Soliloquium: Reflections on my World.

[yeishia]

I slipped back into Solliquium, it had been a while...

Heading to the freezer I pull open the door and stare at the turkey lying there wondering if I should bother to defrost it. I had planned on making a thanksgiving dinner for either for my or his celebration...but if things turned out as they were want to do we wouldn't be able to coordinate ...at which point as I was vegetarian the poor bird would have died for nothing. Smiling softly I firmly closed the door...why bother.

I was trying to plan a party but suspected that it would go the same way as the turkey and Soliquium...neglected and forgotten...I couldn't even pin down a date...

I had planned on doing a little cleaning and decorating for the holidays, I glanced around as I thought better of it, why bother no one was likely to visit any time soon...the cleaning could wait..maybe I would have the Vassal staff do it.

I slipped away as silently as I had arrived.

 

[yeishia]

 

[yeishia]

Thanksgiving had come and gone and I had survived, a few bruises, some heartache ...but all in all each year it seemed to get a little easier as I gained strength.

Perhaps next year I would simply say "No ." and take a mini vacation instead.

My love here in the Lit world was still caught in his real world , he hadn't even picked up the card I had left for him ...just in case.

I smiled it wasn't the American thanks giving until next month. Sadly i picked up the card and dropped it in the trash...

I was a creature of habit , it was high time I changed some of my less productive ones. I grinned I hadn't sent a single e-card this year..why bother no-one returned them. Bridges inadvertently burned by my own inaction, my own hand, no one to blame but myself I supposed...


The Vassal staff had put my small abode to rights all I had to do was settle down for my morning smoothie before I headed over to the Inn for a much needed cup of coffee.

 

[Last_Rider]

Soll.

This place that was like a home to me. To us. A place of beauty that my Angel had created, it mirrored so much of her gorgeous soul.

A place I hadn't been in far too long. A place, and in many ways a person, I had neglected. I had been so foolish, so blind in so many ways.

I shake my head slightly. The past is to be learned from, not dwelt on and agonized over. I would learn from the past, and start today to begin anew. I reach into the garbage can and find the card my Angel left me. I pick it from the bin and hold it, carefully replacing it on the mantle place.

"Forward."

I start a fire, throw open the curtains, this is a wonderful place, and it's time to fix what I've left undone. The sunlight begins streaming through the windows, further lighting the room, and brightening my heart along with it. The past is to be learned from, but the future... the future holds endless possibilities.

 

[yeishia]

I had enjoyed the Halloween Party and frankly was unsure what day it actually was . I had found myself on the lawn just outside the maze it had Taken me a while to calm my bemused body . Laying in the dewy grass listening to the merriment of the other party goers knowing that I would never be a part of their exclusive world had me smiling softly, for the first time not really caring . Tonight had proved with certainty I could exist quite happily within the confines of my own fertile imagination....I was truly blessed.

Where to go now?

" Que Sera Sera," and I reluctantly returned to Soll shedding what was left of my costume as I entered.

Something was different I could tell straight away, gone was the air of neglect and disuse, the drapes were open allowing in the early morning sunlight to caress the romantic room even the fire was crackling merrily in the grate.

My eyes widened as my gaze wandered the now cosy room, taking in the thanksgiving card which now took pride of place on the mantle.

Rider...

My love had finally returned home.

I was simply too tired to question the how's and whys of his return to this location.

Our home....

I penned a quick thank you to Britwitch then took a quick shower and slipped into bed beside him.

Home was were the heart was and I was snuggled up to mine...

 

[Last_Rider]

I feel my Angel slide beside me and smile. I feel incomplete without her by me. After sleeping I wake before her and slip from the bed. It is Halloween after all, and a few decorations are in order.

A costume for my Angel, which I hope she likes.

Some streamers, black, orange, and purple hang around the open rooms, a large bowl of candy is placed by the door, just in case anyone decides to stop by. A few jack o' lanterns are placed around the rooms as well, silly ones mostly.

 

[yeishia]

I wake to find myself alone..I frown sighing thinking that today will be a repeat of forever, my love gone and I ..well that I would be alone for yet another festive occasion.

Sleepily I sit up..It is then that I spy the package lying at the end of our bed...Christmas come early is my first thought as I eagerly unwrap the tissue..

A Halloween costume , it is simply perfect, with out thought I slip it on running to the floor length mirror ..it fits to perfection, I adore it. Smiling I fix my hair and run in search of my love.

The man of my waking dreams.

More surprises greet me in the living room, he has decorated, I am overwhelmed as my eyes meet his.

I run into his arms hugging him to me.

"Thank you this is perfect." I am bemused, elated , happy, overwhelmed by his attention to detail.

