, this would be dark territory. If we ever broke up, it'd be pretty tough to 'go back' to anything short of extreme emotional and physical sadism with a woman. Sadism can be very addicting.

 

[deadpoolit]

I think shes in her own right if she rejected you move on and shut up about it and if you dont like what she has to say or what ever then move on no need to preach at her or even make more comments if you dont like what you see move on.
Easy as that I would personaly like to hear what her limits are I find her post intresting and honest about what she wants I like the verbal humiliation, degradation, objectification I have questions about the violence part and what she ment by that cause nipple clamps spankings and even more of the extream stuff can be seen as short of just violent.
So do you mean being tied up and spanked like a worthless bitch or slaped across the face and shown what a worthless cunt you are witch is more along the lines of what you mean?

 

[Primalex]

So do you mean being tied up and spanked like a worthless bitch or slaped across the face and shown what a worthless cunt you are witch is more along the lines of what you mean?

This is parody, right?