SpicyBean99
Word Slut
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Last month we spent some time talking and since then… well..xwhenever I’ve been back on lit, we have exchanged lengthy back and forths. You are so interesting to talk too, I could learn a million things from you I’m sure. Your background is rich and you come from a place of such deep understanding, not empathy, a real and pure understanding that most people lack. You’re yet to freak at my contradictions, you don’t fill my inbox when I go quiet, or when I disappear into the ether for a few days. You’re right there picking it up where we left. I wish I could bottle that first feeling I had when you wrote me that segment and mentioned hands… that’s all I’ll say. Fuck. I’m sorry I’m so fucking inconsistent. I hope we can talk again soon.
I should never have told you about lit. I can’t hide anything from you again, or keep this part of my life secret. I feel watched, like I’m airing my dirty laundry for you to see and quite possibly laugh at. There were things you said to me and did that I will never get over, you know what they are… and the fact I let you into such a vulnerable place, a place that I thought you could share with me…. for this to happen? For you to make me feel dirty? Like I’m an awful person for forgetting? (You know what I’m talking about too…) I want to say I’m sorry but… well I am sorry for forgetting but it felt like such a small thing and I didn’t deserve those messages. Anyway…. It’s a shame it all boiled down to this.
I should never have told you about lit. I can’t hide anything from you again, or keep this part of my life secret. I feel watched, like I’m airing my dirty laundry for you to see and quite possibly laugh at. There were things you said to me and did that I will never get over, you know what they are… and the fact I let you into such a vulnerable place, a place that I thought you could share with me…. for this to happen? For you to make me feel dirty? Like I’m an awful person for forgetting? (You know what I’m talking about too…) I want to say I’m sorry but… well I am sorry for forgetting but it felt like such a small thing and I didn’t deserve those messages. Anyway…. It’s a shame it all boiled down to this.
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