Brain Wide Shut?

[MechaBlade]

I can understand that. What kind of nasty thoughts do you mean? What are you doing during the day that might trigger them? Are they delicious nasty thoughts or just unpleasant nasty thoughts?

Fury

I do nothing during the day but go about my business. Then I see these beautiful girls that I want to tie up and beat mercilessly. These lovely young things I want to hold down and force to beg for me to fill their orifices until they can stand it no longer, at which point I slide into them, fucking them savagely while pulling their hair back and slapping their asscheeks.

Delicious little things like that.

 

[FurryFury]

I do nothing during the day but go about my business. Then I see these beautiful girls that I want to tie up and beat mercilessly. These lovely young things I want to hold down and force to beg for me to fill their orifices until they can stand it no longer, at which point I slide into them, fucking them savagely while pulling their hair back and slapping their asscheeks.

Delicious little things like that.

I have NO problem with that! LOL! Sounds delicious to me too.

Fury

 

[leeroy jenkins]

I can understand that. What kind of nasty thoughts do you mean? What are you doing during the day that might trigger them? Are they delicious nasty thoughts or just unpleasant nasty thoughts?

Fury

Not asked of me, but how about reliving in your mind when you said something stupid or embarassing and never being able to sorta live it down in your mind?? Thinking is a great thing but I wish I could limit the scope of my thoughts to something better then past stupidity and regrets. Then again having thoughts of an something happening that has not is not so pleasant either. You picture yourself driving down the road and have a terrible accident with vivid details, but you have yet to turn the car on to start your way to work. These are just a few things I could do without.

 

[FurryFury]

Not asked of me, but how about reliving in your mind when you said something stupid or embarassing and never being able to sorta live it down in your mind?? Thinking is a great thing but I wish I could limit the scope of my thoughts to something better then past stupidity and regrets. Then again having thoughts of an something happening that has not is not so pleasant either. You picture yourself driving down the road and have a terrible accident with vivid details, but you have yet to turn the car on to start your way to work. These are just a few things I could do without.

I don't blame you!

*HUGS*

That sounds awfully rough.

Fury

 

[FurryFury]

"Imagine living your life without fear of expressing your dreams. You know what you want, what you don't want, and when you want it. You are free to change your life the way your really want to." ~ Don Miguel Ruiz

 

[leeroy jenkins]

I don't blame you!

*HUGS*

That sounds awfully rough.

Fury

Where I'm today is the sum of all my yesterdays, so without those moments I can't live down in my mind then I might not be here typing this to you Fury. Most of the time this stuff happens when I do not keep my mind focused. Walking to get food or to work is a time this problem might strike, or just when I am bored to death.

 

[FurryFury]

Where I'm today is the sum of all my yesterdays, so without those moments I can't live down in my mind then I might not be here typing this to you Fury. Most of the time this stuff happens when I do not keep my mind focused. Walking to get food or to work is a time this problem might strike, or just when I am bored to death.

You know what? I think I'm too tired to make sense of all of this tonight/this morning, so just off the top of my head, let me say this; We do not have to hold negative thoughts to us of our past or our fuck ups to remember who we are or remain true to ourselves, IMO.

Maybe I'm way off base here but it sounds like one of those, I'm glad I did that or experienced that bad thing because it made me who and what I am today things. I call bullshit on that. It may have gone into making you who and what you are but for me, personally, I would go back and change the negatives.

I would also choose to let go of those negative thoughts as soon as I could or memories.

Okay, I'll say it again, I may NOT be in the best frames of mind just now but I mean no offense, I'm just sort of philosophizing I guess after a very long, very hard, emotional day.

I wish you well.

Fury

 

[leeroy jenkins]

You know what? I think I'm too tired to make sense of all of this tonight/this morning, so just off the top of my head, let me say this; We do not have to hold negative thoughts to us of our past or our fuck ups to remember who we are or remain true to ourselves, IMO.

Maybe I'm way off base here but it sounds like one of those, I'm glad I did that or experienced that bad thing because it made me who and what I am today things. I call bullshit on that. It may have gone into making you who and what you are but for me, personally, I would go back and change the negatives.

