~ Honey's Blanket Fort Of Bliss 2 ~

[Wild_Honey_66]

*pulls on some long socks and sips my hot chocolate
*reminds Fara that this one is closer to home

 

[Zach_lost_in_Aus]

Can we talk about burnout?

All day I've vascillated between crying and feeling like I needed to throw up. I'm in the yellow zone at least.

I'm okay, just worn out and overwhelmed and not quite sure how to proceed.

So gimme all your feedback! Warm fuzzies, practical tough love, all of it's good and helps me to find a way to move forward.

Fanks!

Just as I was feeling that time off over Christmas and New Year had me refreshed, I find on returning to work that the refreshment is wearing off all too quickly…

 

[gracie920101]

Discussed this at work today. Everyone is getting so tired of all our life restrictions, people's attitudes, and just life in general with feeling like we've lost 2 years of our lives.

Everyone seems to be more testy and not able to deal well with even little changes or snags.

It's tough to keep going some days. It's got to get better than this.

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

This is the one I need.
Fam.
Snuggles in.

I thought so.
Kisses your hair.

Just as I was feeling that time off over Christmas and New Year had me refreshed, I find on returning to work that the refreshment is wearing off all too quickly…

Hullo, Zach!
I'm in a better place than I was when I posted that last summer, thankfully.
Were you able to get any sailing in over the holidays?

Discussed this at work today. Everyone is getting so tired of all our life restrictions, people's attitudes, and just life in general with feeling like we've lost 2 years of our lives.

Everyone seems to be more testy and not able to deal well with even little changes or snags.

It's tough to keep going some days. It's got to get better than this.

It will.
I'm fortunate to live in a small town that has felt the impact less than other places. My work was only fully shut down for a few months, but it was a hellacious school year with all six of my kids at home full time. We're still recovering from the resultant mental healh issues.

I hope things ease up in some way for you and your crew sooner rather than later.

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

I always feel better when you’re not turtling. Selfishly and Selflessly, both.

I'm turtling today, but I checked in.
Covers my head with my comforter.
Can we listen to Norah Jones?

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

As you wish.
https://youtu.be/fd02pGJx0s0

I ended up listening to the whole album all day.

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

I'm reading back over the burnout advice today. Thank you everyone for your feedback.

I was doing quite well for a good, long stretch and I've suddenly fallen face-first into the dirt. A bunch of little things are happening around me (well, some not so little, too), and I've just reached my saturation point, I guess. I've been crying a lot and that's unusual these days.

I'm just tired and I have a lot that I need to be doing and I'm not getting much of a break. So pretty standard burnout, but you know, it makes me question myself and that's unsettling. Three days ago I was confident and hopeful and full of purpose and today I feel lost and alone and unequal to the task ahead of me and I'm not sure how to ask for help, or even what I need.

So I'm writing. This, here. It's something.

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

I’m reading your words. Every time.

...

 

[Bramblethorn]

Really want to just curl up under the blankets today. I ache.

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

Really want to just curl up under the blankets today. I ache.

Let me know if I can rub your back or bring you a heating pad or anything.

 

[ShyGuy1855]

Let me know if I can rub your back or bring you a heating pad or anything.

*waves hand* I ache too, Honey

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

I've been feeling messy this week. My heart is restless and unsettled. It's been running from the truth.

Today i figured out that I had been trying to leapfrog over the healing process without allowing myself to feel the pain and do the grieving. You can imagine how well that's been going.

I've gotten good at holding my stuff in. I need a bossy top who can trigger me into letting it out lol.

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

*waves hand* I ache too, Honey

Passes you the BEN-GAY.

 

[barefootgirl69]

I've been feeling messy this week. My heart is restless and unsettled. It's been running from the truth.

Today i figured out that I had been trying to leapfrog over the healing process without allowing myself to feel the pain and do the grieving. You can imagine how well that's been going.

I've gotten good at holding my stuff in. I need a bossy top who can trigger me into letting it out lol.

I love you.

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

I love you.

I love you too. I'm sorry I'm turtling.

 

[barefootgirl69]

I love you too. I'm sorry I'm turtling.

Don't be. Do whatever you need to do to get through this. I'll be here always.

 

[Bramblethorn]

Let me know if I can rub your back or bring you a heating pad or anything.

Honestly, that would be fantastic. Sore in body and soul right now; can't do much for the soul but I ought to look after the body at least.

(Probably gonna book myself in for a professional massage later today, though I may have to tell them to be gentle.)

