~*~The~RainBow~Tells~*~

[Gusty Wind]

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[zetacon4]

Fuck this too!!!

In 1O,OOO million years...

I could never makes him jealous of me for anything.

New Flash, sweetie!
I have it straight from the horses mouth! You are the very center of his universe! But, right now, you are hurting so much, you can't see that. I am here to be your friend as much as you need me. I know how everything seems so intense and awful right now. Please, I have been there too. And it does get better. I am giving you a big hug and wishing you to feel better right now! OK?

 

[Gusty Wind]

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[zetacon4]

hey pal..man...

if you been they...

You should know better...

Obviously.. you not far eoungh...pal...

I am FUCKING fell of the EDGE you know...boy..!!

And only hang~on to one fucking tiny branch

Waiting for it to break...

I cac let go my hands...anytime I wants

JUST like I get off the SLING~SHOUT...

If you know what I mean....LOL

Let my hand be that branch you hang to!

Let me hold onto to you too!

What is a good friend for, if not to be by the side of another when they are in such pain and agony!?

Let this one thing rest in your heart today - I KNOW you are very very lovely and sweet!
And you are very valuable to me. Don't think anything other than that.
Let me hold you tight and tell you I will keep you warm in my arms. You can make it through this. I promise!
You are NEVER too far out there. I have hold of you. You can't fall now!

 

[Gusty Wind]

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[Gusty Wind]

Oh well...

Thank You...what a good PAL for...THANKs

...and... if I ever fall...ehehe... let it falls....

For that's all..

 

[zetacon4]

Oh well...

Thank You...what a good PAL for...THANKs

You can't get rid of me that easily! I am like sweet honey - sticking to you even when you lick at me!

 

[Gusty Wind]

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[zetacon4]

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you don't have to stay....hey I say...

you can leave anytime you want

you don't even have to say bye.. or anything...LOL

I can FUCK~UP anything just like that.mmmhm gggrrrrrrr

And that's NOT what I want !!!

Gusty, sweet one! I see you don't really know me yet.
I am a very real and tenacious friend. Did you ever get some very good glue stuck on your fingers? Well, that is like me.
I am here for you, to help you, to love you even when you think you are not worth loving. That is when love is needed the most.
You do NOT repulse me. I see the beauty in you. I will help bring that back to the surface again. I am so sad that you are where you are now, but I know that you will move out of that too. You will see beauty again. I will be here, no matter what!

 

[Gusty Wind]

 

[Gusty Wind]

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[zetacon4]

This is a on going process....

NON STOP ~ couversation...

Within GUSTY herself....

Please feel free to commends....

I would keep...

Talking... writting.. sending...

I don't CARE if you DON"T CARE.. hehe.. LOL

Yes, it is an ongoing process within you.

Let me tell you something about me now.

I was married in 1974 to a lady with two kids from her first marriage. I was not in love with her. I was somehow talked into marrying her. I have since endured many years of agony with her severe mental problems. She is much better now, but there was a time when she was in the hospital many months undergoing treatment. She is still on many medications. And she has no desire for a man or a relationship with one. We had filed papers for a divorce in 1985, but she went into the hospital about that time, and I had the children living with me.

So even now, I live in the same house, but not as her husband. Just use part of the house for my space to live. I am not yet divorced but I hope to get that soon. Money is the problem. We always get ourselves into money troubles.

I have in the past been very suicidal. Many times. I have been in very deep dispear. But I have come out of that and even with all my troubles, I now can hope for better things for me. Each day, I try to find new ways to improve me. To be a better man. To love more deeply those around me. I beleive that giving to others is the real key to my happiness.

So, when I tell you these things, you can know I am real and understand more than you might know. I truly do!
Now, tell me where it hurts. I can help you feel better too!

 

[Gusty Wind]

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[zetacon4]

I understand he has hurt you deeply. I do not think I can know your pain. I see how deep and strong it is. You must know how much I sorrow for you. I do not take sides or think to get between the two of you. It is a hurt that must be healed by both of you. Not just one. Each must work to heal the wounds. But it can be done. I know he wants too. He has told me he is very very sorry and he hates himself for doing it. Both of you are wounded by this. And both will have to work to find healing.
Just knowing that he wants that should make things begin to happen with you two. I am here to encourage and be a loving friend to assist in any way I can.

 

[zetacon4]

Good! Hold onto that love. It is the glue that will keep you both together. Work on restoring trust. Each must accept that the other has in some way slipped and fallen from the center and cherished spot in their lives. Repair that spot. Fill your heart with longing for each other. Do little things to show you value each other.

 

[Gusty Wind]

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[zetacon4]

You are stressing out too much.
Please take many slow breaths.
Just try to relax some.
Let it all just swooosh out of you.
Let it all float away.

If you keep typing and thinking all those bad things,
you will never let them go.
You are better than that.
You are not a fuck up!!!!!
You are strong, sweet, kind!
You are beautiful, lovely, a true woman of love.
You are so very desirable. More than you can know.
Say these things over and over. Leave the ugly behind.
It is NOT you. You are lovely, not ugly!
Do this now. Don't keep talking about those ugly things.
I love you, you must know that by now.
You must start loving yourself now too.

 

[Gusty Wind]

 

[zetacon4]

WOW !!! am I piss !! ??

WAS I PISS !!!

Am I engry am I PISS !!!

AM I FIRY ? FEEL like SHIT

OK, so you are pissed!

Now start telling yourself the good and positive things.
You can control how you feel by what you say!!!!
It really works. Give it a try right now.
Repeat over and over - I am strong I am good.
I am beautiful
I am lovely
I am so very desirable.
go on!!!!! Do it now!

 

[Gusty Wind]

duhhh

 

[zetacon4]

You are right! I don't!

And I am very sorry for you both that you have allowed something so beautiful and sweet to just run away.
I am beside myself with worry for you both.
You know I really do love you both!
I would not take a minute to help and be a good friend if I did not!!
I know you are all those lovely things.
And you must focus on the wonderful things about yourself first.
Believe in yourself. Know that you are still that beautiful, sexy creature. Do not allow his actions to bring you down.
You are soooo sexy and desirable.
He is blinded right now. He is suffering from this blindness just as you are in some ways.
It will take some time. But you both are strong and can do this.
I know you can. I believe you can.

Here is something that might help.
He mentioned to me that he wished you would just be able to relax some and play with me on the board here.
Let your mind get away from this for a bit.
I would like to tell you how wonderful you are.
You need to know that you still are so very beautiful.
It is not you that has lost anything.

 

[Gusty Wind]

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