What the hell…Chilly’s little spot on lit



Listen, I'll be as honest as I feel
I feel like I'm getting more paranoid and I'm hearing things
And they never turn out real
It feels like my heart is made of pure steel
It's just so heavy all the time
I'm scared of death
And I'm scared of living
I gave up on the past cause it's unforgiving
I misplaced my trust
I watched my word begin to rust
I'm a balloon about to bust
I need a place for reliving.
Still
Sometimes I feel like weeping
Awake and when I'm sleeping
Perfecting how to put a game face on
This puzzle I've been keeping
Has been in hiding creeping out the closet door
Spilling out onto the floor
How long will I be picking up pieces?
How long will I be picking up my heart? [Repeat: x7]
How long (in another space and time)
Keep picking up pieces in the corner of my mind
How long (its getting oh so hard to find)
Keep picking up pieces in the corner of my mind
But I still walk on
 
And just to clarify…what I’m posting isn’t oh poor me I’m so sad…just stuff I saw that struck a chord or I liked the art.

Stress levels are high and I’m just trying to numb the mind lol there was a time I would drink or take a ton of pills but I’m not doing that anymore! I’m feeling my feelings 😑 and working through stuff….🤮

I’m so glad I have therapy tomorrow!
 
And just to clarify…what I’m posting isn’t oh poor me I’m so sad…just stuff I saw that struck a chord or I liked the art.

Stress levels are high and I’m just trying to numb the mind lol there was a time I would drink or take a ton of pills but I’m not doing that anymore! I’m feeling my feelings 😑 and working through stuff….🤮

I’m so glad I have therapy tomorrow!
you got this! and i know there have to be people who would be happy to listen if you need to talk.
 
I have taken some hits the past few days. I spiraled once but for the most part I think I’m ok. I mean I occasionally cry at the drop of a hat but that’s ok right?

And just to clarify…what I’m posting isn’t oh poor me I’m so sad…just stuff I saw that struck a chord or I liked the art.

Stress levels are high and I’m just trying to numb the mind lol there was a time I would drink or take a ton of pills but I’m not doing that anymore! I’m feeling my feelings 😑 and working through stuff….🤮

I’m so glad I have therapy tomorrow!
Sending big hugs from Sweden! :heart:
I think you are doing great! And therapy will help you sooner or later. Just give it time.
 
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