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Mary Montrose
Christmas in Belgium. Annie has laughingly christened our cubicle in the long attic where the Voluntaries sleep "the Ice Palace" and it lives up to its description. Both of us have chillblains and chapped lips and perpetually running noses.
"With the compliments of the Season," she says and hands me a small parcel wrapped in very wrinkly brown paper. I dart her a look of surprise and she blushes. "It's nothing special, Mary. You've seen me working on it for ages, but I thought I'd tie it up like a proper Christmas present...in memory of happier days."
I am more touched than I can say, and unwrap the limp paper slowly, careful not to tear it. Inside is a gloriously red knitted scarf.
"Red is your colour, Mary. Did you know that? After the War you ought to have your dressmaker outfit you with nothing but crimson and scarlet."
I hardly trust my voice. Acts of kindness always have this effect on me. I know there are tears welling up in my eyes.
"Here, you silly goose. Let me put it on you. You've been snuffling and sniffling for ages."
It is as hard for Annie to accept my emotion as it is for me to keep from displaying it. She brusquely winds the scarf around my neck as I weep. In the end, I give myself a case of hiccoughs that makes us both start to laugh.
"But I don't have anything for you!" I say finally, and the hugeness of my thoughtlessness weighs on my heart like a stone.
"Every day you have had something for me, Mary. Every day since we have been friends."
Another storm of weeping overtakes me, and this time Annie joins in. Of course, she can be sentimental for only a minute. Pretending to be cross, she says (between sniffs) "I had to make you my friend, of course. You're far too pretty to have as an enemy. All the lads notice you, Mary, whether you see it or not."
"I've just got a regular English face...and freckles," I hiccough.
"And huge dark melting eyes like one of those Burne-Jones damosels." She pauses for a moment. When she speaks again, her voice is very soft. "I have sometimes thought that Cyril would end up with you, Mary, and not me at all."
"Miss? Are you all right?"
The voice of the Major brings me back to my senses instantly, and blush to the tips of my ears.
"Yes, Major. Quite all right." To hide my face I turn round to get the suture kit. Thankfully, he won't need more than two or three stitches. Still, I shall have to be quick about it.
"This won't be pleasant, but I promise I'll do my best not to make it any worse than it has to be," I say, the needle poised in my hand. With a task to accomplish, I feel in control again. The ghosts are banished to some far corner of my mind.
"You left me for a moment," the Major says suddenly.
"I beg your pardon?" Looking at him very hard.
"I could see it in your eyes. You were remembering something."
I am so embarrassed that I wish I could drop down through the floor. No doubt he is thinking of all the miserable stories told about the Voluntaries. How we are nothing but amateurs; nothing but frivolous girls.
"Look, it's nothing to be ashamed of," he says quickly. "You Voluntaries are doing a hell of a job. And with a professionalism and grace that does your country proud."
I know my mouth must be hanging open. After his stony silence, this sudden outpouring of human sympathy is almost more than I can bear. In spite of myself I can feel my eyes filling with water. Oh, no, not this! For God's sake, I have work to do! I tell myself furiously.
But it is no use. The needle falls from my hand and I have to turn my face to the wall, my whole body wracked with long, shuddering sobs. God only knows what the Major thinks.
Christmas in Belgium. Annie has laughingly christened our cubicle in the long attic where the Voluntaries sleep "the Ice Palace" and it lives up to its description. Both of us have chillblains and chapped lips and perpetually running noses.
"With the compliments of the Season," she says and hands me a small parcel wrapped in very wrinkly brown paper. I dart her a look of surprise and she blushes. "It's nothing special, Mary. You've seen me working on it for ages, but I thought I'd tie it up like a proper Christmas present...in memory of happier days."
I am more touched than I can say, and unwrap the limp paper slowly, careful not to tear it. Inside is a gloriously red knitted scarf.
"Red is your colour, Mary. Did you know that? After the War you ought to have your dressmaker outfit you with nothing but crimson and scarlet."
I hardly trust my voice. Acts of kindness always have this effect on me. I know there are tears welling up in my eyes.
"Here, you silly goose. Let me put it on you. You've been snuffling and sniffling for ages."
It is as hard for Annie to accept my emotion as it is for me to keep from displaying it. She brusquely winds the scarf around my neck as I weep. In the end, I give myself a case of hiccoughs that makes us both start to laugh.
"But I don't have anything for you!" I say finally, and the hugeness of my thoughtlessness weighs on my heart like a stone.
"Every day you have had something for me, Mary. Every day since we have been friends."
Another storm of weeping overtakes me, and this time Annie joins in. Of course, she can be sentimental for only a minute. Pretending to be cross, she says (between sniffs) "I had to make you my friend, of course. You're far too pretty to have as an enemy. All the lads notice you, Mary, whether you see it or not."
"I've just got a regular English face...and freckles," I hiccough.
"And huge dark melting eyes like one of those Burne-Jones damosels." She pauses for a moment. When she speaks again, her voice is very soft. "I have sometimes thought that Cyril would end up with you, Mary, and not me at all."
"Miss? Are you all right?"
The voice of the Major brings me back to my senses instantly, and blush to the tips of my ears.
"Yes, Major. Quite all right." To hide my face I turn round to get the suture kit. Thankfully, he won't need more than two or three stitches. Still, I shall have to be quick about it.
"This won't be pleasant, but I promise I'll do my best not to make it any worse than it has to be," I say, the needle poised in my hand. With a task to accomplish, I feel in control again. The ghosts are banished to some far corner of my mind.
"You left me for a moment," the Major says suddenly.
"I beg your pardon?" Looking at him very hard.
"I could see it in your eyes. You were remembering something."
I am so embarrassed that I wish I could drop down through the floor. No doubt he is thinking of all the miserable stories told about the Voluntaries. How we are nothing but amateurs; nothing but frivolous girls.
"Look, it's nothing to be ashamed of," he says quickly. "You Voluntaries are doing a hell of a job. And with a professionalism and grace that does your country proud."
I know my mouth must be hanging open. After his stony silence, this sudden outpouring of human sympathy is almost more than I can bear. In spite of myself I can feel my eyes filling with water. Oh, no, not this! For God's sake, I have work to do! I tell myself furiously.
But it is no use. The needle falls from my hand and I have to turn my face to the wall, my whole body wracked with long, shuddering sobs. God only knows what the Major thinks.
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