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Aquilina furrowed her brows when she heard Marcus’ heavy steps near her desk. She wanted to move away from him, she had no intention of closing the physical distance between the two but she was stuck sitting at her desk.*
She felt her heart beat faster and faster when Marcus talked to her in his soothing voice. She wanted to slap him, she didn’t like having him talk to her in what her mind thought was a condescending way. She was Aquilina Caesar, the late Emperor’s daughter, she was strong, independent and did not need a man, especially a man her head told her to despise, trying to soothe her.*
The air in her lungs lingered for a second or two longer than usual, making her feel uneasy when Marcus started to massage her shoulders. She wanted to reject his touch, but his strong hands on her tired aching shoulders was a treat. She glanced up at him for a moment, but looking up into his warm and loving brown eyes along with his words of concerns, made her heart feel heavy with emotions that she was not yet ready to accept.*
She wondered if Marcus was right, if she was “always so tense.” Aquilina didn’t think she was, but then her father, the Emperor was assassinated about two months ago and she was being forced to marry the man responsible for her father’s death in the betterment of her Empire. She always felt the weight of the Empire on her shoulder. Marcus was right in how she had multiple part to play, an Aquilina for each occasion, for each person.*
Aquilina scoffed when Marcus told her that she could let her guard down when she was around him. Her head automatically replied that Marcus was the last person she would ever be ‘just herself’ around. But then she stopped and thought for a moment. Did she herself even know who she really was? She knew it wasn't the Aquilina that interacted with her father's old allies, or even her mother. Was it the Aquilina that interacted with her siblings? Could it be the Aquiljna that interacted with her servants?
Or was it possibly the Aquilina that interacted with Marcus? Granted, when she was with Marcus she was rarely ever cherry around him or even somewhat happy. But she always spoke her mind and expressed her true thoughts and opinions when they interacted. She might not always be at ease with him, but just her being able to speak her mind to him was far more than being herself than with the majority of the people she interacted with, even her own mother.
When she was with her mother she always censored herself, making sure to always agree with her and to not cross her as having her in a bad mood was never a good idea.
When Aquilina spent time with Marcus she never hid words from him as she didn’t fear the consequences or the repercussions, rather it was the opposite it was as if she wanted to see where the boundaries were with Marcus. Since the two had known each other, Aquilina had never held her tongue when it came to her dislike towards Marcus, even at times saying vile words towards him. She’s also freely judged him for his promiscuous ways in the past and has openly accepted that would be the case after their marriage, despite his words of continuance declaration of love towards Aquilina. As she had made it know to Marcus that she does not consider there to be any worth, any value with the words, with the promises Marcus makes to Aquilina.
Aquilina furrowed both her brows when Marcus started to whisper about their supposed trip to Lake Bracciano. His low voice now just in a soft tone tickling her ear. She had heard of Lake Bracciano before, yet never had a reason to visit the nearby beach. She closed her eyes as Marcus whispered in her ear,
“We could have a beach cleared out for us,”
Aquilna imagined sunny blue skies and just as equally or perhaps even more beautiful water, with a sandy beach.
“We could bring wine, sit in the sand sipping it, let our feet out in the water, feed each other grapes and olives.”
Aquilina furrowed her brows, she had no interest in sitting in the sand with Marcus and drinking wine with him, feeding each other grapes and olives. She didn’t find it at all appealing. She was starting to despise wine as she found herself drinking it too much when it was accompanied at a meal and having to suffer the consequences of feeling the lack of control of her coordinations and thoughts. There were many things Aquilina despised and one of them was feeling lack of control, and feeling a lack of control of her own body was a crime to herself she would not commit in front of General Marcus.
“Not a care in the world for a few hours, the sand between our toes, the water lapping against the shore.”
Aquilina did dream of a day where she didn’t feel the weight of her Empire on her slender shoulders. She constantly worried about the happiness of her people, the stability of the Forum, the peace within the Empire and most importantly the safety of her younger siblings. To many she might look as though she was a carefree, spoiled, the Emperor’s daughter, who was known as to be the most beautiful Roman in all of the Empire but there was so much more to her than what the eyes could see.
A small crinkle of a smile formed on Aquilina's lips when Marcus talked about his mother. She had little care about Marcus himself but she was a curious creature. She liked learning about Marcus' family, about his background as he was the man she was to marry. Despite the physical distance between Marcus and his mother, she found the way he talked about her, with genuine care and consideration intriguing.
Aquilina felt a sigh of relief leave her lips as Marcus was not in her personal space anymore as he stood up and walked to one of her windows. She felt a sharp pain in her heart as it had been beating faster while Marcus was kneeling next to her. She had no reason to be anxious near him, she knew he would never harm her, she knew he needed her alive and healthy to become the next Emperor, she actually felt safe around him…yet there was something about him that made her heart go, pitter…patter.
