do you ever feel bad about the things that turn you on?

[newgentleguy]

so many fantasies... and I admit that shame is a big part of it all. Being raped is a big one for me since I was raped when I was a teenage boy of 17. I had erased the memory of it for many years until recently.

 

[MissMissyMiss]

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[beingtrue2me]

Sometimes yes and sometimes no. Does that make sense? There are times after a jill session about something that should stay hidden in the recesses of my mind, that I kinda go ewww thinking that I let that arouse me but mostly I just let my mind wander and enjoy the orgasm. We don't get enough of them anyway so I am not gonna waste too much time worrying where they come from.

 

[skinnysinner]

i didn't want to respond because i can relate, there was no penetration so physically i'm still a virgin but from the age of 11 i've been a whore in my mind and in the circles i have to move in that's not good.

I'm ok about it now but a lot of my fantasies stem from being controlled or dominated there are days as ive said when i love this hunger i have and others i feel dirty. i'm looking forward to my release so i can stop feeling dirty and truly enjoy my sensuality.

you're beautiful gentleguy, thank you for helping me say that outloud and for sharing x

An interesting thread, eye opening and in many ways, reassuring. I have many odd fetishes, most of which I keep to myself. But occasionally I have felt the need to just stop, even throw toys out... Then start again.

No longer. Its me. Occasionally also after orgasm I look and think "what was I doing? Why did that get me so aroused" - the release seems to take away the arousal and I think many feel like that but not admit it. A lady friend who shares orgasms with me feels the same, she loses interest immediately after, which I though was just a bloke thing, but apparently not!

So go with the flow, age has brought peace with what I do and who I am

 

[sandra753]

yes

I still do feel bad sometimes. I get turned on by different things but whatever it may be I enjoy doing it shamelessly. Like if I wanted to act like a complete slut in bed; taken and used for his own orgasms, called names and forced to my knees. I would always feel bad during and after like somehow I didn't act like the decent girl I am suppose to be.

i know how you feel,love it at the time,but kinda shame the way i acted later.

 

[willyeddy2001]

feel bad

i guess i feel a little bad about the naughty fantasies about the 2 female trainers i have at gym class. on mon. and wed. there's the one shorter but hot one. on fri there's the little bit taller and equally hot one. i've sat here naked when i got home after a workout with both of them and thought nasty thoughts while i pleasured myself. i mean here they are at the gym trying to get us old guys to stay in shape and i think naughty stuff about em. so i maybe feel a little bad but i won't stop fantasizing.