Bunny's Stuffie Corner

[twister947]

He's still on meds; they just don't work that well anymore. I asked him if he could get back to the doctor and get them adjusted, and he said, "Not right now," but I'm gonna stay after his ass about it, and maybe he'll end up going back to get me to shut up, lol.

Generations of women have employed that tactic. The results have been mixed.

 

[IrisAlthea]

And, no, that has gone nowhere. He's convinced he's an island, and nobody can do anything for him. It's one of the most annoying things about him.

Ugh, I’m sorry.

It makes me feel like he doesn't really want me around or involved in his life, to be honest.

I get that, even if it’s probably more about him then it is about you.
What does he have to say about those feelings?

He's still on meds; they just don't work that well anymore. I asked him if he could get back to the doctor and get them adjusted, and he said, "Not right now," but I'm gonna stay after his ass about it, and maybe he'll end up going back to get me to shut up, lol.

Well, it’s good he is still on them at least.

I’m in favour of being a total pest about getting treatment for depression, especially when there’s a kid involved.

 

[BiBunny]

Ugh, I’m sorry.



I get that, even if it’s probably more about him then it is about you.
What does he have to say about those feelings?

I don't think he realizes. I haven't said anything, anyway. I hate to just pile on when there's so much other stuff he has to deal with, but I also know if it doesn't get talked about, nothing will change. So...between a rock and a hard place here.

Well, it’s good he is still on them at least.

I’m in favour of being a total pest about getting treatment for depression, especially when there’s a kid involved.

Me, too! His youngest kid is 18 now, but he still lives with him. So I feel like it's still very important for him to get this taken care of.

 

[BiBunny]

So a quick update: I have been able to go back to work at the company and do ok. I've been liberally blocking people who annoy me via various channels, and the calls I've been getting so far haven't been too bad. So hopefully, this is a success for the raising of the Abilify dosage.

The bad news is, I have my ass in a serious financial crack right now because I wasn't able to work much before I got the dosage raised (and before it kicked in). And of course, my platform is choosing now to stop ringing.

Considering running a sale on written content (my side hustle is writing blogs/profiles/other stuff for people in the adult industry) to try to supplement. I'm rapidly running out of options and time, and I am so fucking tired of borrowing money from my parents. It's embarrassing, and it always turns into a fucking ordeal.

 

[IrisAlthea]

So a quick update: I have been able to go back to work at the company and do ok. I've been liberally blocking people who annoy me via various channels, and the calls I've been getting so far haven't been too bad. So hopefully, this is a success for the raising of the Abilify dosage.

The bad news is, I have my ass in a serious financial crack right now because I wasn't able to work much before I got the dosage raised (and before it kicked in). And of course, my platform is choosing now to stop ringing.

Considering running a sale on written content (my side hustle is writing blogs/profiles/other stuff for people in the adult industry) to try to supplement. I'm rapidly running out of options and time, and I am so fucking tired of borrowing money from my parents. It's embarrassing, and it always turns into a fucking ordeal.

Good to hear that you feel and are able to function better!

Doing a sale or just a campaign, upping the side hustle seems like a good idea. Hope it will help solve the financial situation.

 

[BiBunny]

Good to hear that you feel and are able to function better!

Doing a sale or just a campaign, upping the side hustle seems like a good idea. Hope it will help solve the financial situation.

Thank you! Planning on launching the sale tonight and running it through the end of July, so hopefully, that'll help. I'm also going to ask my supervisor if she minds if I send a company-wide email advertising my writing services and offering a specific company discount to the people who work there. It may or may not help, but I figure it can't hurt to try.

 

[BiBunny]

A few blogs sold and a new blog customer acquired! Financial problems are not exactly solved, but I'm better off than I was yesterday.

Daddy seems to be talking a little more now. He's still having a hard time, but he's not ignoring my messages as often now. Going to keep poking him about going back to the doctor, though.

The best friend situation still seems to be slowly deteriorating. Oh, well, two out of three ain't bad.

 

[IrisAlthea]

A few blogs sold and a new blog customer acquired! Financial problems are not exactly solved, but I'm better off than I was yesterday.

Daddy seems to be talking a little more now. He's still having a hard time, but he's not ignoring my messages as often now. Going to keep poking him about going back to the doctor, though.

The best friend situation still seems to be slowly deteriorating. Oh, well, two out of three ain't bad.