Aquilina waited for Marcus to stop speaking as she rolled her eyes, she was starting to get annoyed with him yet again. She didn’t want to argue with him, she didn’t want to be cross with him, she wanted to be civil with him yet she had no desire to say words that pleased him.
“Maybe I’m so upset because I’m being forced to marry when I’m not yet ready to marry…” Aquilina replied carefully, her tone was cold perhaps slightly bitter, yet it wasn’t angry or cruel. She stayed sitting in her chair, her body still unwilling to stand for her guest.
“If my father, the great late Emperor Caesar was still alive I wouldn’t be in the position of having to marry so suddenly. I would have the opportunity to properly be courted, to actually marry for love, but no, you and your selfish desire to become Emperor took that away from me.” Now Aquilina’s voice was full of anger and her voice was raised yet again, as her right hand had turned into a fist.
Her own voice echoed into her ear and she breathed deeply, feeling the air fill her belly, she quickly shook her head. She knew yelling at Marcus would do no good, she knew he did what he thought was best for the Empire and perhaps, if she dare ever admit it, what he did was best for the Empire.
“I’m fine. I’m just tired of being cooped up in the Palace as I’ve said. Since my father’s death and then your departure to fight the barbarians I’ve been kept perfectly safe here.” Aquiina’s last words sarcastically added.
“The only time I was properly allowed out of the Palace was for the procession of my father’s funeral. But no visits to the theater, to the chariot racetracks, to the Colosseum…I’ve even been regulated to when I can go outside to our fields of green. They are right on Palace grounds.” Granted, the fields of green Aquilina was referring to rolled out to several acres of lush green meadows with many fruit trees, and were often used for hunting by the late Emperor and his deceased sons.
“If it wasn’t for the courtyards, I wouldn’t know that sun, the moon and the stars still existed.” Aquilina added with a scoff. “Oh but I’m not allowed to be in the courtyard after the sunsets because who knows when a group of people posed as servants can come in the Palace walls and attempt to take the life of the Empress to be?” Aquilina said gently shaking her head, remembering how Marcus planned her father’s assassination.
Aquilina listened to her own words and bit her bottom lip harshly, she despised herself for being this bitter to Marcus as she knew it would not solve anything between the two or do any good for her Empire.
“By the time you’re actually Emperor you won’t have the luxury of even thinking about leaving the city.” Aquilina said with a gentle smile, her voice trying to find its peace again. A trip to Lake Bracciano sounded like the perfect remedy for the stir crazy, adventure seeking Aquilina, and she found it rather sweet for Marcus to even consider it. Yet she knew it would never happen since Emperors were always too busy with their role in running the Empire.
“You aren’t actually serious in offering your mother, the woman who is to be known the mother of the Emperor your…” Aquilina was still having difficulty in imagining Marcus living in,what she thought as rather small and quaint estate.
“In your…home…” Aquilina said the last words with difficulty. She could never be comfortable in such a small area, that would drive her stir crazy.
Aquilina furrowed her brows, she reminded herself that she and Marcus grew up in different households. She an Imperial Princess, him a son of commoners who found success as merchants. If his mother is a “simple woman” as Marcus proclaimed than perhaps his estate is suitable for her.
“But she is your mother and she should be allowed to make her own decision.” Aquilina wanted to make her opinion clear on that, that his mother would not be forced into a living arrangement similar to how she was feeling.
Aquilina tried to imagine Marcus growing up in a loving household. She was jealous that his parents married out of love, a luxury the Imperial Princess would never be given.
“Well I wish I had the luxury to marry out of love, but that was taken from me.” Aquilina scoffed, making a direct comment to Marcus, she didn’t even try to make a not so thinly veiled comment.
“I gave you an option, a possible solution in trying to help you in running the Empire. Just a couple of hours, several maybe, handful at most for just today…” Aquilina said shaking her head. She was annoyed that Marcus declined her offer, she had thought that he had not taken her seriously since she was merely a woman. Despite his words and promises that he wants her advice in running the Empire, it seemed as though he would never give them proper consideration.
“But if you decline, then there is really not much I can do for you.” Aquilina said bitterly.
“Now you rudely interrupted me while I was writing a letter to my sister in Persia, I need to make sure Prince Darius isn’t planning on an attack since he was rudely denied any access to the Palace.” Aquilina said with a scoff. “And then I shall write an invitation to Governor Pido and I’ll have it sent to you first, so you can see if its to your liking…” Aquilina said rolling her eyes.”
