what first made you think there was something else?

I had a few tramatic things happen growing up, most of them had to do with force. It left me confused when I grew up, wondering if that is how it's supposed to be always but the relationships I had as I got older were not the same. They were very vanilla and I was always left feeling like something was missing. I always thought it was me but I couldn't get it out of my mind. I was always very sexual, my drive is through the roof and I was never satisfied. I started looking for that 'something' more. When I first learned about BDSM and D/s, I was scared and thrilled at the new sensations it brought out in me. The first time I felt the kiss of the flogger, the security of cuffs and the power of a Dom...I knew I had found what I was missing. I've always been submissive in nature, right down to the constant apologizing and need to please. At least now I can put a name to it.

thanks for listening...
 
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Pick allyourbase then. :devil:

Awesome.

I'd almost say: order your slave to show you how, but I'm pretty sure if we keep this up it'll create a black hole or some shit like that. :cool:

Yeah. Pick me. That'll work out. Totally.

Except for, well, youknow, the black holes and stuff.

I'm hoping stella might offer :cool:

I had a few tramatic things happen growing up, most of them had to do with force. It left me confused when I grew up, wondering if that is how it's supposed to be always but the relationships I had as I got older were not the same. They were very vanilla and I was always left feeling like something was missing. I always thought it was me but I couldn't get it out of my mind. I was always very sexual, my drive is through the roof and I was never satisfied. I started looking for that 'something' more. When I first learned about BDSM and D/s, I was scared and thrilled at the new sensations it brought out in me. The first time I felt the kiss of the flogger, the security of cuffs and the power of a Dom...I knew I had found what I was missing. I've always been submissive in nature, right down to the constant apologizing and need to please. At least now I can put a name to it.

thanks for listening...

how did you find that something more? internet? chance?
 
how did you find that something more? internet? chance?

I started noticing things in movies and books. But mostly it was people. I've met a few dominating men and women. It wasn't anything overtly sexual, just their demeaner but it made me immediately want to please them, to know I was doing things they approved of. Then I came to lit and learned even more. It wasn't until I met a true Dom in person that I knew. The mere sound of his voice has my body reacting and a comforting sort of calm washes over me.
 
inspiration

Two out of town clients took my wife and I to dinner one night. She and I both sat in the back seat. When we arrived at the restaurant I got out one door and turned to help my wife out. One of our hosts held the other door open for her on the other side. My wife pulled the hem of her dress up to midthigh and turned her back to me. She scooted across the seat and when she reached the other side she left one foot inside the car and placed her other foot on the ground outside of the car. She held that pose for a long time I looked across at our host and saw that he was staring intently at her crotch. (As was her habit she was not wearing panties.) I was turned on by my wife showing off her naked pussy. Sex that night was awesom and from then on we showed her pussy to others at every opportunity.
 
I always knew that the orgasms I had were missing something, I just did not know what nor how to put it right.

I was 37 before a vanilla boyfriend suggested I may have other needs. He found websites about it, including lit.
It was like discovering whole new person inside myself.
It's been quite an interesting few years to return back to the start.
But at least I know enough to be able to make those choices and I understand myself sm much more.
 
I always knew that the orgasms I had were missing something, I just did not know what nor how to put it right.

I was 37 before a vanilla boyfriend suggested I may have other needs. He found websites about it, including lit.
It was like discovering whole new person inside myself.
It's been quite an interesting few years to return back to the start.
But at least I know enough to be able to make those choices and I understand myself sm much more.

someone else saw your kink and not you?
 
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