I would also choose to let go of those negative thoughts as soon as I could or memories.

Okay, I'll say it again, I may NOT be in the best frames of mind just now but I mean no offense, I'm just sort of philosophizing I guess after a very long, very hard, emotional day.

I wish you well.

Fury

NO I am not saying we should be glad for all the all the nasty things that happen to us in life, but lets try this example you said that you got a divorce from on of your husbands. Now just play the "what if" game, if you did not get the divorce would you still be the Fury that everyone loves or someone different?? Would you have come to the knowledge that you like bsdm and have posted here?? The list would go on and on, visualize the ripple in the pond effect, plus the real horror of the game is how it affects the rest of the world. I don't know what sorta impact you have had but I assume you have some.

No one wants shit to happen to them, but it does. Its how we handle it after it happens that marks us a people, for me I use some of it as a guide as to what not todo, referring to how my first stepdad did drug, smoked, and was an alchy. Like I said in my first post trouble is thoughts just randomly play in my head or I envisions sense or events that have not happen, I try squach the thoughts and usually say out loud, " get outta my head."

And no Fury I am not offended, in my universe my comment makes sense. I usually try to just type enough to get my message across so maybe I will need to dive more deeply so everyone can join me in my universe??

 

[FurryFury]

Actually what you wrote this time did make better sense to me. You are trying to free yourself and in my book that is good. I also have things I am trying to free myself of that I think about.

I do not however think that if my life had gone differently that I would be a more or less interesting person though an argument can be made both ways. I sort of have faith that I could have turned out better, known BDSM earlier (read my core needs there) and been happier but none of that really matters. What matters is to make the most of what you do have NOW. If life isn't great now, or what you want/need, then find a path to what you want, that is my philosophy.

This thread however was about finding sub space in part.

Another part of it is feeling that my thoughts during sex of objectification and humiliation were simply wrong and unworthy. I'm over that now.

Finally, it is also a sort of meditation thread.

Fury

 

[FurryFury]

"Imagine living without the far of loving and not being love. You can walk in the work with your heart completely open, and not be afraid to be hurt." ~ Don Miguel Ruiz

 

[FurryFury]

"Create you life in such a way that you openly share all the love inside you." ~Don Miquel Ruiz

 

[FurryFury]

True or not true?

Life can be very easy when love is your way of life. Only love has the ability to put you in a state of bliss. It is entirely possible to live this way all the time. Once you feel what it means to live in a stat of bliss, you will love it. You will know that heaven o earth is true - that heave truly exists. ~Don Miguel Ruiz

 

[Blushing Bottom]

Too true.

*hug*

d

Life can be very easy when love is your way of life. Only love has the ability to put you in a state of bliss. It is entirely possible to live this way all the time. Once you feel what it means to live in a stat of bliss, you will love it. You will know that heaven o earth is true - that heave truly exists. ~Don Miguel Ruiz

 

[FurryFury]

Too true.

*hug*

d

*smiles*

I'm so glad you see it that way!

*hugs back*

Fury

 

[FurryFury]

"You can see everything with the eyes of love. You can be aware that there is love all around you. When you live this way, there is no longer a fog in your mind." ~Don Miguel Ruiz

 

[FurryFury]

"Your point of view is something personal to you. It is no one's but yours. When you feel good, everything around is good. In that state of bliss you are making love all the time with everything that you perceive. " ~Don Miguel Ruiz

 

[FurryFury]

"I can't make them happy if they aren't willing." ~ Me, relearning life's little lessons again.

 

[Luvkitty33]

"I can't make them happy if they aren't willing." ~ Me, relearning life's little lessons again.

Oh, what a true statement this is!!! Often very difficult to remember though, so thank you for the reminder.

 

[Homburg]

So is anyone else out there trying to shut down that pesky brain when they play?

Interesting question. I can't say that I try to shut my brain down. I have far too many things that I have to watch and constantly pay attention to when I play (How is she doing? Where is my target? How is her breathing? Etc).

This will sound cheesy, but I tend to slip into the same mindset that I used in martial arts, when I trail ride, and when I lift. Total concentrations without conscious thought. I don't think of anything in particular when I am in that mind. I try to attain no-mind, observe and act.

