Sensualdreamer.

[Prometheus_va]

Heya - just didn't want to hijack the other thread w/ my chattering

Hey Hun. Sorry so slow to check in but I saw your reply in the other thread and likewise didn't want to take it off track but I did want to tell you I'm really sorry to hear about your losses.

I can relate. We lost a fellow Firefighter here a couple weeks back during that big derecho storm that came through. Was tough going to his memorial service. Brought back lots of memories of 2 FF's we lost a couple years back - actually 2nd anniversary of the incident that took them is coming up this week.

I know I'm mostly a lurker but I'm only a PM away if you need a shoulder or an ear.

 

[Kat73]

Oooh I will do so



Queen of tease huh? LMAO I like that title...so now I've been called a Pervy Princess and now Queen of tease

I shall claim that title w/ honour

I'm okay but struggling w/ the upcoming funeral...not sure if I can handle it.

HUGS for you. I will be thinking about you too.

For the record... I like "Queen of Tease" as well!

 

[Sensualdreamer]

Teasing us, but no one complaining

LoL damn I'm that good huh

I'm not surprised you're not complaining.

Hey I've never even teased you

*BIG HUGS* You can. You might cry a lot. But it's okay. I'll be thinking about you. And you know where I am if you need me. *HUGS*

and Queen of Tease.....I think it fits.

I know it sounds heartless of me but I don't want to go. I want to remember the good memories. I don't want to think that this is it. It's starting to sink in and hit me and I hate that this is happening.

i know i cried a lot at my grandfathers funeral last month. but its good to let it out and me human. im sure a lot of people here will be with you in spirit and help you thru it.

the title does fit

I know everyone grieves differently, and w/ me I always do my crying before the funeral and the day of the funeral I'm just hollow inside from the loss, and it's rare for me to cry. This one may be different tho

Hey Hun. Sorry so slow to check in but I saw your reply in the other thread and likewise didn't want to take it off track but I did want to tell you I'm really sorry to hear about your losses.

I can relate. We lost a fellow Firefighter here a couple weeks back during that big derecho storm that came through. Was tough going to his memorial service. Brought back lots of memories of 2 FF's we lost a couple years back - actually 2nd anniversary of the incident that took them is coming up this week.

I know I'm mostly a lurker but I'm only a PM away if you need a shoulder or an ear.

Thank you for your kind words Please don't lurk...there are many great people that frequent the boards - promise we don't bite hard (unless asked )

HUGS for you. I will be thinking about you too.

For the record... I like "Queen of Tease" as well!

Thanks Kat - it means a lot to me.

Hmmm guess I'll change my header under my user name

 

[ciarran1983]

LoL damn I'm that good huh



Hey I've never even teased you



I know it sounds heartless of me but I don't want to go. I want to remember the good memories. I don't want to think that this is it. It's starting to sink in and hit me and I hate that this is happening.



I know everyone grieves differently, and w/ me I always do my crying before the funeral and the day of the funeral I'm just hollow inside from the loss, and it's rare for me to cry. This one may be different tho



Thank you for your kind words Please don't lurk...there are many great people that frequent the boards - promise we don't bite hard (unless asked )




Thanks Kat - it means a lot to me.

Hmmm guess I'll change my header under my user name

i can understand how you feel, exactly how my dad and uncles where. the day before and day after my grandfather passed was hard on all of them. a lot of tears shead. but the day of the funeral they all looked like a piece of them was just taking away. i felt so bad, even though i was in my blues and part of the funeral i want to cry for my dad.

 

[Sensualdreamer]

i can understand how you feel, exactly how my dad and uncles where. the day before and day after my grandfather passed was hard on all of them. a lot of tears shead. but the day of the funeral they all looked like a piece of them was just taking away. i felt so bad, even though i was in my blues and part of the funeral i want to cry for my dad.

My mindset w/ crying/tears is messed up. I use to think that crying showed a sign of weakness. I'm not saying I don't cry, but it takes a lot for me to cry.

I'm remembering the days when it would be overcast/rainy/cloudy and remember her response of "Sunshine state my ass!"
I'm trying to see all the lasting impact she made...cherishing her memory, the laughter, the love and trying to smile b/c she lived.

 

[sunshinegirl05]

whoohooo. love it.

 

[ciarran1983]

My mindset w/ crying/tears is messed up. I use to think that crying showed a sign of weakness. I'm not saying I don't cry, but it takes a lot for me to cry.

I'm remembering the days when it would be overcast/rainy/cloudy and remember her response of "Sunshine state my ass!"
I'm trying to see all the lasting impact she made...cherishing her memory, the laughter, the love and trying to smile b/c she lived.

Thats the best thing to go. just keeping her memory going and not let it fade. As long as the memory is there, she will always be with you.

The one memory that stay with me about my grandfather is that he was also AF.

 

[Sensualdreamer]

whoohooo. love it.

Hmm now it's your turn...gotta find a title for you

Thats the best thing to go. just keeping her memory going and not let it fade. As long as the memory is there, she will always be with you.

The one memory that stay with me about my grandfather is that he was also AF.

Funny what caused me to meet her was facebook. She & I were at a concert and I had taken some pics and posted them on a facebook page, she replied that I got some great pictures...ended up meeting her for dinner, we hit it off as friends. Hard to think that was just 2 years ago...

