AlterEgo66
Starting over
- Joined
- Sep 17, 2023
- Posts
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66 years old. Newly divorced after 20 years. Interesting to hear so many in my generation here. Been watching this thread for a minute. This is my only post so far as my alter ego. I’ve been on LIT for a very long time as someone else. Still. Over 11,000 posts over the years. 9000+ reaction score. But reading all of you has given me the motivation to admit aloud what I’ve known for some time. I am bisexual. My ex knew because we discussed our mutual urges. Our needs as a couple. Tried swinging. Agreed to bring another into our marriage. Male or female. The idea of cleaning her cream from a stiff cock aroused me so much. As much as she said eating my cum from another woman’s sex. Then the pandemic shut everything down. No in person meetings. No clubs. Nothing. The intensity died there. Pretty much so did the marriage. She’d been ambivalent towards sex all along. Played along because it was what she thought I wanted. But truly, she is a lesbian. It just took 20 years to admit it.I am a 68 year old widower who, though very much hetero-romantic, finds himself spending an inordinate amount of time jerking off to gay porn and thinking about how much I would enjoy sucking a cock or getting fucked by another man. Of course, this may very well just be a masturbation fantasy. I had some limited M2M experience when in my teens and early twenties and think about those times often, imagining them going further and creating sexual scenarios for what might have been. I do still love women, and am very much attracted to (mostly younger) women, but my prospects in that regard are not promising.
What really turns me on about sex with other men is the transgressive nature of it, the act of giving oneself over to the naughtiness of wholeheartedly, wantonly and lasciviously lavishing oral attention on a steadily engorging penis or welcoming a stiff cock into my anus. I love to watch myself in a full length mirror as I sit naked at my computer, stroking myself to hardcore gay vids, imagining that I am engaged in those very acts. I fondle my nipples and that really gets me in the mood.
Anyway, I would love to hear from other guys, especially ones that are married, who consider themselves basically straight but find that the urges are hard to ignore.
Those 20 years are equal to the difference in our ages. She is now the age I was when we first met. But I cannot leave it alone now that I am. Still fascinated with the female sexuality. Making a woman cum is one of life’s wonders. But I stroke my cock to as much male cock sucking as FFM/MMF porn. So there it is. I will not comment on other LIT activity, btw. But I will no longer ignore my need to enjoy coaxing a cock to orgasm. Swallowing a hot load. Fucking a male mouth, or…..
maybe this one isn’t my ALTER ego.
I will PM about my urges. If anyone is in need as well.
