Young girl in the Big City

[Destiny_Brent]

I heard her soft words and flushed immediately, this girl was so intuitive, or was I that see through. I turned my eyes away not able to look at her as she mentioned Bart's name, the thoughts went through my head of all the sex that I'd experienced with Bart. Rape, fucking rape. I was a whore to him I couldn't bear it bear the thought.

I was brought out of my revalry for a moment as her soft skin grazed acrossed down my face and neck. My eyes turned up to catch hers, large beautiful and caring. I bit my lip tears begining to well up, I let out a large sigh, I had to tell someone, I knew it, she would listen I had to tell her.

"I'm not a brothel owner, or rather wasn't, and I shouldn't be. I'm a small town girl too, just a simple country girl. Hell less than a week ago I was a virgin, and now I've got this Brothel. All the sex I've ever had was with Bart and that monster brother of his, Alonzo. They raped me, Bart did unspeakable things of me. I did unspeakable things. He intentionally destroyed me, destroyed my life and spirit to bring me to this damned place... I don't know what possesed him to give it to me. I don't know... but I try, I'm trying, but I don't think I can do this! I really don't. After what
happened to me, how can I ask others to do this, girls who don't deserve it. How can I destroy them like this? How can I do it to girls, like you, smart, gorgeous, caring. You're the most beautiful woman I'd ever met, and my first... I mean, I'd say you just took my virginity, at least, my first time that was for pleasure, not forced, a choice. I just feel horrible doing this... I feel... I can't feel... I can't do this."

My face dropped down, unable to look at this beautiful innocent, thinking of what I was getting her into.

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[Diamondnrough]

Bonny

I watch Sam's face as she blurts out her story, the words coming in a frenzied, tumbled rush....I know the shame she feels, and search for words not only comfort her, but make her strong again, strong enough to accept her past, and deal with the present....
I reach out to her with my hand and my words at the same time, my finger tips carressing her sweet, soft cheek and brushing the back of her neck as I say to her gently.
"This world is full of choices, some made for us, some we make for ourselves, there is no guarntee of the outcome of either, we can only hope for the best, and if we think we have found the worst, never give up hope..."
I take her hands in mine, and hold them, squeezing gently, and kissing the beginning of a tear away from her cheek, then continue as she looks me in the eyes...
"Your choice to be here was made by another, and perhaps Bart has realised the wrong he has done you...and has tried to make up for it, in the only way he knows how....My choice to be here was made by me, because of what I beleived could be here for me, the hope I still carry"
I pull her to me, our bodies still warm from our shared passion, and hold her in my arms as a mother holds her child, comforting her, trying to lend her my strength as I talk softly into her ear...
"We must never give up hope, for with hope, there is life and life is what makes us strong, when you are weak, you must reach inside yourself and hold that hope....and never give it up"
Leaning forward I quickly kiss her lips, and see a beginning of a smile flit across her face, stopping at her eyes as they twinkle, if only for a second.
"Come, together we will face the terrible Black Bart, but first we dress as you have promised me. Unless you would choose to face him this way, perhaps as a way to diastract him?" I tell her, teasingly

 

[Destiny_Brent]

My eyes shift back and forth between her two gorgeous eyes as she moves her fingers softly over the back of my neck. Shivers cause my body to tremble a little.

Her words massage my mind, relaxing it as I look into her despeartely seeking solace and finding it, but with it a strength. Every touch of this girl reassured her, someone cared for her, even if it was only a little, someone cared. I felt my bottom lip begin to quiver as a tear streaked down my cheek. She gave me a reassuring squeeze on the hands before bringing her lips to my cheek, kissing the tears away, and taking with it some of the pain.

"You're right... " My voice shudders, and is low and meek.

I fell her pull me agaiinst her, her lips brushing mine.

I couldn't help but let a short smilecross my face. A new hope was being rekindled, I could do this. I had a feeling she would help me, I could escape my pain and run this place. My head rested on her shoulder, so quickly the bond was made. We embraced eacheother

I chuckled at her suggestion and pulled away wiping the tears away a slightly embarassed smile on my face.