So I don't shut it off, but I do turn down the volume. It is one of the things I enjoy best about the experience - total concentration.

 

[FurryFury]

Oh, what a true statement this is!!! Often very difficult to remember though, so thank you for the reminder.

You are welcome!

I have a terrible tendency to want people to be and try to make people, happy.

 

[FurryFury]

Interesting question. I can't say that I try to shut my brain down. I have far too many things that I have to watch and constantly pay attention to when I play (How is she doing? Where is my target? How is her breathing? Etc).

This will sound cheesy, but I tend to slip into the same mindset that I used in martial arts, when I trail ride, and when I lift. Total concentrations without conscious thought. I don't think of anything in particular when I am in that mind. I try to attain no-mind, observe and act.

So I don't shut it off, but I do turn down the volume. It is one of the things I enjoy best about the experience - total concentration.

That's interesting. I'm thinking your post over.

When I started this thread I wanted sub space. I also wanted to let go of my perverted thoughts and just be in the moment. I'm just about done wanting the second thing now. Now I know my mind helps me immeasurably, sexually.
My thoughts on all this are in flux.

 

[Homburg]

That's interesting. I'm thinking your post over.

When I started this thread I wanted sub space. I also wanted to let go of my perverted thoughts and just be in the moment. I'm just about done wanting the second thing now. Now I know my mind helps me immeasurably, sexually.
My thoughts on all this are in flux.

Well, not to go further into cheesiness, but while I am touching he rbody, what I am working on is her mind. Let's face it, when I pull my hand back and lay crack on her ass that sends a shock way through her body, that body is going to respond to the pain in the way the body responds. It sends "OUCH GODDAMIT!" messages to the brain. But because we have both been working to get her brain in the proper position, she interprets that messahe as "OH MY GOD THAT FEELS GOOOD".

If she is well and truly not present, she won't really get much from it at all, responding to the gross manipulation of the flesh. So she must be present at some level to properly respond to what is going on. It does require concentration though, and this is why the classic example of the foot falling asleep because of a tight restraint is brought up. The distraction can ruin the concentration, drag you out of no-mind.

 

[FurryFury]

I see what you mean.

When I am topping my husband, I can write about it later much better than when he is topping me. Why? I have to think as you say and gauge and so on. My excitement comes from his but it's not my excitement exactly if you know what I mean.

When he is topping me, I can write what happened nearly as clearly or as in sequence. I take this to mean I do in fact slip into a mind bliss place that may or may not be sub space.

I do have memory issues about some things. Regular pain I will totally forget how it happened, when or anything else about it. I'll have skin trauma and wonder, where and how did this happen. It's common for me to turn to the person I'm with after walking into a piece of furniture and say, "Hey will your remind me when the bruise appears, that I did this, cause I probably won't remember this moment."

 

[Homburg]

I see what you mean.

When I am topping my husband, I can write about it later much better than when he is topping me. Why? I have to think as you say and gauge and so on. My excitement comes from his but it's not my excitement exactly if you know what I mean.

When he is topping me, I can write what happened nearly as clearly or as in sequence. I take this to mean I do in fact slip into a mind bliss place that may or may not be sub space.

I tend to remember some things and forget others. The stuff I pay attention to gets remembered. Other things, things that no-mind ignores, I don't remember, ever. When I am on the trail, I can tell you all sorts of details about the conditions, the ride, etc. What was I wearing? Uh, dunno.

I do have memory issues about some things. Regular pain I will totally forget how it happened, when or anything else about it. I'll have skin trauma and wonder, where and how did this happen. It's common for me to turn to the person I'm with after walking into a piece of furniture and say, "Hey will your remind me when the bruise appears, that I did this, cause I probably won't remember this moment."

*shrug* I don't even notice that sort of stuff. I can't tell you how many times I've done something, had someone wince and ask me "Didn't that hurt?". My response is "Did what hurt?" as I just didn't notice. So I'll have skin trauma and just flat not recall where it came from. Luckily I don't bruise, otherwise I'd probably look a mess.

 

[FurryFury]

I understand what you are saying. I bruise very easily btw.