Confessions: What are yours? Part V

ICT I fear that someone will read my story, identify me and connect the real-life inspiration to the fictional story.
On the other hand -- oh, well, there are worse things.
 
ICT after 6 months of her passing, I’m having lunch with my late wife’s best friend and although I am attracted to her, I’m not sure how to broach the subject that I’m interested in the possibility of being more than just friends.
 
My experience with women was similar. If I was approached, I did okay, although even then it was much more awkward for me than flirting with guys (because, with only one real exception, I never expected anything from guys but a hookup). But if I was doing the approaching, I either picked women who were not interested or was just was unable to start a rapport.

It's gotten a little better with time. My advice is try to talk to other women on here.
With guys, I saw who my mates liked. I made it very obvious they'd get laid. I looked and acted easy.

With women, I see a lady I like, I'm just very forward. I'm shy by nature, but I overcome it for someone I fancy.

My gaydar let's me down, I fancy straight girls, and I will chat to the only straight girl in the gay bar!
 
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ICT I'm tired and grouchy. I need a man who understands that the greatest kindness he could show would be to ignore my pissy-ness, tie me to the bed, and repeatedly force me to orgasm and fuck me until I either fall unconscious or get in a better mood.
That would be something I could definitely enjoy, make us both satisfied.
 
ICT that I’ve stepped out of my marriage multiple times and their effort dies and I can feel the distance grow but hold on to long.
 
ICT im tired of my nesting partner dropping promises he made me, from doing a household chore to legit forgetting he promised a datenight and still went to go get drunk instead. Its starting to feel like im just a live in maid and literal bedwarmer, because its not like he fucks me to make up for it.

I have friends who cannot beleive his behavior and say they would be on me constantly if i dressed the way i do everyday and was theirs. It makes me feel so unattractive and inconfident in myself i know im not super fun but how could i be allowed to find enjoyment if i am forced to be the babysitter.
 
ICT im tired of my nesting partner dropping promises he made me, from doing a household chore to legit forgetting he promised a datenight and still went to go get drunk instead. Its starting to feel like im just a live in maid and literal bedwarmer, because its not like he fucks me to make up for it.

I have friends who cannot beleive his behavior and say they would be on me constantly if i dressed the way i do everyday and was theirs. It makes me feel so unattractive and inconfident in myself i know im not super fun but how could i be allowed to find enjoyment if i am forced to be the babysitter.
A successful relationship is not made on having just one person making decisions that affect both. It's toxic, and I feel bad that you are having to deal with it. It's hard to end something, but maybe even harder to endure what you are going through. I wish you well going forward.
 
I have an OL meetup tomorrow. I would like to be positive, but there's a part of me that wonders if I'm putting myself into one more Lit horror story. He's an exhibitionist which is a plus and he's close to my age. :)
I wish you the best of luck tomorrow! Enjoy it and make the best out of it. I think theres quite few very nice friendly people on Lit. Definitely few I would meet in person if they lived closer. Fingers crossed for your meetup! 🌹

PS: Exhibitionists ARE fun indeed! :D
 
A successful relationship is not made on having just one person making decisions that affect both. It's toxic, and I feel bad that you are having to deal with it. It's hard to end something, but maybe even harder to endure what you are going through. I wish you well going forward.
I am hoping once we move from this godawful depressing state thingll be better.
 
I seriously recomend TALK about it as soon as possible. Waiting is what I did and I am afraid theres no fixing things anymore... Just sayin.
I have and he gets better for a while, but i also cannot say he hasnt improved at all from where we started.

I cannot say it is all his fault he cannot see the mess. Neither of his parents kept clean house or gave him a postive association with cleaning or keeping things clean at all. Comparitively to how they live, our home is sterile.

I think ill have another talk with him about keeping promises and making up for dropping the ball after my finals. Im definstely too stressed from that to dicuss it civilly right now.
 
I have and he gets better for a while, but i also cannot say he hasnt improved at all from where we started.

I cannot say it is all his fault he cannot see the mess. Neither of his parents kept clean house or gave him a postive association with cleaning or keeping things clean at all. Comparitively to how they live, our home is sterile.

I think ill have another talk with him about keeping promises and making up for dropping the ball after my finals. Im definstely too stressed from that to dicuss it civilly right now.
I applaud you for your efforts, and hope he sees the error of his ways and becomes a partner for you again. But please also remember - just one person cannot successfully keep a two-person relationship going without the help of the other.
 
ICT, early this morning, after a brief, cheerful chat with a neighbor I hadn't seen in a while, I came home and suddenly reminisced that I used to get a little bit of a bi cuck vibe from him and his wife. IACT it's moments like this that often push all my plans for good deeds and self-improvement into the afternoon. IFCT that when I say "the afternoon," I mean "maybe tomorrow." :sneaky:
 
I . C. T. Since my GF left out of town visiting family back east... I 've been partying like a rockstar...

Also I.C.T. I better pump my brakes and soon..
 
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