"Oh... thank you. You have no idea what that meant to me..."

I looked into her eyes sincerly, my eyes shimmering in the light.

"Let's get dressed."

 

[Diamondnrough]

Bonny

As we dress, giggling like two school girls sharing a private joke, I realize what Sam has gone thru, the depth of her pain. More important, what steps she must take to leave those memories behind, and begin her new life.
Standing behind her, I help her arrange her hair, pulling the strands away from her face, revealing high cheek bones and a pleasing neck.
"You need to face your past, my sweet, and he is sitting out there on a stool, last I saw him" I pressed her gently, nuzzling her neck "Why not do it now, when I can be here to help you, if you need the support I mean"
I felt her body stiffen at the thought and pressed her further. "Or do you want it to start all over again?".....

 

[Destiny_Brent]

I giggled lightly pulling my clothes on, it seemed odd but for some reason I couldn't help it. I smiled to myself as she pulled back my hair, face it... my heart stopped and I inhaled sharply holding my breath. I froze, she was right, but what would I do, what would I say... 'support' she would be there for support, my head turned and I faced her, eyes large and afraid.

"What do I say... what can I do?"

 

[Diamondnrough]

Bonny

I look into her eyes, and see fear, and .....hope? It's a start, I say to myself, then suggest to her.
"Make sure he's in a good mood, and sober....Ask him to talk with you, in the bar-room, where you can talk uninterrupted but be seen by all. Then tell him how you feel, lay down the law, at least as far as you are concerned"
I take her hand in mine and give her the bombshell....
"Can't you see, Sam, he'll listen to you or leave....The only reason he is around now is he's head over heels about you"
I watch her astonished face, her eyes turning into round saucers...then cover my own, trying to hold back and fail. From behind my hands escapes a small chuckle, changing to a giggle, than a full laugh. I drop my hands, tears coming from my eyes, and look at her, still trying to fight my laughter.....

 

[BLACK BART]

The Bartender

I serve her the vodga, straight up. then turn and use the phone, talking quietly......
Several hours later a taxi arrives and i tell her "Here's enough money to get you home, and to eat on, forget the boyfriend though, he aint worth the trouble"
I stand at the door, watching her leave in the taxi, happy to help such a sweet kid...returning to the bar i made some coffee and begin drinking the hot, strong brew. I wonder what the two woman are up to in the back...taking advantage of their disappearance I pull out a large cuban cigar and light it, a cloud of smoke soon floats over my head as I puff merrily away at it.
I turn on the old radio behind the counter and fiddle with it, finally finding a channel I can listen to, then turn the volume up.
"What a life, I think, good coffee, good cigar and good music. Now if I just had a magazine........"

 

[THEBRAT]

Thanks for the help in more ways than one. If I ever come back this way I'll look this bar up by the way very good Vodka.

 

[Destiny_Brent]

I watch her, my eyes never moving from her beautiful and kind features as her lips move calmly, slowly. Her advice was perfect, how could she be so confident, know what to do... when I just hadn't a clue. At the revelation of his feelings my mouth visibly dropped as I stuttered,

"I... me?.. y... you...you've got to be... k...kidding."

I move my fingers to my mouth softly in disbelief before nodding slowly, not being able to resist a smile as she begans to giggle, I must really look a sight for she can't seem to get in control of herself. Her giggles become infectious and soon I find myself laughing hard at myself, my ignorance. My breaths are quick and heavy as I try and calm myself they slow... trying to regain peace. I force my mouth into a straight line and take her hand,

"Let's go see what he's up to out there."

As we walk I'm unable to release her hand, holding it tight, for support and strength. I immediately smell the scent of the cigar wafting into the hall and my face sets itself,

"Hey! No smoking inside, take it outside!"

I pause thinking,

"Or better yet, in the den. We need to talk."

