Soliloquium: Reflections on my World.

[yeishia]

I feel my sensual Angel and look around, seeing her outside I smile and motion to her. I want her in here with me.

I see him beckon me but find that I simply cannot enter, it is if I am frozen in the very fabric of time itself.

My love's muse has been kicked into high gear, inspired by another and I cannot, will not intrude.

There are some things one cannot compete with and this is one of them. The muse must be fed no matter the price, I am as always collateral damage.

I would have it no other way it has been ages since I have seen my love so inspired.

In many ways I am delighted for him, I guess I am saddened that I am no longer the one that sparks his passion....

It seems like eons since we have had time quality together and yet I am willing to wait a small while longer...I love him so!

My eyes are sad as I fade back into the shadows feeling like an abandoned wraith, lost and alone.

A quietly whispered " Que Sera Sera " and I am transported to the bedroom in Soll that I had quite literally fashioned for myself here.

Not bothering to undress I crawl beneath the comforter taking solace from the romantic room and the small treasures which surround me there.

Silent tears fall from the eyes which stare steadfastly at the ceiling to fall unheeded on the satin sheets.

I feel very much alone as I have for several months now. I lie in the small room feeling bereft , needy, sad, it feels almost as if I simply do not exist at al.

Sleep please come I beg...it seems even the allures of dreamland shall be denied to me this night...

 

[yeishia]

I had stolen this from Cait this morning

Well I did go after what I wanted and for the longest time thought I actually had it.

I asked in many differing ways...I am still waiting.

Now as for the step forward I keep trying but somehow always end up a step behind.

I guess that means I am traveling backwards

Will I meet myself at some point I am wondering?

Yikes! I'm on a rodent wheel going exactly nowhere.

*face palms* Thanks Cait, made my day that piece of wisdom did!​

 

[DarkWarrioress]

I had stolen this from Cait this morning

Well I did go after what I wanted and for the longest time thought I actually had it.

I asked in many differing ways...I am still waiting.

Now as for the step forward I keep trying but somehow always end up a step behind.

I guess that means I am traveling backwards

Will I meet myself at some point I am wondering?

Yikes! I'm on a rodent wheel going exactly nowhere.

*face palms* Thanks Cait, made my day that piece of wisdom did!​

*kisses her cheek* Feel free to snatch up anything posted in the Mansion, dear.

And Yeishia? Just have patience and give the Universe a chance to work.

 

[yeishia]

*kisses her cheek* Feel free to snatch up anything posted in the Mansion, dear.

And Yeishia? Just have patience and give the Universe a chance to work.

*smiles* Thank you Cait *hugs her close*

I am trying with the patience thing I really am but sometimes...well it would be nice if it happened in my life time

On the other hand who know if this is my fist time around, maybe it will take me an eternity before I repay whatever karma dept I still owe.

 

[yeishia]

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[Ravenloft]

Jane Siberry

It Can't Rain All the Time

[ from The Crow Soundtrack ]



[SPOKEN:]
We walked the narrow path,
beneath the smoking skies.
Sometimes you can barely tell the difference
between darkness and light.
Do you have faith
in what we believe?
The truest test is when we cannot,
when we cannot see.

[SUNG:]
I hear pounding feet in the,
in the streets below, and the,
and the women crying and the,
and the children know that there,
that there's something wrong,
and it's hard to belive that love will prevail.

Oh it won't rain all the time.
The sky won't fall forever.
And though the night seems long,
your tears won't fall forever.

Oh, when I'm lonely,
I lie awake at night
and I wish you were here.
I miss you.
Can you tell me
is there something more to belive in?
Or is this all there is?

In the pounding feet, in the,
In the streets below, and the,
And the window breaks and,
And a woman falls, there's,
There's something wrong, it's,
It's so hard to belive that love will prevail.

Oh it won't rain all the time.
The sky won't fall forever.
And though the night seems long,
your tears won't fall, your tears won't fall, your tears won't fall
forever.

Last night I had a dream.
You came into my room,
you took me into your arms.
Whispering and kissing me,
and telling me to still belive.
But then the emptiness of a burning sea against which we see
our darkest of sadness.

Until I felt safe and warm.
I fell asleep in your arms.
When I awoke I cried again for you were gone.
Oh, can you hear me?

It won't rain all the time.
The sky won't fall forever.
And though the night seems long,
your tears won't fall forever.
It won't rain all the time
The sky won't fall forever.
And though the night seems long,
your tears won't fall, your tears won't fall,
your tears won't fall
forever.

 

[yeishia]

Jane Siberry

It Can't Rain All the Time

[ from The Crow Soundtrack ]

I so wish I could ease your pain. Believe it or not that song fits my mood too.

Sometimes it seems that the rain will never end. It gets better and some one or thing flattens you again.

I have to believe .... I'm nixing that I am dreamer not a realist which is why I...never mind I have no advice that makes sense right now.

 

[Ravenloft]

i'll be your thousandth technicolored anthem
your rhythm in the storm
when stars
atlases
and worlds combust
you know i'll keep you warm
i'll light you up--african suns
[we'll drive] into them all
you know
you know
you know me
the one thousandth flicker
in your fall.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=omGoheZlLwg&feature=plcp

 

[yeishia]

i'll be your thousandth technicolored anthem
your rhythm in the storm
when stars
atlases
and worlds combust
you know i'll keep you warm
i'll light you up--african suns
[we'll drive] into them all
you know
you know
you know me
the one thousandth flicker
in your fall.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=omGoheZlLwg&feature=plcp

Oh my goodness that is beautiful , Thank you Raven.

I tried to be that for someone...I failed.

 

[Ravenloft]

Ahhh, thank you grasshoppah, my nerd-fu is strong...

Here's a music video for you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WbyUCzBJVe4

 

[yeishia]

*giggles*

I so need a dose of Nerd_fu right now

I think me will make a great grasshippah type female.

*runs to watch the video.*

 

[yeishia]

Here's a music video for you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WbyUCzBJVe4

 

[yeishia]

Sometimes I need to lean on you…

 

[yeishia]

Sometimes I make mistakes…

Sometimes I make mistakes. I am not always firm enough, sometimes I don’t communicate as well as I would like, every now and then I completely fail at understanding where you are coming from.

I’m sorry for the times when that happens.

It took me awhile to realize that it was ok for me not be perfect and that apologizing would not diminish me nor our relationship.​

 

[yeishia]

Sometimes words are unnecessary…

​

 

[Last_Rider]

I am here for you my Angel. I love you.

 

[Ravenloft]

So, does that mean you like it?

 

[yeishia]

It does indeed...night Raven...sweet dreams.

 

[yeishia]

I am here for you my Angel. I love you.

Really? ...nice! thank you

 

[Ravenloft]

Not in Love
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xsV8TrF4gN0&feature=plcp

 

[yeishia]

Not in Love
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xsV8TrF4gN0&feature=plcp

Should I run?

 

[Ravenloft]

The chase won't be any fun if you don't...

 

[yeishia]

* smiles softly*

 

[Last_Rider]

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[Last_Rider]