Apollo Wilde
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“You’ve such a way with words.” Light mockery there; no harm, no foul. She wasn’t insulted, and if she were to be honest, she felt way more assured of herself now that she wasn’t, well, wet and naked and in close spaces with him. Besides, he did have something of a pleasant voice, and listening to him speak was almost as pleasurable as the answers he provided.
And so things went - dawn, day, night, week to weekend. She grew used to his presence all too easily - well, this is why people had pets. Not that he eagerly ran to greet her once she came home from work. He was a shadow in her home, something she had to remind herself was there. The first few days after she’d returned to work, she’d been startled more than once by him, caught up in the maelstrom that was the work week and so used to her own habits - ah, that would be something that he noticed quickly. She was a creature of habit, like all humans, running in her large, lonely circles.
It was hard to tell when one day truly moved into the next, so set was her routine, the only variables so minor they would be easily overlooked. A difference in her tea or tea cup, a stop to the garden center on the way home. A change in her perfume, all done by her, according to whims that were hers and hers alone. Rocks worn down by the constant hands of the ocean, she would eventually start…really talking to him. Idle conversations, about what he liked to eat, if he had any interest in the garden she had outside (another source of her pride, he would come to discover), if he had left the home, spoken to any of the neighbors. The neighbors themselves were shades inhabiting a different world, a world of cook outs and children playing and easy socialization, and then there was Ava, trapped behind the glass of a zoologist, a specimen to be observed but not directly interacted with.
If her house could breathe, it would breathe the distinct odor of idleness and loneliness. There were no phone conversations, no more than a cursory greeting to neighbors who would happen to be outside and spoke more out of the rules of civility than desire, the unspoken snub rankling, prickling, turning inwards and slowly drawing blood. Her hobbies were solitary - gardening, reading, cooking. But pulled by some quirk in her upbringing, even if she wasn’t directly obsequious to him, she, in her own way, went out of her way to accommodate him, once his being there ceased to frighten her, ceased to be an unexpected break in the normal. They weren’t major concessions; just those born out of a genteel hospitality - small, thoughtful things that would characterize her as a thoughtless giver. Had he mentioned a brand of tea that he liked the smell of in passing, he would find that she kept it in the house for him. Had he stopped to admire a particular bloom in her garden, he would find that she took special care of it. Media would gush about how such things, small considerations of others, meant that there was a spark of love there, and only “love” specifically because she was female; men would, of course, make no such small gestures, they were only there to be pursued - but there was no such deeper emotion there. It was being polite, plain and simple, and had he the ability to look into her heart, there was a sense of gladness there, the act of doing for others a pleasure in itself.
She’d kept her promise on movie nights - consulting him on titles, setting it up to be its own ceremonial thing once a week. She would cook, turn the lights low, and settle in with him. There was distance, at first, but as humans are intrinsically drawn to others, she would move closer with each week, ending, eventually, with her side against his, and there it would stall. No head on his shoulder, no seeking an arm around her. It was a strange space to be in; to have this human here, but unable to allow herself to grow closer. If life had continued along, sleepily passing by everything else in its own steady decay, they very well could have kept circling each other, wary, but curious, unable to allow themselves the first bowing.
One hiccup was all it took. An errant buzzing of a text on her phone, the flurry of fingers over a keyboard. The staring at a screen, the flush in her cheeks, the internal tug. And then, the final severing of what was a human relationship, of what had pulled her out of her own trail into something that could have been welcoming, that she could have been normal, and her walls came tumbling down. There was no grand announcement, no desperate change. She would keep her unspoken word about the regularity of her movie nights, but the title, ah, the title this evening was a bit different, risky, one would even say: “In the Realm of the Senses,” - nothing so high art as what she’d introduced him to during previous weeks. This was a tale of raw desire, not prettied up by high production values. The movie had barely started when she knew she was going to make a mistake, but had finally gotten past the point of caring. Though his eyes were on the screen in front of them, she could sense that he was waiting; had been waiting all of this time. What hunter aimlessly chased after prey - and that’s what she was, she knew it, but at least she could be prey on her own terms.
With a clumsiness born out of disuse, she clambered onto his lap, straddling him with a confidence she didn’t entirely feel, and pressed her mouth to his, hardly waiting before parting her lips to caress his tongue with her own. If she was the aggressive one, if she was on the attack, it would feel like less of a mistake, more of her own plotting, less like she was being served up onto a tray onto an entirely disinterested party. Pride lent her additional strength - they’d been in this circle for weeks, months, and his disinterest was enough to wound her deeper than anything else. She was no beauty, she knew that, no head turner, but surely she was a woman, surely she had something that could be desired; she’d had lovers in the past. What made him so different? How dare he be different - and if he was going to be placid and to himself this entire time, for however long they had, then she was going to have to sate her curiosity and create her own balm for her pride.
