Soliloquium: Reflections on my World.

[yeishia]

I can only speak for my heart, and it says I belong with you

As mine does with you ...near or close I carry you in my heart always

 

[yeishia]

I slip into Sol in the middle of my night unable to sleep in my real world.

It is hot and humid .

Solitude .

Lit is silent most of its denizens asleep I would imagine or perhaps they are safely tucked away happy in their respective play somewhere in the underbelly of Lit.

Tonite I do not feel like a child with her nose pressed to the candy store window.

Tonight I welcome the aloneness...

I am strangely happy, this moment is surreal some how.

The betwixt & between...

It is my domain,a place where I truly belong it seems...

Smiling softly I wander around my small domain my slender fingers trailing lovingly across familiar beloved objects. I had arrived from my real world totally nude and that is how I remained as I wandered into my secret garden, my feet unerringly guiding me along the twists and turns to my favorite place...

I sat at the edge of the small pond allowing my legs to dangle in the cooling waters.

The world around me is bathed in silence ...

 

[yeishia]

I so stole this...

*runs off to look for a pic with out the caption.*

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[yeishia]

 

[Veroe]

I so stole this...

*runs off to look for a pic with out the caption.*

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Awww but I loved what the caption says on that one.

well anyway...I found a pic that I thought was great inspiration for LPR.

I hope all is well Yeishia. Still trying to figure out how to edit the conversation in my Chris and Cathy post to keep the important things they said while being accurate to the points you brought to my attention. You know how long it took me the first time tinkering with it. So I beg for your patience on that.​

 

[yeishia]

Awww but I loved what the caption says on that one.

well anyway...I found a pic that I thought was great inspiration for LPR.

I hope all is well Yeishia. Still trying to figure out how to edit the conversation in my Chris and Cathy post to keep the important things they said while being accurate to the points you brought to my attention. You know how long it took me the first time tinkering with it. So I beg for your patience on that.​

I wander back in to Sol totally shocked to find that I had had a visitor...it had been so long I had begun to think that perhaps I had offended him in some way.

I smile softly at his question, all is not well, as he would know if we were closer.

"I answered your Vassal question in the OOC Veroe.

As for the statue...."

I trail my fingertips lovingly across the surface of the statue I had found "I too liked part of the quote ...but as we know a power exchange is never truly one sided."

My eyes light up as I spy the print he has left for me. "Thank you Veroe it is gorgeous , I agree it is the perfect inspiration for LP if you are ever inspired to continue it with me at some point in the future."

I move into the kitchen to fix my morning smoothie adding as many energy boosting ingredients as I can, Lord I am so tired all I truly want to do is crawl back into bed this day...

 

[yeishia]

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[yeishia]

My new AV I am thinking

Both my AV and my siggy are way overdue for an overhau.

 

[yeishia]

I take another lingering look at my newest acquisitions smiling softly as I make my way through Sol. I had spent a lovely afternoon reading alone out in my secret garden now it was time to return to my real world. Closing the front door carefully behind me I faded gently back into reality...

 

[Veroe]

I wander back in to Sol totally shocked to find that I had had a visitor...it had been so long I had begun to think that perhaps I had offended him in some way.

I smile softly at his question, all is not well, as he would know if we were closer.

"I answered your Vassal question in the OOC Veroe.

As for the statue...."

I trail my fingertips lovingly across the surface of the statue I had found "I too liked part of the quote ...but as we know a power exchange is never truly one sided."

My eyes light up as I spy the print he has left for me. "Thank you Veroe it is gorgeous , I agree it is the perfect inspiration for LP if you are ever inspired to continue it with me at some point in the future."

I move into the kitchen to fix my morning smoothie adding as many energy boosting ingredients as I can, Lord I am so tired all I truly want to do is crawl back into bed this day...

I would know if I were closer?
So you're not feeling well? Or are you talking about how busy in RL you are currently? Or is this about LPR?

I agree on your comment about the dual nature of a power exchange. It's why it fascinates me so much.

I posted for Cole and still wish to continue, LPR, Yeishia. Unless of course you have lost interest.

 

[Last_Rider]

A little something for my Angel

 

[yeishia]

I would know if we were closer?

So you're not feeling well? Or are you talking about how busy in RL you are currently? Or is this about LPR?

None of the above. Back reading this thread will catch you up if you have a mind.

I agree on your comment about the dual nature of a power exchange. It's why it fascinates me so much.

