Since most of my friends are on this forum...

[NightL]

YAY YAY YAY!!! - dancing around in circles

Our lives are from this moment forward - and yours has PIANO

Now I go look at my poor neglected keys

This year this year

 

[BeachMomma]

I've enjoyed the hell out of having a piano again. I missed too many years of practice to be as good as I used to be, but it's music to my ears even if it runs everybody else out of the apartment.

 

[GooodGurrl]

Thanks kids. I just find it ironic that I feel so much worse now that I quit smoking. I'm hanging in there tho. This shit can't last forever; can it? CAN IT?!?

Just catching up with your thread, happy that you're getting through all of this.

I wanted to give you some words of hope here.

Most people generally feel worse after giving up smoking, for a little while at least, it's one of the main reasons it's so hard to give up and why so many go straight back to smoking. It's all the toxins stored in your body being released. They get flushed into your system and then your body has to work over time to get them out.

It'll happen and you will definitely begin to feel the good affects soon!!

 

[BeachMomma]

Thanks for the tip. I'd love to be able to tell you I toughed it out, but I can't lie. Not even on here.

 

[perkyT]

BeachyBaby...


You need a little NursePorn.

 

[GiggLeGasm]

BeachyBaby...


You need a little NursePorn.

<sigh> that guy will NEVER get sick enough to be admitted to the hospital. that's the cruel injustice.

You hang in there, Beachygirl

 

[BeachMomma]

BeachyBaby...


You need a little NursePorn.

*drool*.


I was out with my boyfriend a few nights ago when a man walked in the restaurant. I couldn't tell you what he looked like, but his veins screamed at me from across the room. Boyfriend saw the look in my eyes and turned to see what I was looking at. He said (I swear lol), "you can start all the iv's you want on him as long as you come home with me." He knew exactly why I was drooling. Lol. Have I mentioned he's a keeper?

<sigh> that guy will NEVER get sick enough to be admitted to the hospital. that's the cruel injustice.

You hang in there, Beachygirl

And if he is, he won't be my patient. *cries*

Thanks ladies. Love ya both!

 

[Cumference]

....It's all the toxins stored in your body being released. They get flushed into your system and then your body has to work over time to get them out.

It'll happen and you will definitely begin to feel the good affects soon!!

I guess that is the New Age version of it.

The human body is quite effective, when it comes to removing toxins from the system, especially when it is classic toxins that we have been exposed to as long as the species has existed.

The half-life of nicotine in the human body is approx two hours, and within 8 hours the carbon monoxide is gone too.
Some of the nastier substances such as tar, particles, heavy metals will take longer to eliminate, and the your body will be hard at work repairing the damage caused by the smoke (But that repair work does not make you feel bad, it will make you feel better and better!)


The more accepted physiological explanation is, that you have spent years "rewarding" the receptors in your body with nicotine.

Nicotine triggers the brain's "reward system", making you feel good. In nature, "if it feels good, it is good" has aided our survival, and most animals are willing to go to great lengths to trigger the reward system.
Now, you are simply missing the extra amount of dopamine.
(Yup, "withdrawal" is the word)

Withdrawal sets in as soon as your body detects the falling dopamine level, and it will keep craving nicotine (because you have taught it, that smoking is a quick boost) for a long after the the nicotine is gone.

 

[BeachMomma]

The biochemical cascade of addiction really doesn't matter all that much. Intellectually, I know and understand what drives my need to smoke. The simple fact is that I've been sick enough for other reasons (diverticulitis) that the illness from not smoking just pushed me over the edge. I was already pushed far beyond my tolerance level for pain and nausea. I couldn't stand any more.

I hate that I gave in and picked up cigarettes again, but I won't punish myself for it. I always tell my patients' family members to be kind to themselves. They're already going through too much; the latest illness has taught me to take my own advice. It's a lesson I learned the hard way, but those lessons aren't soon forgotten.

 

[Saucyminx]

The biochemical cascade of addiction really doesn't matter all that much. Intellectually, I know and understand what drives my need to smoke. The simple fact is that I've been sick enough for other reasons (diverticulitis) that the illness from not smoking just pushed me over the edge. I was already pushed far beyond my tolerance level for pain and nausea. I couldn't stand any more.

I hate that I gave in and picked up cigarettes again, but I won't punish myself for it. I always tell my patients' family members to be kind to themselves. They're already going through too much; the latest illness has taught me to take my own advice. It's a lesson I learned the hard way, but those lessons aren't soon forgotten.

We all love you regardless darlin.

 

[BeachMomma]

Awww! I love y'all too!

 

[BeachMomma]

Well, kids, we finally have a working diagnosis. It only took six months (18 if you want to count the heart issues). They believe it's fibromyalgia.

 

[NightL]

Isn't it maddening... when you make the changes in life to remove stress the body then kicks in to say "it ain't over yet".

