The Confessional

[yeishia]

Very few people have the guts to actually say that when they mean it. No, I just get lame excuses and stupid bullshit. It's my problem anyway.

I guess I should be thinking of the fact that I'll be living in a park week after next but silly little things seem to matter to me.



Your perspective isn't mine. What are you apologizing for?

not apologizing...

I was sorry you were hurting.

 

[monique_minx]

Everyone can just forget it, thanks. It's my issue, I just needed to vent.

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

Very few people have the guts to actually say that when they mean it. No, I just get lame excuses and stupid bullshit. It's my problem anyway.

I guess I should be thinking of the fact that I'll be living in a park week after next but silly little things seem to matter to me.

Okay now we are making sense, your scared and upset about your real life right now and have no control over it so little things you thought you had some control over or that where distractions now become IMPORTANT.

I am sorry you have having a hell time hun truly the thought of being homeless and the stress of your families up heaved must be driving you mad.

But that does not mean that because other people have reasons that you deem bullshit or not are not important to them or the truth. If you truly feel they are not desiring you in that way ......ask yourself why the fuck do you care? Your minx you I am sure can find many more play partners more then willing.

Your making a mole hill a mountain because its easier to focus on that then what ever else is going on. I am sure your wife and Leo will agree with me when I say SNAP THE FUCK OUT OF IT STOP THE PITTY PARTY over not getting fucked, that is unless you want a whole heap of pitty fucks lined up at your door and perhaps try to focus on the positives in your life........

like that you have friends who care deeply for you, that you do have a master, a sister submissive and a group of wonderful ladies who consider you a friend and all want to jump your ass even though they don't have dicks. You have family (even though they piss you off at times) you still have a family whom your close to. You have a couple of real life partners to entertain yourself with...its just not the end of the world hun.

I also hope that you would have the good sense to look into a shelter or group housing or a caravan park before you slept in a park Hun. You have options life is not as bleak as you feel it is right now. Its hard don't get me wrong its stressful thats without a doubt but you still have options.

 

[Trixabell]

Everyone can just forget it, thanks. It's my issue, I just needed to vent.

Vent away Minx!
The proof that people give a shit is that they posted after you.

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

Everyone can just forget it, thanks. It's my issue, I just needed to vent.

Vent away hun but because you are deemed worthy and because some people do care they are going to comment and try to make you see that what your saying just aint fucking true.

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

Vent away Minx!
The proof that people give a shit is that they posted after you.

*grins* SNAP

 

[Veroe]

Everyone can just forget it, thanks. It's my issue, I just needed to vent.

But we can't forget it, and we can't let it go. You're a friend to all of us here, and we're all friends of yours, so we can't just let you vent and look the other way.

Nope, Minx, when you go off like that, we're gonna come running.

 

[monique_minx]

ICT everyone can just let it go now, I'm tired of being insulted and of people thinking I need to be pitied.

ICT the two greatest insults to me are to be pitied or called a liar and both have occurred so I'm no longer inclined to share or vent here anymore.

ICT I feel undesirable, unwanted and disgusting and no one is going to understand that. I just needed a release for how I feel, sorry if that said other things to people.

 

[LoganDarkHolme]

ICT the two greatest insults to me are to be pitied or called a liar and both have occurred so I'm no longer inclined to share or vent here anymore.

Its not Pity for someone who cares for you to say they care for you, nor is it an insult when you tell someone your not mad or your not upset and they call you on it because it is obvious to ANYONE that you are upset and pissed off or else you wouldnt be on a public forum where all your friends INCLUDING myself come to try and help you calm down and vent

ICT I feel undesirable, unwanted and disgusting and no one is going to understand that. I just needed a release for how I feel, sorry if that said other things to people.

Everyone understands how you feel, however we just cannot see what it is that you seem to find so disgusting about yourself when we all love you

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

ICT everyone can just let it go now, I'm tired of being insulted and of people thinking I need to be pitied.

ICT the two greatest insults to me are to be pitied or called a liar and both have occurred so I'm no longer inclined to share or vent here anymore.

ICT I feel undesirable, unwanted and disgusting and no one is going to understand that. I just needed a release for how I feel, sorry if that said other things to people.

You can feel undesirable and unwanted we all have those days Minx, but to claim you are unwanted and undesirable and disgusting simply because a few have for what ever reason not wanted to fuck around with you....that is a little twisted and compared to everything else your going through and everything else you do have just doesn't seem important.

I hope that Leo or Ausus or someone can make you realize just how sad it is that your vent implies your judging yourself worth on weather or not you get fucked. Its not even like you have had NO attention so I am sorry this vent just makes no sense to me and does make me worry for you.....I wouldn't call it pitty but it disturbs me to try and understand your mind set.

As the replies to your vent should tell you, you do have people that care and you do have people who desire you. I hope that once you have calmed down and had a chance to reflect back that the sting of rejection eases and you realize how silly it was to get so upset over it.

 

[1FreakyGirl]

wow, just wow

 

[Light Ice]

Get a grip.