Better today than yesterday should not be underestimated.

 

[BiBunny]

*Sigh*

I try really hard to be patient, but I'm just a little girl, and little ones aren't known for their patience.

I miss my Daddy, and I want to see him. I haven't seen him since Valentine's Day. (We live 20 minutes apart.)

But he doesn't want to see people. I know he's tired and depressed and anxious and burnt-out, but it's starting to give me a complex.

Yes, I could get a more attentive Daddy, probably. But I don't want another Daddy; I want this one. It's just hard on me sometimes. I wish it didn't bother me. But it does.

*Cuddles the stuffies in the stuffie corner, since Daddy isn't around*

 

[BiBunny]

*Sigh*

My financial problems have caught up with me.

My power bill has two months' worth of charges on it because I got behind with everything when I was so depressed last month and the months preceding it. I got a payment arrangement extension until tomorrow, but if that bitch is not paid tomorrow, they will absolutely cut the power off Friday, despite the fact that we'll be under a heat advisory then, with heat indices in the 110s. They have no mercy. I've tried to get extra extensions before, and they will not budge.

I looked into trying to get some help with the bill. The state program that's supposed to help with this sort of thing says it's only good November through May...in a state where it rarely gets cold, but does regularly get hot enough to kill people. Thanks, guys. That's very helpful.

I can't pay my full rent, either. I don't lack too much on it, but its just one more thing to have to worry about. My phone bill is also due, and I can't just let that go if I want to work to try to pay this stuff (It's a prepaid phone and will not have service after the plan runs out tomorrow at midnight.)

I haven't had my Wellbutrin for two weeks, and I've been heavily rationing my Abilify so I don't run completely out of it before I can afford to get all my refills. I also have a blood pressure med I'm having to ration. That's more money I have to come up with.

It's all come home to roost at the same time, and I have no answers. I can ask my mother for the money, but I don't know when I can pay her all of it back or how long it'll take me. (It's all gonna run somewhere in the neighborhood of $600ish.) And I know she has the money, but I don't know that she'll let me borrow it.

I am in tentative talks with another company to pick up another job, but I don't know anything concrete yet. If I could get my ass unstuck from this particular crack and get back on all my meds, I can make some progress, I know. But you can't work in 100 degree heat with no power and no phone.

So I'm trying to figure out some kind of alternate arrangements. Maybe I can stay with my friend L. in Georgia until I can get enough money to get the power turned back on after they inevitably cut it off. But I don't know how long that will take because I'll have to pay the whole thing, plus a reconnect fee, and that might take weeks. I can't bring myself to inflict myself on somebody that long.

So I guess I have to throw myself on my mother's mercy, take whatever bullshit she wants to throw at me, and hope after she finishes her theatrics that she'll let me borrow the money.

I really don't want to have to do this, y'all. But I don't see another path at the moment. I certainly can't go stay with my parents until I can get the power reconnected because they don't know what I do and would likely have a shitfit if they did.

I hate this. I hate mental illness and not being able to support myself properly and always feeling like a goddamn burden to everyone around me.

 

[IrisAlthea]

*Sigh*

Ugh Bunny, I’m sorry to hear that.
I hope you get some help to bridge the gap until the better work situation gets results.

 

[BiBunny]

Ugh Bunny, I’m sorry to hear that.
I hope you get some help to bridge the gap until the better work situation gets results.

Thank you. I really appreciate it.

 

[BiBunny]

Well, after an hour of reminding me what a burden I am, my mother let me borrow the money.

It's not that I don't appreciate the funds, but I don't appreciate the psycho-drama that goes along with it.

From what I can tell, the lady I'm interviewing with on Saturday is set to offer me the job. She straight-up said, "If you want the job after we talk...," so I'm assuming if I don't say anything brain-meltingly stupid, I should get an offer and be able to start next week. I'll pay my mother back what I owe her by the end of July, and then she can calm down some.

 

[BiBunny]

Well, Bun-Bun has another job now. I have the main platform, the old company, the new company, and the side hustle. And the crafting, if anyone ever buys anything.

Please, Mother of the Universe, let it be enough!

 

[BiBunny]

Well, Bun-Bun has another job now. I have the main platform, the old company, the new company, and the side hustle. And the crafting, if anyone ever buys anything.

Please, Mother of the Universe, let it be enough!