I have been through that a few times, though not to the extent of fibromyalgia.

I hope putting a name to what has been going on offers a more focussed path of treatment.

Dr NightL has just the cure for you - keep playing that piano. Ok I'm not a doctor and I have no idea what piano playing could cure, but I do know what it does for the soul and I thoroughly recommend it.

 

[Miles Long]

Well, kids, we finally have a working diagnosis. It only took six months (18 if you want to count the heart issues). They believe it's fibromyalgia.

Sorry to hear that, Beachy. Fibromyalgia is in my family and it looks like no fun. On the plus side it's nice to have a diagnosis and now hopefully you can get some good treatment plans. Big hugs for you.

 

[BeachMomma]

Thanks everybody. It's miserable, but yeah the piano does help. The boyfriend and I are learning Werewolves of London. Me on the piano, him singing and on the guitar. Its a blast!

I'm taking Zoloft for it. It should kick in in about 10 more days. I hope. I woke up last night from a dead sleep, hurting insanely all over. I swear, my hair even hurt. I keep telling myself that my nerves are confused. That its just static in my sensory nerves, but the pain is so intense that my body and my nerves tell me to fuck off. It's the craziest thing. Even a simple pat on the back or gentle touch on my hand is excruciating at times. The job makes it so much worse. When I come home from work at night I just collapse on the bed and it takes a full day to recover.

Miles, has anyone that you know managed to find any tricks or tips to help manage it? I'm open to suggestions. Thanks in advance.

 

[Que]

Sorry for your pain. I hope the meds help.

 

[BeachMomma]

Thanks. Me too. Went out to dinner with the boyfriend and his family last night. He was holding my hand and gently rubbed his thumb over the back of my hand. The pain was so intense that I yelped (with 3 cops at the next table no less. Lol)

On the other hand, I'm still working just as hard as ever. One of the other nurses asked how in the world I do it. Sheer stubbornness. I just hope nobody touches me at work. The simplest touch is excruciating. This is a horrible way to start a new relationship. Jack has to ask if its ok to touch me and even then it sometimes sneaks up on me. /sighs

 

[Que]

Thanks. Me too. Went out to dinner with the boyfriend and his family last night. He was holding my hand and gently rubbed his thumb over the back of my hand. The pain was so intense that I yelped (with 3 cops at the next table no less. Lol)

On the other hand, I'm still working just as hard as ever. One of the other nurses asked how in the world I do it. Sheer stubbornness. I just hope nobody touches me at work. The simplest touch is excruciating. This is a horrible way to start a new relationship. Jack has to ask if its ok to touch me and even then it sometimes sneaks up on me. /sighs

Sounds awful. Not just the pain, but the avoidance of human contact.

Is it more tolerable if you initiate contact?

 

[drinkz]

Sounds awful. Not just the pain, but the avoidance of human contact.

This man speaks from experience. His only human contact is his trolling here.

 

[Miles Long]

*snip*

Miles, has anyone that you know managed to find any tricks or tips to help manage it? I'm open to suggestions. Thanks in advance.

Unfortunately I don't know of anything they have tried that worked very well. Wish I had some good ideas for you.

 

[BeachMomma]

Sounds awful. Not just the pain, but the avoidance of human contact.

Is it more tolerable if you initiate contact?

That's hard to call. It doesn't hurt all the time, so he can hold my had and I'm fine. Next thing ya know, I'm in excruciating pain. If I touch him with the front of my hand, it seems to be ok. I scratched an itch last night and damn near cried.

It sucks ass. I'm a touchy feely person. I feel so isolated, and Im afraid all day at work that somebody will touch my hand or back and I'll lose it. I've only mentioned it to a few of my closest friends at work (so they'll understand if I have to ask for help). I don't want it to be common knowledge. At least not yet.

 

[BeachMomma]

This man speaks from experience. His only human contact is his trolling here.

I understand that you don't like him, but this isn't the place for that. This thread has become a safe haven for all of us. You're welcome to stay (it isn't always about me whining lol) but I do ask that you treat everybody here with respect. Thanks!

 

[BeachMomma]

Unfortunately I don't know of anything they have tried that worked very well. Wish I had some good ideas for you.

Treatments seem to be anecdotal at best. My boss (a masters degree nurse with experience in neuro) told me that it frequently takes a cocktail of meds just to get to the tolerable level. That means I could get lucky and find a treatment in a few months, or at the worst, it could take years.

 

[drinkz]

.....

 

[BeachMomma]

If they're begging for it, by all means accommodate them. Somewhere else please. I don't ask anybody to respect anybody else, but I do ask that they be treated with respect while in my thread.

If you can't do that, that's your choice. It's also your choice to do it somewhere else. All I ask is that this thread be allowed to remain the safe haven that was intended - and has been so beautifully maintained by the people who frequent it.