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

I confess I am struggling bad to do my threads today.....I confess I also love watching my daughter play, the simple joy she takes in things is so wonderful I wish I could bottle it.

 

[zydrate]

ICT I'm exhausted but am too excited to sleep!!!

 

[Ausus_girl13]

ICT everyone can just let it go now, I'm tired of being insulted and of people thinking I need to be pitied.

ICT the two greatest insults to me are to be pitied or called a liar and both have occurred so I'm no longer inclined to share or vent here anymore.

ICT I feel undesirable, unwanted and disgusting and no one is going to understand that. I just needed a release for how I feel, sorry if that said other things to people.

Slaps her

We talked about this. Cultivating play partners takes time and art. You have to give them just as much attention as they give you.

Being Polyamorous means that you give everyone you are with attention, on an almost daily basis. Checking in with them, touching them, loving them. You cannot for example disappear, and then expect things to remain the same, when you get back. You are in a relationship with all of these people, babe. So time and effort must be made. It goes both ways. Also, you have to tell them what you need. Yeah it sucks, and it's hard, but you have to say.. I need you to do this. Please.

And we talked about the blanket permission also. I know. I know. But still. If being with others is who you are then it bears working through again.

But you aren't ugly, stupid or whatever the litany of useless shit you wrote up there, and you know it. Next time I see this shit, a new rule will be instituted where you get your ass beat and get to say..."I'm an amazing and accomplished woman" Got it? So not playing here.

Side note- I beat the ass of a very sweet girl tonight. And now I am a little hooked. Somehow the paddle felt very good and right in my hand.

 

[Vail_Indigo]

Ausus, as usual, is right. I've actually gone through somewhat similar periods online.
I'll have like a bunch of girls as playmates and intimates, and, for whatever reason, I stop paying attention to them (I suffer from ADOS) and then when my attention returns, their attention has, understandably, wandered off as well.
I only recently realized why.
Any kind of meaningful relationship, poly or otherwise, requires effort. But, as tiring and annoying as maintenance is, it is so worth it. There are girls here I make sure I connect with regularly, if only to talk, and it pays off quite a bit. Not only do I have friends that understand me, but the sex is incredible.
Ausus and I do so well here because we are in touch all the time. If we weren't, if we didn't make that effort, well, eventually we'd wander away, and while we might still play, it would lack the power that it has.

More, finding playmates of worth IS work, time, effort, skill, art. Also worth it. Isn't it nice to find out that you really connect in some way before you are in the middle of things and just bored?

Anyhow, my real point here, I suppose, is that relationships of any kind, on or offline, require commitment. Are there always people you can 'booty call'? Sure. But, little Minx, I think it is more than obvious that those are not the relationships you are interested in.

 

[Daydream_weaver]

I confess...

It's raining and I want to go dance in it.

Thunderstorms are coming tonight...makes me squirmy and heated.

I need the feel of flesh.

I miss my Wolf and wish...so many things I probably shouldn't.

 

[dragonrazor]

It's raining and I want to go dance in it.

Thunderstorms are coming tonight...makes me squirmy and heated.

I need the feel of flesh.

I miss my Wolf and wish...so many things I probably shouldn't.

I confess that I wish I were there. Thunderstorms are a rush.

 

[Jokas_Wild]

I confess that it's actually possible to sweat out your anger about things that are beyond your control. 7 ass kicking hours of furniture moving with no break is surprising cathartic though I am sore today.

 

[Daydream_weaver]

I confess that I wish I were there. Thunderstorms are a rush.

I love thunderstorms. I wish I still lived in the country where I could experience it better. Being in the middle of town I can't see the sky enough.

 

[dragonrazor]

I love thunderstorms. I wish I still lived in the country where I could experience it better. Being in the middle of town I can't see the sky enough.

I technically live out in the country now, but...meh.... All I can say is I'd love to own an old ski lodge.

And I confess that that gives me an idea for a thread.

 

[Miss Sixxy]

ICT I will not be able to contain myself between now and Oct 1st

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

ICT I am happily contemplating an evening of nothing....absolutely, gloriously nothing....

 

[Vail_Indigo]

ICT I have to go to the supermarkt again if I want to manage to make dinner tonight or tomorrow and I'm really whining over nothing but I don't feel like cooking even though this basic pasta bake sounds tasty but I really want someone else to make it for my preferably a girl with luscious curves and insatiable appetite for my flesh but I'd settle for gnomes or giraffes or anything else that can cook and I don't wanna!

poutfootstomp

 

[dragonrazor]

ICT I have to go to the supermarkt again if I want to manage to make dinner tonight or tomorrow and I'm really whining over nothing but I don't feel like cooking even though this basic pasta bake sounds tasty but I really want someone else to make it for my preferably a girl with luscious curves and insatiable appetite for my flesh but I'd settle for gnomes or giraffes or anything else that can cook and I don't wanna!

poutfootstomp

I confess that pasta bake sounds good too.