How Do You View Yourself?

I've stopped with negative self talk. Even self depreciating jokes. I'm concentrating on the good I'm doing. And I've done lots of cool stuff over the years with more cool stuff to come. I've learned lessons. I worked with the chances I've been given and walked away from toxic motherfuckers.

How do I view myself? I'm alright. I have moments of badassness. I may or may not be great. But I'm an original.
 
I've stopped with negative self talk. Even self depreciating jokes. I'm concentrating on the good I'm doing. And I've done lots of cool stuff over the years with more cool stuff to come. I've learned lessons. I worked with the chances I've been given and walked away from toxic motherfuckers.

How do I view myself? I'm alright. I have moments of badassness.
Best way to be. I've been livin that way for a bit now.
 
I view myself as someone who never reaches his full potential. To be honest I have done the same things for so long, that I don't try anything new or fresh anymore. I'm not going to change my home life which to be fair is only a little part of the monotony but I am where I am.
I think I'm smart but just lack motivation. I'm caring, genuinely nice, well known around home, but not really known at all. I don't enjoy the spotlight. I keep my thoughts to myself and get through each day to do same thing the next.
Wow...didn't realize I was so melancholy til' I just read that. LOL
Well, I’ve got just the song for you
 
Me? Yeah, I might be a little delusional. So what?

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A middle aged woman, over sexed, and can't wait for another adventure.
So fucking hawt. I mean, if you were dressed conservatively, you would look like someone I could bump into at any church across the South. But knowing what you're hiding under those clothes and what you like to do sexually makes you hotter than any porn star!!! I mean all that as a compliment, just to clarify!
 
It really depends on when you ask me. I'm trying to be kinder to myself. I acknowledge that my body has been through a lot the last 3 years. Fighting two different kinds of cancer has left physical scars that I want to appreciate for the fighting that I've done. But my body has changed so much it's hard to get used to the changes.
There are some days that I feel really good and really positive and that affects How I dress or what I do. But I also admit I really need to stay away from mirrors because those are the devil.
I used to look in the mirror and see all of the weight that I needed to lose. All of the fat. And now when I look in the mirror I see so much saggy skin from losing that weight. But still being in so much pain that I can't exercise properly to try and tighten it up. I truly miss my boobs and my butt. They are both flat now.
 
Not happy with my physical looks. More lately, now that I can't work out like I used to. Always want to see myself as that guy who can give you a hand with something when you need it, but again lately that's not possible much either.

I feel older than I should, more tired than I should. I'm starting to see myself as someone who has chronic illnesses. I'm seeing that trying harder, pushing harder, to overcome those isn't going to fix them. I see that I need to keep asking for help. Been to nearly a dozen Dr's. Maybe the last one can help. Some days I feel OK, but when I do I over do things. Then it's back to those days of looking for a cliff to jump off of.
 
There are actually a multiple views to this. On one side I work hard to stay in shape so I don't end up in a nursing home. One part of me wants to tell my kids to fuck off for thinking they can say what they say because of my age. Then there's another part where none of this counts.
 
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