katalynn
Playing with demons
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“I wonder if your mother knew we would meet someday. I don’t know why, but it is starting to feel that way.”
While her finger kept playing through his hair, she would occasionally trace over his neck and lightly caress around his ear. It did bring out those strange sensations from earlier as her own desires to be touched again increased. After a little while, she pulled her hand away with some hesitation, considering he was clearly enjoying it. If she was to be honest, she was enjoying it too.
“I may not know much about… intimacy or relationships. But…”
She looked away, trying to hide herself again. Even though this is just a dream, the emotions are still very real to her and with that, she didn’t quite know how to talk about those emotions. Also, she seriously didn’t want to seem weak and emotional either, that isn’t part of her personality, in order to live the way, she has been, she needed to be closed off and strong.
“Yet, I know enough to know that getting close to another person scares me. I have seen what relationships can do to people on many different levels. For me personally… It’s much more than that. People have never treated me with kindness, I don’t know how to respond to it. I never wanted a mate. The idea of having a mate scares me because I don’t know how to trust. I will always be wondering the worst…”
Sylvania sighed, believing that most likely made her sound like a bad person now. What’s said is said though and she did want to be honest with him. Considering they are going to be together for some time it seems. Also, all the touching that’s been happening recently, it both excited and terrified her. It wasn’t easy to look him in the eyes since she knew her own eyes would give her away. With that, she watches the flowing water of the river, unsure of how to trust this path she is caught up in.
“To be honest, I did enjoy what you did earlier in the bath… However, I wouldn’t be a good mate. I have never seen myself being with a mate, figured I would live life alone. Also, I can, at times, be very possessive. If I was to find a mate, I wouldn’t want to share him. I’ve been told that males don’t like the possessive attitude.”
She gives a little glance at his hands, a tiny smile teased her lips when thinking of how they felt roaming over her. However, she did her best to push that to the side, wondering how he would respond to everything she said. He has been locked and sleeping for forever and she is easily the first female he has seen since that time. Like with everyone else, she didn’t know what to believe, for all she knew, he could be using her for his own pent-up desires. All things considering, it wouldn’t be a difficult thing to believe.
Of course, she is too young and naïve to know much about how men really think, she hasn’t been around that many. There were a few in the fae realm, but they were closer to the other fae and dismissed her and they certainly had no boundaries at all!
“There are many things I don’t know, let alone understand. I just know that people like to lie and use me. I don’t believe that you are lying to me, I can sense when people are lying… If… This… whatever it is between us… moves forward… I need to know where I would stand with you. With you being so much older than I am… What if you find another female… more suited to be your mate.”
While her finger kept playing through his hair, she would occasionally trace over his neck and lightly caress around his ear. It did bring out those strange sensations from earlier as her own desires to be touched again increased. After a little while, she pulled her hand away with some hesitation, considering he was clearly enjoying it. If she was to be honest, she was enjoying it too.
“I may not know much about… intimacy or relationships. But…”
She looked away, trying to hide herself again. Even though this is just a dream, the emotions are still very real to her and with that, she didn’t quite know how to talk about those emotions. Also, she seriously didn’t want to seem weak and emotional either, that isn’t part of her personality, in order to live the way, she has been, she needed to be closed off and strong.
“Yet, I know enough to know that getting close to another person scares me. I have seen what relationships can do to people on many different levels. For me personally… It’s much more than that. People have never treated me with kindness, I don’t know how to respond to it. I never wanted a mate. The idea of having a mate scares me because I don’t know how to trust. I will always be wondering the worst…”
Sylvania sighed, believing that most likely made her sound like a bad person now. What’s said is said though and she did want to be honest with him. Considering they are going to be together for some time it seems. Also, all the touching that’s been happening recently, it both excited and terrified her. It wasn’t easy to look him in the eyes since she knew her own eyes would give her away. With that, she watches the flowing water of the river, unsure of how to trust this path she is caught up in.
“To be honest, I did enjoy what you did earlier in the bath… However, I wouldn’t be a good mate. I have never seen myself being with a mate, figured I would live life alone. Also, I can, at times, be very possessive. If I was to find a mate, I wouldn’t want to share him. I’ve been told that males don’t like the possessive attitude.”
She gives a little glance at his hands, a tiny smile teased her lips when thinking of how they felt roaming over her. However, she did her best to push that to the side, wondering how he would respond to everything she said. He has been locked and sleeping for forever and she is easily the first female he has seen since that time. Like with everyone else, she didn’t know what to believe, for all she knew, he could be using her for his own pent-up desires. All things considering, it wouldn’t be a difficult thing to believe.
Of course, she is too young and naïve to know much about how men really think, she hasn’t been around that many. There were a few in the fae realm, but they were closer to the other fae and dismissed her and they certainly had no boundaries at all!
“There are many things I don’t know, let alone understand. I just know that people like to lie and use me. I don’t believe that you are lying to me, I can sense when people are lying… If… This… whatever it is between us… moves forward… I need to know where I would stand with you. With you being so much older than I am… What if you find another female… more suited to be your mate.”