 

[cookiecat]

 

[cookiecat]

going through cookiecat archives, trying to find a comfy comforting blissful fort type thing --

 

[cookiecat]

and i found these gems - seemed like a good time and place to leave them

 

[cookiecat]

sometimes this feels like it fits

ahahaha! my new guy asked what I'm doing. ummm - ok. I have 10,000 pictures saved because I LOVE them and have this thread that makes me insanely happy called glitter - it's on a porn board - and, oh yeah, the banana one, too. So anywyas, I've just spent an hour looking through all these pics because they make me super happy and I'm trying to find Honey the perfect hug picture.....

Nope. No. I just told him I'm looking at porn.

I'll just leave this - it's the last thing I looked at

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

Thank you for being here, everyone.

Overall, I'm much better than I was a couple of years ago. Lots of growth, lots of progress. Just going through a dip right now. Growing pains.

This week has been full. Challenges that make me question my ability and my worth. As a mother, as a leader at work, as a woman. I know in my head that this will pass, I just feel messy right now. Ragged, raw, and weary.

When my kids are having a hard time with life, they come into my room and lie down on my bed and cry or talk or just sleep. I like to think that they find some comfort here, next to me. I sometimes wish there was someone whose bed I could go lie down on, someone to stroke my hair and rub my back and kiss my face and tell me that I'm doing a good job and that everything will be okay. But there isn't. Most of the time, I'm fine without it. But sometimes it's hard.

I'm listening to Peter Gabriel's later version of In Your Eyes, recorded live. It's like eleven minutes long, and he is older and stocky and balding, with a gray goatee. Super sexy. But it's his voice that I love, soft and thick and fuzzy. Comforting.

cookie, your pics are always the best.

 

[Bramblethorn]

I'm listening to Peter Gabriel's later version of In Your Eyes, recorded live. It's like eleven minutes long, and he is older and stocky and balding, with a gray goatee. Super sexy. But it's his voice that I love, soft and thick and fuzzy. Comforting.

cookie, your pics are always the best.

PG is comfort music for me. Washing Of The Water, I Grieve, Signal To Noise, Blood Of Eden, Mercy Street, Secret World, the Last Temptation of Christ soundtrack - I pretty much only listen to these when I'm hurting badly, and they help me settle a little.

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

PG is comfort music for me. Washing Of The Water, I Grieve, Signal To Noise, Blood Of Eden, Mercy Street, Secret World, the Last Temptation of Christ soundtrack - I pretty much only listen to these when I'm hurting badly, and they help me settle a little.

I'm going to listen to those right now. . Thank you.

 

[cookiecat]

I've been feeling messy this week. My heart is restless and unsettled. It's been running from the truth.

Today i figured out that I had been trying to leapfrog over the healing process without allowing myself to feel the pain and do the grieving. You can imagine how well that's been going.

I've gotten good at holding my stuff in. I need a bossy top who can trigger me into letting it out lol.

Thank you for being here, everyone.

Overall, I'm much better than I was a couple of years ago. Lots of growth, lots of progress. Just going through a dip right now. Growing pains.

This week has been full. Challenges that make me question my ability and my worth. As a mother, as a leader at work, as a woman. I know in my head that this will pass, I just feel messy right now. Ragged, raw, and weary.

When my kids are having a hard time with life, they come into my room and lie down on my bed and cry or talk or just sleep. I like to think that they find some comfort here, next to me. I sometimes wish there was someone whose bed I could go lie down on, someone to stroke my hair and rub my back and kiss my face and tell me that I'm doing a good job and that everything will be okay. But there isn't. Most of the time, I'm fine without it. But sometimes it's hard.

I'm listening to Peter Gabriel's later version of In Your Eyes, recorded live. It's like eleven minutes long, and he is older and stocky and balding, with a gray goatee. Super sexy. But it's his voice that I love, soft and thick and fuzzy. Comforting.

cookie, your pics are always the best.

This thread, bananas, glitter, and Shank’s are where I feel the most me.
*holds Hiney’s hand*

I have this new guy, this new relationship - which is great. The discovery part. Taking all the lessons learned from time with Mr. cookie and actually doing the work this time. It's pretty good.

This thread and these last few posts especially reminded me how much I'm missing something. I haven't been sure what. I've been really melancholy as of late. Not depressed, although it's felt heavy like that. I think it's missing friendship. My girls. My squad at home. Here. Fara. Checking in here. Glitter.

I've been so busy with what's in front of me I haven't made time for things far away that make me happy, the things and people that bring me peace.