 

[BLACK BART]

The Bartender

I had barely settled in, relaxing and congratulating myself on helping the lost woman, Charlene, when the silence was broken.

"NO SMOKING INSIDE" the womans voice cried out....

I spun around on the rickety stool, trying to find the owner of the voice, and fell as the stool collapsed beneath me.
"Damn, we need to replace those old stools, and what does she mean, No smoking inside??? She said I could smoke in the bar!!" I mumbled to myself as I reached for a handhold to pull myself up.

Above me I could hear several females tittering as I lifted my head over the bar's counter, as my hand bumped my large cup of coffee and knocked it over, the luke warm liquid running off the counter and onto my clean shirt, soaking the cigar I had managed to save despite my tumble.

"Oh, hell" I grumbled "At least I have the music"

I grab a bar towel and start wiping up the mess, then realise she had said something about the den, and talking....

"The cigar is out, and I have a mess here, if you want to talk you'll have to wait or help me" I suggest, spilling the rest of the pot, this time the HOT coffee soaking my pants and the counter...

"DAMN, DAMN, DAMN" I moan, hopping around, trying to pull my pants off and escape the burning liquid......

 

[Destiny_Brent]

It hit me after a moment that he I'd said he could smoke in the bar (Sorry didn't realize you were in the bar, don't know where my mind was...)

"Uh... sorry, I forgot, you can smoke in here I guess..."

I brushed my fingers acrossed the air in front of my nose resisting coughing from the smoke. Then stopped gasping suddenly as he fell, I was about to run and help when I felt a squeeze of my hand and looked back at Bonny, smiled then turned back.

"We'll have to get some new ones."

As he growled and grumbled pulling himself up and completely soaking everything I found it hard to believe he actually might like me. I shook my head, as I looked at the mess on my beautifully cleaned counter/stool/floor.

"You wrecked your shirt..."

I muttered as I walked over to help him, well I guess not EVERYTHING was soaked, I realized this as he hurried to remove his trousers. I moved my fingers to my lips trying to stifle the giggle, but I heard a soft giggle behind me and couldn't resist. He was hopping around on one foot trying to rip his pants off about to tip over cussing... it made for a pretty funny sight in my opinion, though I did feel a little bad for him.

"Allright allright I'll help you... you obviously can't do it yourself..."

I chuckled again walking over and helping him remove his pants, allowing his hand on my shoulder to steady him.

 

[BLACK BART]

The Bartender

With Sam's help, the steaming pants are quickly off me, my legs stinging in a few choice places from my clumsiness.

"Ahh, yeah the shirt, I have a spare change in the cooler, unless you cleaned that out too?" I replied, opening the door of the small walk in cooler, and reaching for the light.

"I guess I owe you one, Thank's" I turned my head to look at her, remembering the rest of her statement "What was it you wanted to talk about ladies?"

Finding the switch at last I flipped it on, pleased the light bulb actually worked and spying the clothes, brought them out, trying to pull the jeans on

"Man, that stings" I said, half aloud "Do you think there's a first aid kit around? I could use some burn creme"

"Real cool " I told myself, "First act like a clutz, then a baby, in front of two women you barely know"

I grinned like an idiot, seeing the humour in the situation, then looking at both ladies, requested "I really could use some medical attention, if you wouldn't mind"

 

[Destiny_Brent]

I watched him get up and chuckled as he stumbled towards the cooler,

"No I didn't... but I did..."

he flicked the light on,

"... get a new bulb."

I heard him mention our talk and my muscles tensed, I didn't feel her touch and I felt my heart waver and i shook my head.

"It can wait."

I turned and headed towards the counter,

"I put some kits around the place."

I removed one taking out the cream and some bandages I bid him to sit down on a stool.

 

[BLACK BART]

The Bartender

I pulled a chair over, and sat down on it gingerly, noticing the way Bonny hovered in the background, her eyes darting between Sam and myself.