“Is there anything else General Marcus Tiberius?” Aquilina’s tone cold as she finally stood up from her chair as she was ready for him to leave her room and henceforth the palace.
She felt her heart beat faster and faster when Marcus talked to her in his soothing voice. She wanted to slap him, she didn’t like having him talk to her in what her mind thought was a condescending way. She was Aquilina Caesar, the late Emperor’s daughter, she was strong, independent and did not need a man, especially a man her head told her to despise, trying to soothe her.*
The air in her lungs lingered for a second or two longer than usual, making her feel uneasy when Marcus started to massage her shoulders. She wanted to reject his touch, but his strong hands on her tired aching shoulders was a treat. She glanced up at him for a moment, but looking up into his warm and loving brown eyes along with his words of concerns, made her heart feel heavy with emotions that she was not yet ready to accept.*
She wondered if Marcus was right, if she was “always so tense.” Aquilina didn’t think she was, but then her father, the Emperor was assassinated about two months ago and she was being forced to marry the man responsible for her father’s death in the betterment of her Empire. She always felt the weight of the Empire on her shoulder. Marcus was right in how she had multiple part to play, an Aquilina for each occasion, for each person.*
Aquilina scoffed when Marcus told her that she could let her guard down when she was around him. Her head automatically replied that Marcus was the last person she would ever be ‘just herself’ around. But then she stopped and thought for a moment. Did she herself even know who she really was? She knew it wasn't the Aquilina that interacted with her father's old allies, or even her mother. Was it the Aquilina that interacted with her siblings? Could it be the Aquiljna that interacted with her servants?
Or was it possibly the Aquilina that interacted with Marcus? Granted, when she was with Marcus she was rarely ever cherry around him or even somewhat happy. But she always spoke her mind and expressed her true thoughts and opinions when they interacted. She might not always be at ease with him, but just her being able to speak her mind to him was far more than being herself than with the majority of the people she interacted with, even her own mother.
When she was with her mother she always censored herself, making sure to always agree with her and to not cross her as having her in a bad mood was never a good idea.
When Aquilina spent time with Marcus she never hid words from him as she didn’t fear the consequences or the repercussions, rather it was the opposite it was as if she wanted to see where the boundaries were with Marcus. Since the two had known each other, Aquilina had never held her tongue when it came to her dislike towards Marcus, even at times saying vile words towards him. She’s also freely judged him for his promiscuous ways in the past and has openly accepted that would be the case after their marriage, despite his words of continuance declaration of love towards Aquilina. As she had made it know to Marcus that she does not consider there to be any worth, any value with the words, with the promises Marcus makes to Aquilina.
Aquilina furrowed both her brows when Marcus started to whisper about their supposed trip to Lake Bracciano. His low voice now just in a soft tone tickling her ear. She had heard of Lake Bracciano before, yet never had a reason to visit the nearby beach. She closed her eyes as Marcus whispered in her ear,
“We could have a beach cleared out for us,”
Aquilna imagined sunny blue skies and just as equally or perhaps even more beautiful water, with a sandy beach.
“We could bring wine, sit in the sand sipping it, let our feet out in the water, feed each other grapes and olives.”
Aquilina furrowed her brows, she had no interest in sitting in the sand with Marcus and drinking wine with him, feeding each other grapes and olives. She didn’t find it at all appealing. She was starting to despise wine as she found herself drinking it too much when it was accompanied at a meal and having to suffer the consequences of feeling the lack of control of her coordinations and thoughts. There were many things Aquilina despised and one of them was feeling lack of control, and feeling a lack of control of her own body was a crime to herself she would not commit in front of General Marcus.
“Not a care in the world for a few hours, the sand between our toes, the water lapping against the shore.”
Aquilina did dream of a day where she didn’t feel the weight of her Empire on her slender shoulders. She constantly worried about the happiness of her people, the stability of the Forum, the peace within the Empire and most importantly the safety of her younger siblings. To many she might look as though she was a carefree, spoiled, the Emperor’s daughter, who was known as to be the most beautiful Roman in all of the Empire but there was so much more to her than what the eyes could see.
A small crinkle of a smile formed on Aquilina's lips when Marcus talked about his mother. She had little care about Marcus himself but she was a curious creature. She liked learning about Marcus' family, about his background as he was the man she was to marry. Despite the physical distance between Marcus and his mother, she found the way he talked about her, with genuine care and consideration intriguing.
Aquilina felt a sigh of relief leave her lips as Marcus was not in her personal space anymore as he stood up and walked to one of her windows. She felt a sharp pain in her heart as it had been beating faster while Marcus was kneeling next to her. She had no reason to be anxious near him, she knew he would never harm her, she knew he needed her alive and healthy to become the next Emperor, she actually felt safe around him…yet there was something about him that made her heart go, pitter…patter.