Smiling I pull out of his arms and pirouette before him...

"You like? Does it suit me, am I as you imagined?"

My eyes search his hoping he approves , I feel bad I hadn't helped pick out his costume... I Had not even thought to hope we would spend this special night together.

I adored Halloween, next to Christmas it was my favorite holiday.

 

[Last_Rider]

I cannot help but grin at my Angel, she looks wonderful. I pull her close and lean down, kissing her softly.

"You are incredible my love. Though we'll have to leave that halo hanging on the door knob in a bit."

I grin, unable to help myself. I pull her close, holding her. I love Halloween as much as she does, tonight will be wonderful.

 

[yeishia]

Halloween was wonderful though we didnt exactly leave Soll. I loved that he had made this effort of bringing Halloween into our home.

As for my halo, sometimes when I am good ...I am very good indeed. I am smiling at the thought as I glance at the halo still hanging othe door knob.

I melt in his arms nibbling playfully on his ear as he speaks my mind full of deliscious possibilties...

He is wearing the costume of a very bad man , the knife that goes with it glinting wickedly in the half light where it hands from his waist.

I shiver in delight.

"Your angel loves you," I purr pressing closer my fingers digging into the muscles of his neck.

I can feel his heat and cannot help but moan softly, I have an itch that needs tending to this night...

 

[Last_Rider]

My Angel touches me and fires start to grow in my body. A large bowie knife made of damascus steel hangs in a leather sheath at my waist. Actually large might be an understatement, but that's for later. For now I return her kiss, soft at first, slowly growing more intense.

I wear a leather vest, jeans, and boots, dressed like a somewhat stereotypical bad man. When our kiss breaks my eyes are dark with desire, and with something else. I growl, low in my throat, then grab her up and throw her onto the bed.

I walk slowly, methodically, letting my boots thump on the floor, towards her. Tonight we both have an itch, and I definitely intend to scratch it. I slowly draw the knife from its sheath, eyes bright, moving it back and forth like a pendulum just under my eyes.

"Lay still and I wont have to use this. Resist, well, then things get interesting little Angel."

 

[yeishia]

I am swept up in the savage kiss and as he grabs me up I giggle nervously against his chest, he cuts an imposing figure in his Halloween garb.

To my surprise he carries me through to the small romantic bedroom I had recently had added to Solliquiuim. I had designed it as a place to nurture my soul in the dark moments when I felt forgotten, which had been often of late.

The exquisite bed was not a place for what he seemed to have in mind. I wanted it as much as he but not here...

The impact knocked the breath out of me but I managed to whisper, " Que Sera Sera," to transport us both to another time and place, I knew he would understand.

* * *​

Rider for the above reasons and because you seem to be stuck in your real which is fine, however, I do not want to be locked out of Soll while it limps along.

I will take us to Dreamscapes

 

[yeishia]

 

[yeishia]

 

[yeishia]

Flight

Take me to my place far away,
Let me ride on the wings of a dove.
Take me to the ends of the world,
Let me experience the fullness of love.

As i feel the mastery of Your whip,
And the sweet pleasure of pain,
My mind begins its inner journey,
While the body, my Master tames.

Deeper and deeper, my heart will soar.
A world that alone is mine.
To find my comfort, and search my soul,
A sanctuary, with no essence of time.

I will glide over flowered meadows,
To the falls and the enchanted lake.
Sometimes diving into the jeweled waters,
The choice is mine to take.

Then there is my cave of discovery,
At the end is a very bright light.
I put one foot in front of the other,
To the cave opening, that i may take flight.

With one foot stepping into the light,
I suddenly begin to fall.
Through clouds of love, sadness and fear,
With my voice i can not call.

As i near the bottom, fearing crash,
Strong arms surround and protect me.
Sadness will cease, along with fear,
As you kiss away tears, so i can see.

As you kiss the last tear away,
In your arms we begin to glide.
Surrounded by only our sweet love,
Is where i wish to humbly abide.

What is this sanctuary, that searches my soul?
What is this comforting place?
It can only be shared with my Master.
This wonderful journey is my…….subspace.

Cameron​

 

[yeishia]

 

[yeishia]

Sitting by the fireside in the half light I was deep in thought.

I was pondering how one recognized a particular dominate as being truly the one for you. It is something in the timbre of the voice I think which goes way beyond mere words. I am guessing that those amongst us who are truly submissive, those of us who understand and are drawn to such a voice know how deeply a quickly a particular voice can be embedded within ones soul, how that voice can make one melt inside to the point of simply falling to ones knees in the presence of the one you would serve.