"Hey, what's up?" I questioned "You both act like I might turn into a monster and eat you"

I could see the tension in Sam's face as she opened the small kit, her eyes focused on the floor

"Ahh, I should just let you both go back to your trying on clothes, or whatever you were doing" I suggested, seeing the guilty flush on both of their faces "That's what took so long, managers privilages, huh?" I joked, lightlly.

"Ouch, that hurts!" I cried, feeling a sudden pain as if I was slapped on the leg "Rub it on, Not slap it on!" I moaned to Sam, seeing a satisfied look cross her face

 

[Destiny_Brent]

I bit my lip and opened the case not looking up at him as I gingerly squeezed the cream onto my hands in a large glob, at his final comment I flushed deeply then frowned pushing the substance on harshly acrossed the burnt flesh of his thigh.

"I should test them out shouldn't I? I mean, we do want only the best here."

I smirked, looking fairly pleased with myself as the tinge of pain wiped that smug look off his face.

 

[BLACK BART]

Sitting on the chair, the pain coursing thru me, I grimace and look down at your face.

"Look, I'm sorry for everything, honestly, sorry for what I did and what I can't change, ya know?" I try to catch your eyes, watching you deliberately averting them from my gaze and continue "Maybe, it would be better if I left, after all I've put you thru, all I've done to you, it might be for the best....Now that Bonny is here, she can help you, perhaps, be your assistant"

The pain is down to a dull sting, and I stand, taking your hands in mine as I rise, pulling you up and towards me.

"The place is yours, all of it, I never needed the income from it, I have enough stashed away to last me" My eyes finally meet yours, and I look into yours, seeing fear and uncertainity "The last few days were great, almost like the beginning of this place, you can make it into something grand again, I'm sure"

I turn, looking for my pants, hoping to put them on and leave with a small amount of dignity.....

 

[Destiny_Brent]

I was suprised at his first words, was my face that bare, was I that transparent. I flushed at hit noting his apology I still couldn't bare to mee those eyes.

"I...I..."

I tried to speak but he simply continued... my mind was shrouded in confusion I wasn't sure if I wanted him to leave... did I want that... no... he's sorry... always forgive... he didn't wipe my faith out of me... we should forgive our fellowman up to 77 times... I thought. M eyes shot up as I heard him pull himself up trying to leave...

"No... I need you, neither of us know what we're doing really?"

I bit my lip looking to the ground as he turned, his figure confused but silent,

"I can forgive you... I... I just want to make sure it doesn't happen again.. I just don't want you to do that again... I'm not weak."

I looked up forcing my eyes to meet his,

"You fixed that. I don't want you to ... take advantage of me... no force... no rape.... and no one else either."

I chuckle a little, more of a forced nervousness but I tried,

"Unless of course that's their thing."

I chew my lip thoughtfully again then let out a quieter,

"Please... please stay."

 

[Diamondnrough]

[I can't beleive my eyes, or my ears, after finally convincing Sam she needs to face her fears, her monsters, the monster is turning tail and running out? Or is it more than that? Does he really care for her, or is he a coward....one way to find out.....]

"The big..bad..brave..Black Bart" I challenge "Look at him turn tail and run! Is this how you face what you've done? By running the first time you make a mistake and are embarressed?"

I put my hands on my hips and thrust my chest out, mocking him "Then run, Blacky, run!" I hoot at him. trying to egg him on....

 

[BLACK BART]

I hear Sam's soft reply, as I pull the rough material over my legs, telling myself I can face the physical pain...But not the emotional ones.

At Bonny's rough taunting...."Coward! Run, Blacky, Run!" The memories come rushing back unwanted, and I can't stop them!!!

I turn and face them both, my face red, not in anger, but in fear. The fear of my past, and what my brother and I faced every day and night.

