random ramblings

[the captians wench]

I am really starting to crack up.

Worker's comp has stopped paying me as of Oct 30, but have yet to tell me why. Of course the fact that I get full blown panic attacks just thinking about calling them could be a reason. I sent an email. Still, shouldn't they like send a letter or something?

Borrowed money to keep the rent up, $60 short of keeping my electric on, had to put off buying something on etsy (which does not make this person happy since it was a custom order so now I feel even more stupid) Nearly out of my allergy medicine, don't think I have enough gas to get me back and forth to work, and I have a paypal dispute pending (not going to go into that one, I'm a bigger person than she is).

Trying to focus on little things like just breathing and keeping my heart rate steady. I see now why so many people just go back to work before being fully healed.



I need snuggles

 

[Red Sonja]

Sending virtual snuggles your way... and you're right. The deck is stacked, and it's not in your favor. Hang in there...

 

[the captians wench]

THanks.

I checked the mail on my way to work and there was a check, so I'm paid up to Nov 13th now which means I can pay mom back and keep my electric and internet up. And buy my thing from etsy, so Merry Christmas to me.

I'm feeling better, but I'm sure the hot hard cider/whiskey/mead/tea combo that I made is helping.

 

[Red Sonja]

Glad you got the check... and glad that the hard cider combo is working. Care to share the recipe? I've come down with a horrible case of the flu probably caused by spending time with the demoneice child.

 

[the captians wench]

The only sure measurement I have is the 1 bottle of Sam Addams Hard Cider (apple ginger)

Then maybe 3-4oz of Jameson
maybe 6-8 oz of Oliver Mead
and a cinnamon stick, bring to boil and let simmer until the hot water for the tea is done

Then I made a 16oz kettle of tea. I used a local blend that's full of warm spices like apple pie spices really.

Then combined those and added a spoon of honey to my cup.

 

[the captians wench]

I think I've actually lost weight.

I haven't taken my measurements, but a lot of my clothes are fitting loose, so I decided to brave the scale. It said 227. The last time I was on a scale was at the doctor's last month and it said 243.

Not sure if I believe it or not, but it made me smile anyway, and that's something.

 

[Red Sonja]

I think I've actually lost weight.

I haven't taken my measurements, but a lot of my clothes are fitting loose, so I decided to brave the scale. It said 227. The last time I was on a scale was at the doctor's last month and it said 243.

Not sure if I believe it or not, but it made me smile anyway, and that's something.

Meh. You'd believe if it said you were up, right? It may not be as low as that at the dr.'s office, but it is down. I promise.

 

[the captians wench]

Meh. You'd believe if it said you were up, right? It may not be as low as that at the dr.'s office, but it is down. I promise.

Honestly, I don't put a lot of stock in scales. I've always been heavier than I look, and my size will fluctuate with out me loosing or gaining a pound. The only reason I even have one is that Jounar went through a health kick and wanted a way to keep track of my weight/health.

I'll probably do measurements tomorrow, but I know this last corset I made for myself is smaller than any other I've made for me.

 

[the captians wench]

Haven't done this in months, but here we are:


weigh in:

Last measurements:
Bust: 51.5"
Waist:42
Hip: 50
R. Thigh:25.5
L. Thigh: 25.5


This week's measurements:

Bust: 48.75"
Waist:41.5
Hip: 49.5
R. Thigh:26
L. Thigh: 25.5



Difference:

Bust: -2.75
Waist: -.5
Hip: -.5
R. Thigh:+.5
L. Thigh: 0


I'm really surprised to see my bust drop, but it could just have been the bra I was wearing. Thought the hip and waist would be more, but minus is minus, and since it has been so long since I've done this, I could have gained significantly between the two and then lost it again. Still, a loss is a loss.

 

[Ropebunny]

I'm really surprised to see my bust drop, but it could just have been the bra I was wearing. Thought the hip and waist would be more, but minus is minus, and since it has been so long since I've done this, I could have gained significantly between the two and then lost it again. Still, a loss is a loss.

It might have been the bra but it could very well have been your bust. Mine fluctuate terribly when I lose/gain weight. I'm natually on the small in that area so it's quite painful to lose what little I have while my Christmas ham thighs remain intact.

Congrats on the loss! That's quite a bit, you must be doing something right.