Aquilina waited for Marcus to stop speaking as she rolled her eyes, she was starting to get annoyed with him yet again. She didn’t want to argue with him, she didn’t want to be cross with him, she wanted to be civil with him yet she had no desire to say words that pleased him.
“Maybe I’m so upset because I’m being forced to marry when I’m not yet ready to marry…” Aquilina replied carefully, her tone was cold perhaps slightly bitter, yet it wasn’t angry or cruel. She stayed sitting in her chair, her body still unwilling to stand for her guest.
“If my father, the great late Emperor Caesar was still alive I wouldn’t be in the position of having to marry so suddenly. I would have the opportunity to properly be courted, to actually marry for love, but no, you and your selfish desire to become Emperor took that away from me.” Now Aquilina’s voice was full of anger and her voice was raised yet again, as her right hand had turned into a fist.
Her own voice echoed into her ear and she breathed deeply, feeling the air fill her belly, she quickly shook her head. She knew yelling at Marcus would do no good, she knew he did what he thought was best for the Empire and perhaps, if she dare ever admit it, what he did was best for the Empire.
“I’m fine. I’m just tired of being cooped up in the Palace as I’ve said. Since my father’s death and then your departure to fight the barbarians I’ve been kept perfectly safe here.” Aquiina’s last words sarcastically added.
“The only time I was properly allowed out of the Palace was for the procession of my father’s funeral. But no visits to the theater, to the chariot racetracks, to the Colosseum…I’ve even been regulated to when I can go outside to our fields of green. They are right on Palace grounds.” Granted, the fields of green Aquilina was referring to rolled out to several acres of lush green meadows with many fruit trees, and were often used for hunting by the late Emperor and his deceased sons.
“If it wasn’t for the courtyards, I wouldn’t know that sun, the moon and the stars still existed.” Aquilina added with a scoff. “Oh but I’m not allowed to be in the courtyard after the sunsets because who knows when a group of people posed as servants can come in the Palace walls and attempt to take the life of the Empress to be?” Aquilina said gently shaking her head, remembering how Marcus planned her father’s assassination.
Aquilina listened to her own words and bit her bottom lip harshly, she despised herself for being this bitter to Marcus as she knew it would not solve anything between the two or do any good for her Empire.
“By the time you’re actually Emperor you won’t have the luxury of even thinking about leaving the city.” Aquilina said with a gentle smile, her voice trying to find its peace again. A trip to Lake Bracciano sounded like the perfect remedy for the stir crazy, adventure seeking Aquilina, and she found it rather sweet for Marcus to even consider it. Yet she knew it would never happen since Emperors were always too busy with their role in running the Empire.
“You aren’t actually serious in offering your mother, the woman who is to be known the mother of the Emperor your…” Aquilina was still having difficulty in imagining Marcus living in,what she thought as rather small and quaint estate.
“In your…home…” Aquilina said the last words with difficulty. She could never be comfortable in such a small area, that would drive her stir crazy.
Aquilina furrowed her brows, she reminded herself that she and Marcus grew up in different households. She an Imperial Princess, him a son of commoners who found success as merchants. If his mother is a “simple woman” as Marcus proclaimed than perhaps his estate is suitable for her.
“But she is your mother and she should be allowed to make her own decision.” Aquilina wanted to make her opinion clear on that, that his mother would not be forced into a living arrangement similar to how she was feeling.
Aquilina tried to imagine Marcus growing up in a loving household. She was jealous that his parents married out of love, a luxury the Imperial Princess would never be given.
“Well I wish I had the luxury to marry out of love, but that was taken from me.” Aquilina scoffed, making a direct comment to Marcus, she didn’t even try to make a not so thinly veiled comment.
“I gave you an option, a possible solution in trying to help you in running the Empire. Just a couple of hours, several maybe, handful at most for just today…” Aquilina said shaking her head. She was annoyed that Marcus declined her offer, she had thought that he had not taken her seriously since she was merely a woman. Despite his words and promises that he wants her advice in running the Empire, it seemed as though he would never give them proper consideration.
“But if you decline, then there is really not much I can do for you.” Aquilina said bitterly.
“Now you rudely interrupted me while I was writing a letter to my sister in Persia, I need to make sure Prince Darius isn’t planning on an attack since he was rudely denied any access to the Palace.” Aquilina said with a scoff. “And then I shall write an invitation to Governor Pido and I’ll have it sent to you first, so you can see if its to your liking…” Aquilina said rolling her eyes.”
“Is there anything else General Marcus Tiberius?” Aquilina’s tone cold as she finally stood up from her chair as she was ready for him to leave her room and henceforth the palace.