Wow, thank you for an exceptionally reflective response! I agree, it is pretty much impossible to tease out whether it is you/I, the board or some combo of all of the above (or none entirely). The best questions are the ones you’ll never find the real answer to.
There certainly are less opportunities than there once were to have trolly fun here, which I feel differently about depending on the day. I thinks it’s generally a more inclusive community now, which I do like.
That makes sense to me, the restricted access to your emotional world (only one one-way ticket will ever be given out to mine). Online personalities too are at best a carefully curated montage of presentable parts and at worst utterly false or malignantly disordered (and in those cases often more genuine than what is presented in reality). Yours, while change noted, is stable and unique. Two very undervalued adjectives, especially in times like these.
I remember SatinDesires and those debates. A bit ugly at times on all sides at times but fucking rocket fuel for the brain juices. A verbal eviceration is sometimes necessary to hold up a mirror, and back then most gave as good as they got but could still shake hands when the dust had settled (3 weeks and 15 pages later). Sometimes I wonder if we’re slowly losing the ability to sit with disagreement - this is not the only place both rl and virtual that I’ve seen change in this way. Either shit doesn’t matter as much or we just can’t look. It’s starting to scaring the bejesus out of me because I can’t logic an end result that looks favourable long term - this place is pretty healthy but not much else is.
I can’t make a call on which Primalex is better. You just are, both then and now. Pleased you’re still around and hope you’ll treat us a good troll when circumstances allow it and you’re feeling charitable
