Live-in boyfriend not dominant

[catalina_francisco]

That is so true and probally is one of the hardest parts of being a submissive, the not in the mood standpoint! I mostly have that problem with the outside of the bedroom area. You know tired, frustrated, got other type of things that I need to get done! Rather than drop everything and run and get that cup of tea! It causes a little mumbling here and cussing there! Of course I do it though. All of that is part of what is being instilled in me as a sub. Thats one thing I would never want to cross off my list! I think, and this is only a reflection, it is more a true test in being a submissive when you are required to perform at times that you least want to perform! Being a sub is not a refinement of your wants! If you get a sense of what I mean.

LOL, nice to see I am not the only one around who grumbles at times and can let it show when a task is not exactly what I had been hoping for...but he likes those moments as he says he gets even more pleasure out of knowing I am doing them despite the way I feel, and because he knows exactly what nasty thoughts I might be having about him as I go about doing what has been ordered.....sort of presses his control and sadism buttons all at once.

Catalina

 

[Etoile]

LOL, nice to see I am not the only one around who grumbles at times and can let it show when a task is not exactly what I had been hoping for...but he likes those moments as he says he gets even more pleasure out of knowing I am doing them despite the way I feel, and because he knows exactly what nasty thoughts I might be having about him as I go about doing what has been ordered.....sort of presses his control and sadism buttons all at once.

Catalina

I do it too! I definitely grumble about certain tasks, or just being asked to do something when I'm more interested in something else. But I'm getting up and doing it, even as I'm grumbling to myself. I think the most difficult time is when the thing I want to do is sleep - aw, do I have to do that NOW? Can't I go back to sleep? *grumble grumble* Somehow my desire to serve overcomes my instinct to sleep, but it's not fun!

 

[MasterPhoenix]

LOL, nice to see I am not the only one around who grumbles at times and can let it show when a task is not exactly what I had been hoping for...but he likes those moments as he says he gets even more pleasure out of knowing I am doing them despite the way I feel, and because he knows exactly what nasty thoughts I might be having about him as I go about doing what has been ordered.....sort of presses his control and sadism buttons all at once.

Catalina

My little one does that at times, as well. Of course, that is when I love to push...

 

[submissiveknight]

LOL, nice to see I am not the only one around who grumbles at times and can let it show when a task is not exactly what I had been hoping for...but he likes those moments as he says he gets even more pleasure out of knowing I am doing them despite the way I feel, and because he knows exactly what nasty thoughts I might be having about him as I go about doing what has been ordered.....sort of presses his control and sadism buttons all at once.

Catalina

Yep, She knows the task I would rather be partaking in and hoping for. If She only didn't know that I like it so much, I'm sure I would be opening up that bag more often! UMMMM thinking of a way I can deny I'm a masochist!

 

[catalina_francisco]

I do it too! I definitely grumble about certain tasks, or just being asked to do something when I'm more interested in something else. But I'm getting up and doing it, even as I'm grumbling to myself. I think the most difficult time is when the thing I want to do is sleep - aw, do I have to do that NOW? Can't I go back to sleep? *grumble grumble* Somehow my desire to serve overcomes my instinct to sleep, but it's not fun!

LOL, I caqn identify with that!! I'm not sure these days whether it is my desire to serve which makes me do it, or the sheer terror of thinking what will happen if I don't. Must say, F has reached a point where I know he is not making idle threats and that the punishment far surpasses any masochistic desires and crosses into to sweat breaking fear. Think the last time I was still physically recovering 3 weeks after the event...it worked.

Catalina

 

[submissiveknight]

LOL, I caqn identify with that!! I'm not sure these days whether it is my desire to serve which makes me do it, or the sheer terror of thinking what will happen if I don't. Must say, F has reached a point where I know he is not making idle threats and that the punishment far surpasses any masochistic desires and crosses into to sweat breaking fear. Think the last time I was still physically recovering 3 weeks after the event...it worked.

Catalina

It's a dersire to serve! I might mumble and grumble at times, but I have no interest or desire of taking Her to that point. I might be a masochist, but She is much more of a sadist and really enjoys it. The hammer hasn't been laid down yet and i really don't want to take it to that point. I learned to jump because the growl of NOW was used to many times I feel. I want to stay well on the good side of that tightrope!

I still would like that bag opened more often though, but not for that fear reason oh no no no!