What the hell…Chilly’s little spot on lit

[Chillygirl]

 

[Chillygirl]

 

[JackKingOff]

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You going to join the Cullens’ family?

 

[Chillygirl]

Thoughts that will be keeping me awake tonight…

I just read something about how being cheated on affects your brain. So thank you to everyone who’s ever cheated on me for the oversized amygdala that’s causing all this extra anxiety and only feeling safe in unsafe places…

But then I had to dig deeper into domestic violence and physical abuse vs verbal/emotional abuse.

So my understanding is I’m never going to feel safe in a good situation and most likely keep choosing men that hurt me because in my twisted brain that’s safe and familiar. And if he’s only yelling at me at least he’s not hitting me so really it’s better.

FML sometimes I just want to say screw it and not change anything but other times I have small victories like earlier today that make me want to push through and make the uncomfortable comfortable.

In the meantime I’ll just put on some Blue October and pop a Xanax.

And remember take it all with a grain of salt cause it’s just my overworked, exhausted brain and nervous system…

 

[Chillygirl]

 

[Chillygirl]

 

[Chillygirl]

I have never owned such a car. Lol I have no idea how half the stuff works. But I’m having so much fun figuring it out!

 

[Cogan]

I have never owned such a car. Lol I have no idea how half the stuff works. But I’m having so much fun figuring it out!

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I love that there are buttons to choose gear! It's a waste of space to have a gear lever on an automatic today. But a lot of the European cars still have a gear lever in the middle.

Watch out for the ejector seat button!!

 

[Chillygirl]

 

[Chillygirl]

 

[Madhatter02]

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[Deleted member 6592667]

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This is what I keep telling you, baby. You, me, ruined sheets. Also I cook if that helps.

 

[Chillygirl]

Since the day my ex told me he wanted a divorce I’ve been having anxiety attacks every weekday from 3pm-4pm. These days it’s typically just a sudden moment and fades quickly but sometimes, especially if I have a lot of stress, it’s a whole thing. Most days I just leave work, turn the music up almost unbearably loud and scream/cry. Today was one of those days….my brain kept asking was it all a lie? Was anything real? What was the point? Was I the only one that felt horrible?

I fucking hate these moments. Oh and the stressor this week was my ex…and the deed to the house.

 

[Wand3rlust]

Since the day my ex told me he wanted a divorce I’ve been having anxiety attacks every weekday from 3pm-4pm. These days it’s typically just a sudden moment and fades quickly but sometimes, especially if I have a lot of stress, it’s a whole thing. Most days I just leave work, turn the music up almost unbearably loud and scream/cry. Today was one of those days….my brain kept asking was it all a lie? Was anything real? What was the point? Was I the only one that felt horrible?

I fucking hate these moments. Oh and the stressor this week was my ex…and the deed to the house.

Sending hugs. You're a brave strong woman. On the path to happiness and contentment. And one day you will look back and say 'I lived through that. I'm a fucking legend'.

 

[Chillygirl]

Sending hugs. You're a brave strong woman. On the path to happiness and contentment. And one day you will look back and say 'I lived through that. I'm a fucking legend'.

Thank you

 

[Chillygirl]

 

[barefootgirl69]

Today was one of those days….my brain kept asking was it all a lie? Was anything real? What was the point? Was I the only one that felt horrible?

When you're a part of someone's life for so long, it doesn't just end when the marriage does. Even as someone who chose to end mine, it took time to get over some things. Over twenty years, even when you have no emotional attachment, it can take years to heal. You were blindsided. You're still working through that. Give yourself some grace, don't feel like you have to be over it quickly.

 

[Madhatter02]

Since the day my ex told me he wanted a divorce I’ve been having anxiety attacks every weekday from 3pm-4pm. These days it’s typically just a sudden moment and fades quickly but sometimes, especially if I have a lot of stress, it’s a whole thing. Most days I just leave work, turn the music up almost unbearably loud and scream/cry. Today was one of those days….my brain kept asking was it all a lie? Was anything real? What was the point? Was I the only one that felt horrible?

I fucking hate these moments. Oh and the stressor this week was my ex…and the deed to the house.

 

[Chillygirl]

 

[Mo_Bandy]

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Reeses Klondike bars…anything lol

 

[Madhatter02]

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Ring ring ring

 

[Chillygirl]

Reeses Klondike bars…anything lol

I’ll have to think of some interesting requests

 

[Cogan]

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Somethings I'd do for free........

 

[Chillygirl]

 

[Chillygirl]