"YOU HAVE NO IDEA!!!" I yell at them "No idea what it's like to see your brother beaten bloody by a drunken father, or to witness your mother raped night after night by that same man, to watch your whole life disappear at the flash of a gunshot, when you do the only thing you think you can, and destroy the only man you've ever looked up to....."
"Don't call me a coward, until you've seen what my eyes have, and until you can feel what I feel every time I wake up!"
I put my hands on the back of a chair, clenching the old wood until it creaks, my knuckles turning white.
"Sometimes I just get sick of it all, and want to leave, to go where no one knows me and start over" I finish, hanging my head. "Don't call me a coward" I mumble "I was only seven, and this was my home, my only home"

 

[Destiny_Brent]

I saw his shoulders shake a little and felt almost guilty until Bonny stepped forward boldly teasing him, egging him on. I swallowed..

"Bon...?"

I stopped as he suddenly whirled around, his eyes glazed and distant, his voice rough and harsh, seeming very familiar as he accused us... raving on about his parents... his horrible rotten life...

His anger shown clearly, his face flushed a deep red, his brow creased, eyes narrowed as he clenched his fists so hard his nuckles turned a fierce white.

"I'm..."

I paused a moment, I did pity him... and I tried, tried to forgive him.

"That's no excuse..."

I paused not meaning to be harsh, my voice was soft, soothing almost, but he could not expect to be forgiven on pity alone.

"You should know better than anyone to abuse others, to rape and torture others."

I stepped forward boldly moving my hand up to his creased forhead and running my fingers down his cheek, I'd always been too soft on people, too ready to forgive. And the pain I saw beneath his eyes burnt me to the core as I swallowed hard.

"You need to stop this... all this... you're running away from life... You have to face it or this is all it will ever be, this will always be your only home."

 

[BLACK BART]

I take a deep breath, hearing Sam's words, to face the truth she says.

"You're right" I quietly admit, my outburst robbing me of any strength "I am responsible for what I have done, and will someday have to pay for it, no excuses"

I look at both ladies, then back to Sam "When I brought you here I had this wild notion I could make everything OK again, like a fairy tale, but realized that would never happen. I guess that's why I took the steps I did, with my brother, and you"

I couldn't admit to her how much I just needed someone to talk to, after years of being alone.Or how much she meant to me.

"My old life is gone, all I will ever have are the memories, nightmares actually, to keep me company." I mumble, staring at the floor "All I ever knew was violence, and abuse, until I met you"

I feel her tender hands touching my face, the first gentle thing I have felt for years, and close my eyes, sighing.

"It can't be as it was" I say slowly, trying to find the right words "But I had hoped we would someday be good friends"

 

[Destiny_Brent]

I watch as his eyes shake seemingly scared, and weak. I bit my lip and nod silently as he starts...

"I know... but Fairy tale's don't happen... and we can't just suddenly become friends. I'd like to try... but with these... memories... it won't be a quick and simple thing... I'm sorry."

A tear streamed down her face as she looked,

"I just can't look at you like that right now... but... I want you to stay. Please."

I felt him quiver at my touch but I kept it there as I felt Bonny's hands on my shoulder, comforting.

 

[Diamondnrough]

Softly, I speak, trying to make up for my insults of earlier. "You need to give her time, Bart, time to heal and find herself. She carries scars as deep as yours, only fresher, and still she asks you to stay"

I hope he hears the meaning, not just the words, as I step closer to Samantha, pressing myself against her back, kissing her neck.

"Bart, you still carry your pain, after all these years, can you imagine how Samantha feels? Give her time to deal with it, then ask her again." I try to console him "Who knows, perhaps a new girl will walk thru the door, and fill your dreams?"

Together, Samantha and I stand, watching his face, as emotions flicker across it, and he coughs, trying to speak....

 

[Destiny_Brent]

I felt Bonny's lips on my nekc and leaned back against her my hands covering her hands which were now wrapped around my chest. I got lost in her warmth, her arms seemed to make it all better with a touch, his eyes wavered and I felt infinately sorry for him. I gave him a light smile as Bonny continued, soothing, calming. She was so good at that.. first me... and now even Bart.