Starting the new job tonight. We shall see how it goes.

Starting tomorrow, I have to figure out how to juggle all these jobs at the same time, lol.

 

[twister947]

Starting the new job tonight. We shall see how it goes.

Starting tomorrow, I have to figure out how to juggle all these jobs at the same time, lol.

You'll do great!

 

[BiBunny]

You'll do great!

Thank you!

 

[BiBunny]

Got my first call today at the new company. Five whole minutes. I'm tearing it up, lol.

 

[BiBunny]

New job is going well. A bit slow at the moment, but I'm sure it'll pick up soon.

Old job is going ok for the time being, too. Between the two jobs and the platform, I've more than made my goal for the day. I also got several work blogs written and posted.

My friend, who just self-published his novel on Amazon, sort of unceremoniously put me in charge of the marketing. Y'all, I have no fucking clue how to market a book. He's got a website, and I got the front page set up. Gotta do some more work to that, though, but what I have on there will do for now.

I'm going to set him up a Facebook author page and a Twitter account. I don't really know what else to do. Anybody have any suggestions for me? I don't know how to market stuff that's not porn!

 

[IrisAlthea]

New job is going well. A bit slow at the moment, but I'm sure it'll pick up soon.

Old job is going ok for the time being, too. Between the two jobs and the platform, I've more than made my goal for the day. I also got several work blogs written and posted.

My friend, who just self-published his novel on Amazon, sort of unceremoniously put me in charge of the marketing. Y'all, I have no fucking clue how to market a book. He's got a website, and I got the front page set up. Gotta do some more work to that, though, but what I have on there will do for now.

I'm going to set him up a Facebook author page and a Twitter account. I don't really know what else to do. Anybody have any suggestions for me? I don't know how to market stuff that's not porn!

That sounds great!

I’d say Goodreads, Book Tok and depending on what kind of book it is, I’d try to find places where the kind of people who read that genre hang out.
Might want to talk to Keroin? She might not be here but she is still online…

 

[BiBunny]

That sounds great!

I’d say Goodreads, Book Tok and depending on what kind of book it is, I’d try to find places where the kind of people who read that genre hang out.
Might want to talk to Keroin? She might not be here but she is still online…

Ooh, yeah, Goodreads. I use it myself sometimes to find things to read. Why didn't I think of that? Lol.

I know nothing of TikTok, but I can maybe figure something out. I may also start a Tumblr for him, as I use Tumblr myself and know there is a whole literary side of the site.

Yes, Keroin would probably be a fount of advice, lol. I may see if I can get in touch with her.

Thank you, Iris, for your suggestions! If anyone has any more, I'm all ears.

 

[BiBunny]

New job is going well. Old job is tolerable for the moment.

Daddy situation is still what it is. I feel like we're at an impasse. I can't make him want to see me.

Yeah, still don't know what to do about that situation.

 

[BiBunny]

I'm taking a day off today.

It's the first time in recent memory that I've been able to take off without having to do something for someone. So today, I decided I would play games and work on cleaning my disaster of a kitchen. (The whole house is a disaster, really, mostly due to the depression I fell into before I had my Abilify increased. But the kitchen is what needs cleaning the most.)

I'm making progress on the kitchen. May not finish it today, but I'm also taking part of tomorrow off, so I should be able to finish it then.

The bad news is, while I have a problem with some games making me feel nauseated, I played Hades today, which I've never had a problem with before, and it made me feel sick, too. I'm sincerely hoping this is not gonna become a thing with all games so that I can't play them anymore.

Anyway, to keep this thread from devolving into nothing but a Bunny complaining thread, anybody have anything they'd like to discuss about DD/lg or any of the other iterations of Big and little?

 

[twister947]

New job is going well. Old job is tolerable for the moment.

Daddy situation is still what it is. I feel like we're at an impasse. I can't make him want to see me.

Yeah, still don't know what to do about that situation.

I don't know you very well, and it's none of my business, but this doesn't sound healthy; it would eat me up if I were in your shoes.

 

[BiBunny]

I don't know you very well, and it's none of my business, but this doesn't sound healthy; it would eat me up if I were in your shoes.

It's not healthy, and it is eating me up.

I try not to think about it too much. But I think about it way more than I would like to.

I honestly don't know what to do. The answer is to leave, but I'm not ready to do that, soooo...yeah.