She didn’t wait for a response from him, only deepened the kiss and rocked her hips into his, her hands running down the plane of his chest.
And so things went - dawn, day, night, week to weekend. She grew used to his presence all too easily - well, this is why people had pets. Not that he eagerly ran to greet her once she came home from work. He was a shadow in her home, something she had to remind herself was there. The first few days after she’d returned to work, she’d been startled more than once by him, caught up in the maelstrom that was the work week and so used to her own habits - ah, that would be something that he noticed quickly. She was a creature of habit, like all humans, running in her large, lonely circles.
It was hard to tell when one day truly moved into the next, so set was her routine, the only variables so minor they would be easily overlooked. A difference in her tea or tea cup, a stop to the garden center on the way home. A change in her perfume, all done by her, according to whims that were hers and hers alone. Rocks worn down by the constant hands of the ocean, she would eventually start…really talking to him. Idle conversations, about what he liked to eat, if he had any interest in the garden she had outside (another source of her pride, he would come to discover), if he had left the home, spoken to any of the neighbors. The neighbors themselves were shades inhabiting a different world, a world of cook outs and children playing and easy socialization, and then there was Ava, trapped behind the glass of a zoologist, a specimen to be observed but not directly interacted with.
If her house could breathe, it would breathe the distinct odor of idleness and loneliness. There were no phone conversations, no more than a cursory greeting to neighbors who would happen to be outside and spoke more out of the rules of civility than desire, the unspoken snub rankling, prickling, turning inwards and slowly drawing blood. Her hobbies were solitary - gardening, reading, cooking. But pulled by some quirk in her upbringing, even if she wasn’t directly obsequious to him, she, in her own way, went out of her way to accommodate him, once his being there ceased to frighten her, ceased to be an unexpected break in the normal. They weren’t major concessions; just those born out of a genteel hospitality - small, thoughtful things that would characterize her as a thoughtless giver. Had he mentioned a brand of tea that he liked the smell of in passing, he would find that she kept it in the house for him. Had he stopped to admire a particular bloom in her garden, he would find that she took special care of it. Media would gush about how such things, small considerations of others, meant that there was a spark of love there, and only “love” specifically because she was female; men would, of course, make no such small gestures, they were only there to be pursued - but there was no such deeper emotion there. It was being polite, plain and simple, and had he the ability to look into her heart, there was a sense of gladness there, the act of doing for others a pleasure in itself.
She’d kept her promise on movie nights - consulting him on titles, setting it up to be its own ceremonial thing once a week. She would cook, turn the lights low, and settle in with him. There was distance, at first, but as humans are intrinsically drawn to others, she would move closer with each week, ending, eventually, with her side against his, and there it would stall. No head on his shoulder, no seeking an arm around her. It was a strange space to be in; to have this human here, but unable to allow herself to grow closer. If life had continued along, sleepily passing by everything else in its own steady decay, they very well could have kept circling each other, wary, but curious, unable to allow themselves the first bowing.
One hiccup was all it took. An errant buzzing of a text on her phone, the flurry of fingers over a keyboard. The staring at a screen, the flush in her cheeks, the internal tug. And then, the final severing of what was a human relationship, of what had pulled her out of her own trail into something that could have been welcoming, that she could have been normal, and her walls came tumbling down. There was no grand announcement, no desperate change. She would keep her unspoken word about the regularity of her movie nights, but the title, ah, the title this evening was a bit different, risky, one would even say: “In the Realm of the Senses,” - nothing so high art as what she’d introduced him to during previous weeks. This was a tale of raw desire, not prettied up by high production values. The movie had barely started when she knew she was going to make a mistake, but had finally gotten past the point of caring. Though his eyes were on the screen in front of them, she could sense that he was waiting; had been waiting all of this time. What hunter aimlessly chased after prey - and that’s what she was, she knew it, but at least she could be prey on her own terms.
With a clumsiness born out of disuse, she clambered onto his lap, straddling him with a confidence she didn’t entirely feel, and pressed her mouth to his, hardly waiting before parting her lips to caress his tongue with her own. If she was the aggressive one, if she was on the attack, it would feel like less of a mistake, more of her own plotting, less like she was being served up onto a tray onto an entirely disinterested party. Pride lent her additional strength - they’d been in this circle for weeks, months, and his disinterest was enough to wound her deeper than anything else. She was no beauty, she knew that, no head turner, but surely she was a woman, surely she had something that could be desired; she’d had lovers in the past. What made him so different? How dare he be different - and if he was going to be placid and to himself this entire time, for however long they had, then she was going to have to sate her curiosity and create her own balm for her pride.
She didn’t wait for a response from him, only deepened the kiss and rocked her hips into his, her hands running down the plane of his chest.