 

[the captians wench]

It might have been the bra but it could very well have been your bust. Mine fluctuate terribly when I lose/gain weight. I'm natually on the small in that area so it's quite painful to lose what little I have while my Christmas ham thighs remain intact.

Congrats on the loss! That's quite a bit, you must be doing something right.

I have never lost inches in my bust in my life. And I fluctuate weight/size quite a bit. Usually I'll loose in my waist and gain in my bust, so I've always joked that I don't loose weight, I shift up!

This is why I think that it was the bra. Could have been different times in my cycle too, as I gain nearly a full cup size when I'm ovulating.

 

[the captians wench]

Grades are in

Roman Cities: A

Psych: C

Considering the trouble I had with the final exam, I'm not beating myself up over the C. It was a very stressful week (what with not knowing if I'd have money for rent/food/gas) and 3 different laptops crashed on me during the exam. Had to say "fuck it" and walk away for my sanity leaving me with a 56 for my final exam score.

That's still:

Socioligy: A-

Teaching and Schooling: A

Roman Cities: A

Psych: C

And I'm besides the GPA, I am doing this, which is nothing to shake a stick at.

 

[the captians wench]

Not sure if I have mentioned it here or not, but for about 6 years or so I have been very prudent about using visual goals. I have a dress hanging on my bedroom door that is my "goal dress" and pictures on my front door of me when I was a size 9/10. But there is also a dry erase board that I keep with my money goals. My dream vacations are written on it, along with how much I wish to budget for it, a deposit for a house of my own, a tv and video games, etc... But this morning I was able to wipe "iPad" off of that list. I may not have bought it, but I did earn the right to win it, so marking it off of that list put a huge smile on my face, and was a get way to start my day.

 

[Keroin]

Grades are in

Roman Cities: A

Psych: C

Considering the trouble I had with the final exam, I'm not beating myself up over the C. It was a very stressful week (what with not knowing if I'd have money for rent/food/gas) and 3 different laptops crashed on me during the exam. Had to say "fuck it" and walk away for my sanity leaving me with a 56 for my final exam score.

That's still:

Socioligy: A-

Teaching and Schooling: A

Roman Cities: A

Psych: C

And I'm besides the GPA, I am doing this, which is nothing to shake a stick at.

Congrats Wenchie! You ARE doing it - and you should be proud.

I thought I was going to minor in psych during my brief stint in Uni. I think I managed a C in my 100 level course and it just got worse from there. Figured out pretty quick that it wasn't my thing, to say the least.

 

[the captians wench]

Congrats Wenchie! You ARE doing it - and you should be proud.

I thought I was going to minor in psych during my brief stint in Uni. I think I managed a C in my 100 level course and it just got worse from there. Figured out pretty quick that it wasn't my thing, to say the least.

I had a high B before the exam, but technology was not my friend that day. I don't think that it recorded my answers after I was booted half way through. I could have done something about it then, but I chose not to, and so I chose to settle with a C.

Next term I'm registered for "psych of gender" so we'll see how well I do with that before I make any life altering changes. Besides, I know I didn't really apply myself like I could have, I didn't even read a single chapter of the book, so I get what I earn.

Just doing this is the important part.

 

[the captians wench]

I started spring term today. Goth lit will be okay, but I think I'm going to love psych of gender.

Stella, the whole time I was sitting in class, I kept thinking, "this would be an awesome class to take with Stella!" and decided that when I come up with something that I'd like to pick your brain, or tickle you with, I'll do some public display of wenchieness.

Mondays are going to be exhausting, but some friends have offered to let me crash there Sunday nights when I finish inventory, which puts me a hell of a lot closer to campus. And said I can nap between classes. Which are 7 hours apart. seemed like a good idea at the time.

Just driving to school tonight put a bit of excitement into me. I'm chugging along, and doing grand.

 

[seela]

Sounds great, wenchie!

I hate it when the classes are several hours apart. I once had a class from 8-10am and then from 6-8pm. It was annoying, because there was so much time inbetween the classes but I never actually got around to do anything proper between them. I always ended up thinking that there's no point to start doing anything important, because would have to finish it soon anyways and go back to my second class.

That gender psych sounds interesting! I only have the master's seminar this spring, am not really looking forward to it, as my Professor and I aren't all chummy-chum-chum. Anything but, actually. Thank God this is finally my last whole semester there, if everything goes according to my plan.