*smiles softly*

I posted for Cole and still wish to continue, LPR, Yeishia. Unless of course you have lost interest.

When I reminded you it had been 2 months since you had last posted, you did you did lay down a fast post for me. I P.M ed you my thoughts.

Veroe from my stand point it is you who has lost interest or simply do not have the time. I am off this weekend I shall P.M. you my thoughts again.

 

[yeishia]

A little something for my Angel

"Thank you so much my love." I slip the treasured angel onto my bracelet delighted by his loving gesture.

 

[yeishia]

I slip back into lit...nothing but a duty post from my love. I take another look at the pic I was thinking of using for my AV thinking that I shall have to make my mind up on my own.

It is heading towards 41degrees in Montreal I am thinking I might hide here for the day.

Shedding my restrictive clothing I head to the kitchen to fix a smoothie and carry it with me to my not so secret garden humming a small tune as I drink in the beauty of the flowers which surround me there...

 

[yeishia]

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“No relationship is perfect, ever.

There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater...

The love we have for each other is bigger than these small differences. And that's the key.

It's like a big pie chart, and the love in a relationship has to be the biggest piece.

Love can make up for a lot.”

Sarah Dessen, This Lullaby​

 

[Last_Rider]

*pulls my Angel into Sol, arm about her shoulders, settling the two of us on the couch, my nibbling gently at her neck and whispering in her ear*

 

[yeishia]

Snuggles closer happy just to be held in your arms.

 

[Last_Rider]

*smiles, happy and relaxed with my Angel snuggled close*

 

[yeishia]

Last evening we had taken our privte conversation off into the real world, he was my balm soothing the sometimes harshness of this world.

I would never understand the need some had to simply hurt others, nor I supposed did I truly want to.Sometimes looking into the abyss can be disconcerting, living on its fringes even more so. Still my heart mourned for such people saddened that I coul not in some small way ease their inner anguish even a little.

Smiling sadly at the thought I snuggled into the imprint my loves body had left when he faded back into the real world. I could still smell the virile essence of him..."mmmmm," I closed my eyes and was once again in heaven, everything but him forgotton...

I was looking forward to my long weekend.

 

[yeishia]

Today is an aimlessly wandering kind of evening both in my real world and here on lit. Rider is busy watching fights on which he will provide commentary for the site upon which he writes his column for and I am alone and ...bored I guess.

I cannot write.

Perhaps I shall take a walk in my garden or read or continue simply to sit here alone with my thoughts.

It is times like theses I wish I had friends here on Lit, that I was a vivacious female who attracted visitors. I giggle at my last thought...so silly of me really what would I do if I actually had a stream of visitors... I would sit here silent and tongue tied.

I am being a silly goose tonight.


Perhaps I shall try to write for Vassal or see who is on IM.

 

[yeishia]

This belonges here...

Life and death, energy and peace, if I stop today it was still worth it.

Even the terrible mistakes, that I have made and would have unmade if I could.

The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it for having been allowed to walk where I've walked.

Which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, in it and above
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Gia Marie Carangi​

 

[yeishia]

I wander into what used to be my slice of heaven here on Lit my eyes wandering around the neglected space sadly. No one ever came here any more, my supposed friends, my love... not even myself.

It needed a cleaning one which I was loath to give, perhaps another day.

With a last look around I smiled sadly wishing things were different; whether my lounge were closed or open it simply made no difference here.

It mattered not in the greater scheme of things...

I was smiling as I headed for my secret garden closing the French Doors securely behind me.

I enjoyed solitude, it would be mine again today.

 

[Last_Rider]

I wander into Sol, immediately surrounded by its warmth and familiarity. The reality is that I haven't been here as much as I should. This is such a lovely place. I recline on the couch with some hot chocolate and think about the upcoming day.

 

[yeishia]

I return along the pathway back to Soll fireflies escort me dancing around me as I walk. I adore the feel of the vibrant earth beneath my bare feet it is invigorating.

As I aproach the closed French doors I can see my dark angel relaxing on the coouch.

It has been a long time since he has visited me here. I press my finger tips against the cool glass drinking in the precious sight of him.

I am content to stand here simply watching him, much like the child pressing her face to the candy shop window, the child who knows that she may never truly have the candy displayed within.

I am the child who is content simply to want and dream...

 

[Last_Rider]

I feel my sensual Angel and look around, seeing her outside I smile and motion to her. I want her in here with me.