 

[ciarran1983]

Hmm now it's your turn...gotta find a title for you




Funny what caused me to meet her was facebook. She & I were at a concert and I had taken some pics and posted them on a facebook page, she replied that I got some great pictures...ended up meeting her for dinner, we hit it off as friends. Hard to think that was just 2 years ago...

wow that was a chance meeting that blossomed into a great friendship. thats pretty awesome.

who needs a title now.

 

[Sensualdreamer]

wow that was a chance meeting that blossomed into a great friendship. thats pretty awesome.

who needs a title now.

It was amazing I would've never guessed that facebook would've been the dominating factor in our friendship!

The title comment was in reference to sunshine I usually tease her and call her funsize but that's nothing she would use

 

[ciarran1983]

It was amazing I would've never guessed that facebook would've been the dominating factor in our friendship!

The title comment was in reference to sunshine I usually tease her and call her funsize but that's nothing she would use

yea facebook, not my thing.

ahhh ok, someone else needed a title. i was gonna say yours fits you from what i can tell.

 

[Sensualdreamer]

yea facebook, not my thing.

ahhh ok, someone else needed a title. i was gonna say yours fits you from what i can tell.

LoL understand what you mean - I've got friends that are anti-facebook - no worries.

Yeah titles go under the user name - not sure at what post count you become eligible for it tho.

Guess you could always go w/ "perfect family jewels"

 

[ciarran1983]

LoL understand what you mean - I've got friends that are anti-facebook - no worries.

Yeah titles go under the user name - not sure at what post count you become eligible for it tho.

Guess you could always go w/ "perfect family jewels"

ahhh, ok didnt know you could get a title. thats cool to know.

was that a title for me

 

[Sensualdreamer]

ahhh, ok didnt know you could get a title. thats cool to know.

was that a title for me

LoL yeah if you look on your posts under your user name it says "really experienced" - at some point based on your posting it will become available for you to change it to whichever title you think up.

And yes that was a title I thought you could snag

 

[ciarran1983]

LoL yeah if you look on your posts under your user name it says "really experienced" - at some point based on your posting it will become available for you to change it to whichever title you think up.

And yes that was a title I thought you could snag

well sweet, cant wait til i get to that point

i will use that title for me, sounds like a good one.

 

[Sensualdreamer]

well sweet, cant wait til i get to that point

i will use that title for me, sounds like a good one.

LoL - well I've changed mine up a few times.

The first (if my memory is correct) was babyblueeyes, then blonde bombshell, sensualicious blonde, and now "queen of tease" LMAO

 

[ciarran1983]

LoL - well I've changed mine up a few times.

The first (if my memory is correct) was babyblueeyes, then blonde bombshell, sensualicious blonde, and now "queen of tease" LMAO

all of which fit you perfect

 

[Sensualdreamer]

all of which fit you perfect

You're kind

I think that I should probably snuggle down into my bed...it's been nice talking to you...you've given me many smiles tonight

 

[ciarran1983]

You're kind

I think that I should probably snuggle down into my bed...it's been nice talking to you...you've given me many smiles tonight

sweet dreams and looking forward to talking to you again.

id love to be a fly on the wall in your room

 

[Sensualdreamer]

sweet dreams and looking forward to talking to you again.

id love to be a fly on the wall in your room

Thanks - I managed to get a little bit of sleep.

Had you been a fly on the wall - you would've seen tears splashing to my pillow as I struggled to accept that in a few hours I would be attending a memorial service for a friend.

The memorial service was a mix of bitter sweet memories for me. I can't help but think that I missed her birthday party last year, and how afterwards she contacted me and was rather disappointed I couldn't be there but wanted me to come to her party this year...and I look back and I regret that I didn't attend last years party.

This has been a wake up call for me in many ways.

 

[fungatorgurl101]

Thanks - I managed to get a little bit of sleep.

Had you been a fly on the wall - you would've seen tears splashing to my pillow as I struggled to accept that in a few hours I would be attending a memorial service for a friend.

The memorial service was a mix of bitter sweet memories for me. I can't help but think that I missed her birthday party last year, and how afterwards she contacted me and was rather disappointed I couldn't be there but wanted me to come to her party this year...and I look back and I regret that I didn't attend last years party.

This has been a wake up call for me in many ways.

Awww hun... No regrets just fond memories and she knows you were her friend. Warm hugs for you!!

 

[Sensualdreamer]

Awww hun... No regrets just fond memories and she knows you were her friend. Warm hugs for you!!

Thanks a lot - I appreciate your friendship, and your kindness more than you know!

 

[fungatorgurl101]

Thanks a lot - I appreciate your friendship, and your kindness more than you know!

It's what we do And you know I am here if you need me and I am sure vice versa so no worries! I appreciate you too!

 

[Sensualdreamer]

It's what we do And you know I am here if you need me and I am sure vice versa so no worries! I appreciate you too!

I need a flip flop ...


he's gonna meet his maker

http://sphotos-a.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ash3/s480x480/561408_4143355778625_1140476065_n.jpg

 

[fungatorgurl101]

I need a flip flop ...


he's gonna meet his maker

http://sphotos-a.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ash3/s480x480/561408_4143355778625_1140476065_n.jpg

OH Hell why has he not already Ewwwwwww