The thought of such a voice had me trembling in need as I slowly sipped my cocoa. I smiled softly I was being fanciful from lack of sleep.

Sick of being alone, even my so called friends did not visit any more I placed my mug in the sink before Making my solitary way to my lovely bedroom where I climbed beneath the duvet hoping that sleep would soon claim me....

"Goodnight Lit," I softly whispered as my eyes fluttered closed.

 

[Last_Rider]

I slip into Soll, up too late as usual. I am kicking myself mentally for my absences. I hate myself sometimes.

I slide into bed beside my Angel, feeling her warmth against my body, her scent filling my nostrils. My arms slide around her waist, pulling her close.

"I'm sorry. I love you."

Whispered words into her ear before my head touches the pillow and I join my Angel in dreamland.

 

[yeishia]

The Voice Of Dominance

Come a little closer,
As I whisper in your ear,
Kneel before me sweet one,
This voice you shall hear.

The voice that wraps around,
A warmth that will invade,
Touching your mind so deep,
This voice shall never fade.

The ecstasy of darkness,
Begins to swirl around,
As once again you find,
Ever deeply bound,

Deeper to my underworld,
Only you and I exist,
Letting go so easily,
No reason to resist

The magick and the gifts,
I will bestow to you.
When you do desire deeply,
Your heart surrenders true.

Reaching out my hand,
I gently caress your face,
A rush of powerful energy,
Surges through with grace,

As you find yourself dissolving,
In a different time and place,
Melting to my touch,
As your mind becomes erased.

Come a little closer,
As I whisper in your ear,
Obedience and subservience,
Is all your mind can hear.

This is the voice you crave,
The dominant pull,
As you naturally react,
In submission full,

Feel the warming smoothness,
Sweet deviance abounds,
Pulling you ever deeper,
As my power completely surrounds,

Your body and your mind,
The deepest inner core,
Caging, binding deeper,
Your soul aching for more.

Breathe in deep,
This dominant allure,
My presence here with you,
Powerfully sure

Of my control and guidance,
Is where you crave to be,
The addiction to my voice,
You become a part of me.

Drinking you in,
Taking what is mine.
Worthy you must be,
Such as finest wine.

Feed my dominant soul,
And pleasure you will feel,
As I torment your mind,
With sensations so real.

Come a little closer,
Your flesh can hear my voice.
The warmth of my whispers,
Have given you no choice.

Come a little closer,
As I whisper in your ear,
Kneel before me sweet one,
This voice you shall hear.

The voice that wraps around,
A warmth that will invade,
Touching your mind so deep,
This voice shall never fade.
​

​

teyah​

 

[yeishia]

My Dark Angel...

"My depth of love has no boundaries,
Is forever expanding into an endless journey,
And each day is a new page in a never ending story."

teyah wrote this but it echos my sentiments exactly​

 

[yeishia]

"I'm sorry. I love you."

Whispered words into her ear before my head touches the pillow and I join my Angel in dreamland.

Dreamland is a potent place...sometimes I fear it is the only place I truly understand.

 

[yeishia]

Once in a while,
Right in the middle of an ordinary life,
Love gives us a fairy tale.


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[yeishia]

I have loved you from the beginning of time itself.

You’re presence has been within me through each life, as my soul waits patiently for our energies to emerge on the same plain once again.

How deeply I love you with all that I am, nothing can keep us apart for our souls are one even as we drift in otherworlds of existence.

My love, my life, my soul, I feel you with me always.

~Forever And A Day My Love Is Yours~ AA

My sentiments exactly...​

 

[yeishia]

 

[Last_Rider]

I have loved you from the beginning of time itself.

You’re presence has been within me through each life, as my soul waits patiently for our energies to emerge on the same plain once again.

How deeply I love you with all that I am, nothing can keep us apart for our souls are one even as we drift in otherworlds of existence.

My love, my life, my soul, I feel you with me always.

~Forever And A Day My Love Is Yours~ AA

My sentiments exactly...​

Beautiful my love, simply beautiful.

You spoke my own thoughts when we last spoke in poem form. You know you have my soul just as I have yours. It glows and hums inside your breast, close to your perfect heart.

 

[yeishia]

Beautiful my love, simply beautiful.

You spoke my own thoughts when we last spoke in poem form. You know you have my soul just as I have yours. It glows and hums inside your breast, close to your perfect heart.

I am smiling as he speaks. "As you spoke to me my heart melted and I immediately thought of this poem."

I take his hand and press him down onto the comfy couch snuggling in his lap,my arms wrapped around him like a protective blanket.

" my soul is yours forever if you want it" i whisper into his ear moments before my soft demanding lips find his...