 

[the captians wench]

I hope the class is as much fun as it looks like it will be. And good luck to you Seela!

Now the rest of my week has been absolutely mental break down material.

The school charged me 3 times for my parking pass, which they told me that the transactions would not go through, but they did, and it made my rent check bounce.

Then it took 4 days total to recover that money, in the mean time bouncing transactions left and right. I had to fight to get the $702 that they over charged, and now I'm fighting to get the $234 that this over charge has caused me in fees.

On the good news front, I've been released from work restrictions.

 

[the captians wench]

So last year about this time I set a goal for myself that I had to speak to at least 3 strangers a day, and more than the "hi" and "thank you" required by work. I remember it was very hard for me to do, and at one point I considered lowering that goal.

Well today while I was at the fabric store, when I was leaving actually, I realized I had a full conversation with two complete strangers (not even people I've seen there before) and exchanged pleasantries with three others, and didn't think twice about it. I didn't pause, didn't blush and lower my eyes as we spoke, I even started one of the exchanges!

This is such a huge amount of growth for me, and I didn't even realize how far I've come until now. Now I realize that not only have I been having conversations with strangers, but I've sold my talents to them as well over the past year (with out my mom acting as my PR person).

College courses and talking to strangers. I'm proud of me.

 

[the captians wench]

Last night I looked up my project I have to do for my gender class, and it's not as daunting as I had imagined. But I need to have a survey done by 4 people, so I'm going to have to wait until tomorrow to be able to do it. After the survey, it's a 2 page summery. That's really not all that much, but at least this time she spells out what she wants. I've gotten good at bullshitting papers.

I'm finally starting to feel better after this infection. So since I can't work on my psych project, the plan is to shower and work on the costume order. Hopefully I can get a good chunk of it done, and be able to work on the costume I want to have for Paddy's day.

keep chugging little wenchie

 

[the captians wench]

officially the end of another term.

I got an email from the professor for Victorian Gothic Lit. He says I'm finishing off the class with an A over all. He gave my final exam an A+ saying that I found a very interesting way to pull in what we have learned in class with this new reading for the exam, loved my connections and interpretations, and loved the insights that I made. He also gave my digital portfolio an A, and wants to use it as an example to future students. This is the second project that he's asked to incorporate into future classes and he has used my papers as examples in this class.

Psych of gender the professor has my grade as a B. That's really a lot better than I thought I was doing in that class. I thought for sure that I would be scraping by with a C.

Now I'm fighting with McD's to get my tuition reimbursement so that I can take a summer course or two. But I'm not stressing. If I end up skipping one summer it won't be the end of the world. I think I've earned the break.

 

[the captians wench]

After fighting with the company, I finally got my reimbursement money for school.

Unfortunately this was too late to sign up for classes, and I didn't know it was coming through so I had settled on taking the summer off.

Since I'm not using the money to take summer classes, I should use it to pay some of my existing student loans...but I don't think I will. I'm enjoying having this nest egg sitting about, though it is very tempting to do something totally irresponsible. I have to keep talking myself out of shopping sprees and booking travel.

I did pay off my credit cards, and get all of my bills paid up. but that barely dented the stash.

I also signed up for a burlesque class that I've been dying to do. I'm excited about that. Will really test my social comfort levels as I won't know anyone in this class (potentially) and would be a great way to network and maybe make an impression on the local troop. Maybe even gift a few cinchers.

 

[the captians wench]

Since I'm not taking classes over the summer, I'm finding that I'm wasting a lot of time. Funny how when I had very little spare time I budgeted it out very nicely, but take away the pressure of school and a costume project that should have only taken 2 weeks to finish is still sitting in the wings 8 weeks later.

I think I'm going to have to find a way to enforce my own schedule.

 

[the captians wench]

Grades are in for the quarter bringing me to the following:

Sociology: A-

Teaching and Schooling: A

Roman Cities: A

Psych: C

Victorian Gothic Lit: A

Psych of Gender: B

18 credits down....

 

[midwestyankee]

Grades are in for the quarter bringing me to the following:

Sociology: A-

Teaching and Schooling: A

Roman Cities: A

Psych: C

Victorian Gothic Lit: A

Psych of Gender: B

18 credits down....

Between you and Curi, you're doing your best to make it look like we're really smart folk around here. Good on you!