Straight guys who like gay sex

(this is my first post on LGBTQIA+ forum)

There is such a thing as heterosexual people who can enjoy homosexual activity. I've been strongly heterosexual my entire life, but I have also shared BJ, HJ, and even anal intercourse with other guys, and enjoyed it (sometimes). I say "strongly" heterosexual because ever since I was a child, from before I even knew what sex was, girls made me feel a certain way. When I was young, I got nervous and tongue tied. They seemed like a magically fascinating, magnetically attractive, other species. Boys seemed unremarkable, like simply the same species. As I got older, I felt soul-wrenching emotional pull towards women, in addition to raging physical desire. Holding a woman in my arms can feel like "being whole." I never have, and never could, feel anything remotely like that towards a male.

But some years ago I started j/o to porn with a friend. At first we just got naked, watched (straight) porn, and masturbated. But eventually we started sharing BJs. It was easy to immediately enjoy the feeling of slowly kissing and licking a hard cock. It took a bit longer to get accustomed to cum, but eventually I loved that too. I can definitely get turned on by feeling cum shooting into my mouth, or all over my face, or splashing on my body. Also, I have many times experienced frotting, with him and others. That is my favorite MM activity. It's so sexy masturbating with another guy, with a bit of massage oil and our cocks rubbing together. It's an absolutely amazing feeling, just breathtaking. It makes me hard as a rock feeling another warm, erect, oiled cock slipping and sliding against mine. And it is so delicious cumming that way, and seeing and feeling another cock throbbing and squirting all over mine and his. I've also penetrated another guy a handful of times, and had OK-to-excellent orgasms that way. I've also felt a guy cum inside me, but didn't get much sexual feeling from that. But sex with another man, no matter how great, feels like masturbation. It doesn't feel like making love, and never could for me.

I hesitate to call that "bisexual" because "bi" implies some kind of equivalence. To me, they are not remotely similar. One is an emotional, spiritual attraction, with many dimensions. The other is like an enjoyable sex toy, with one dimension. I love it and sometimes crave it, but it's still one-dimensional. I don't know the proper word for this orientation, or if there even is one.

There are some who deny that this is even a thing. But it is. And I'm not sure how to respond when I try to explain my sexuality, and somebody who isn't me, and doesn't have my orientation, tells me I am incorrect. What does that even mean? I'm telling them firsthand my experience, and they're telling me my experience doesn't exist? It defies logic, I just give up.
I used to share hand job sessions with a few male friends when I was in my early teens & before that had a friend who would suck me off, and I him. As I entered late teens I would have sex just with women (any age/size/single or married).

It wasn’t until my Middle ages hit that I became what most call bi-curious and stayed like that for a long time. Now, I don’t favour any gender/age/marital status. I’m just really horny and enjoy sex with anything living (that’s human, consents to and is of legal age). My age surprisingly hasn’t diminished opportunities too 😉.

I guess what I’m coming to say is - do you need to justify your state of desire to others or just know & be yourself?

Not challenging other views by the way, just presenting ‘me’.
 
I don't know what this is or isn't like. It is whatever it is. I don't know of a one-word label that describes my sexuality, and I wonder if attempting to summarize sexual orientation with a one-word label is even helpful in the first place. It seems a bit pointless.
I know I’m late to the game on this thread. Sexuality is on a spectrum. People can be attracted to both the opposite sex and the same sex. But they may have a stronger attraction to one or the other. Sometimes a person may feel more attracted to the same sex and other times be more attracted to the opposite sex.

There are also people have virtually no attraction to some of the opposite sex, and there are people who have virtually no attraction to people at the same sex.

My advice, don’t worry about the defining it. Enjoy what you have.
 
For me I have been trying to label myself has bi or bi curious. My experience with other guys has only been during mmf in my early 40's. The experience was fun and great, I never thought that I would even entertain letting a guy suck and play with my cock, let along me sucking a cock. It's been sometime now since that has happened. Now I just appreciate everyone sexual preference and kinks. Bottom line I became very open minded in my 40's.
 
It's so weird to keep seeing these topics come up, since the whole reason I recently joined this site was to share the story of how my best friend and I started fooling around. We are both happily married to women and have no interest in men outside of each other. I had no idea there were so many people who engage in similar behavior.
 
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