Soliloquium: Reflections on my World.

[Last_Rider]

I am smiling as he speaks. "As you spoke to me my heart melted and I immediately thought of this poem."

I take his hand and press him down onto the comfy couch snuggling in his lap,my arms wrapped around him like a protective blanket.

" my soul is yours forever if you want it" i whisper into his ear moments before my soft demanding lips find his...

I hold her close on the couch, my lips instantly returning her kiss. Soft, so soft it seems impossible. And sweet. She tastes like sunlight would. We kiss for what seems like hours, just the taste and feel of our lips together. She knows I want her soul, that I treasure it and everything she gives me.

My Angel.

My Love.

My everything.

 

[yeishia]

Times like this are rare and I hold them to my heart.

How many times had someone told me they were a friend and then simply proven they were not. How many times had the world love been used by someone who had no knowledge of the meaning of the word...

What we had was so precious to my heart I smiled and snuggled closer, holding on to this moment while I remained ill the real world.

 

[Last_Rider]

Times like this are rare and I hold them to my heart.

How many times had someone told me they were a friend and then simply proven they were not. How many times had the world love been used by someone who had no knowledge of the meaning of the word...

What we had was so precious to my heart I smiled and snuggled closer, holding on to this moment while I remained ill the real world.

My Angel has been ill lately, something I wish I could do more to help with. As it stands I make sure she has all the ginger ale she wants, draw the shades, and climb next to her. I wrap one arm about her frame, holding her close to my body, the other hand stroking her hair gently. I hum softly, only for her, then sing just loud enough for her to hear.

"If I had a box just for wishes, and dreams that had never come true the box would be empty except for the memory of how they were answered by you."

 

[yeishia]

I smile contently happy to be exactly where I am.

Here in his arms away from reality there is no pain, no illness,no worry at all, quietly I sing the first verse for him alone as he has sung it earlier this evening for me, "If I could save time in a bottle the first thing that I'd like to do is save every day, till eternity passes and then I would spend them with you..."

 

[yeishia]

Tis thanksgiving once again and I am lying flat on my back in my small bedroom counting my blessings...

I am missing one of them, he is in the real world with his large family I shall share part of that celebration later, but for now I lie here alone.

I reach out one slender arm to the side feeling his imprint, smiling softly I begin to sing.


We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

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(Chasing Cars-Snow Patrol)​

 

[Ravenloft]

I've shared this elswhere, but felt like adding it here as well, as a way to reflect and give thanks.

Of Monsters and Men - Little Talks

 

[Last_Rider]

I materialize beside my Angel, a few hours before the next phase of real life celebration, and her arm is now around me as I snuggle her close.

"I would. No doubt about it. I would just be with you and let everything else melt away."

I lean over and kiss her lips, soft, sensual, the expression of our joined souls.

"I am most thankful for you my Angel, for you being in my life, for our love. Without it and you I would be lost."

 

[yeishia]

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[yeishia]

I've shared this elswhere, but felt like adding it here as well, as a way to reflect and give thanks.

Of Monsters and Men - Little Talks

Thank you for this...

 

[yeishia]

I materialize beside my Angel, a few hours before the next phase of real life celebration, and her arm is now around me as I snuggle her close.

"I would. No doubt about it. I would just be with you and let everything else melt away."

I lean over and kiss her lips, soft, sensual, the expression of our joined souls.

"I am most thankful for you my Angel, for you being in my life, for our love. Without it and you I would be lost."

He knows that I feel the same way my body language as always speaks volumes.

Crawl inside my heart and stay there with me forever, i smile softly at the unspoken thought...it pleases me greatly.

 

[Ravenloft]

Thought I would share this here as well as my own thread, for those that don't cross over.

This video really affected me today. Just thought I would share, maybe help make the worlds more understanding.

Autistic Girl Expresses Profound Intelligence

 

[yeishia]

Thought I would share this here as well as my own thread, for those that don't cross over.

This video really affected me today. Just thought I would share, maybe help make the worlds more understanding.

Autistic Girl Expresses Profound Intelligence

Thank you for sharing Raven.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

A wolfling comes wandering, in her hand a small, flat box containing a gift. Attached to the box is a plain white envelope. Printed upon it is the word~Yee-She.

Inside the envelope is a small piece of peach colored paper There are few random words scribbled here~the writing heavy, almost masculine.

Dear One~
I saw this mirror and thought of you. Now when you look at yourself...
You can imagine me looking at you, too.
Be well...

Luna.​

The flat package is left on a chair, somewhere that yeishia will see it whenever she chances to come upon her sometime home. A spray of white orchids accent the box top. Once the Wolfling makes sure the gift and flowers are presented to her satisfaction? She retreats.

 

[Last_Rider]

It has been too long since I've been here, I really do need to change that. This is a special place and one that calms me.

The first thing I see is the package addressed to my Angel, I can't help but smile, but I leave it for her to find and open. I move to the curtains, they need a change. The color scheme is wrong now so I begin altering it until I find something that feels right. Soft colors, yellow, blue, pink, then I darken them just a bit. There, that feels better.

It takes a moment for me to get the fireplace going, I grimace at myself, it's been too long since I've done this, but fortunately years of practice means muscle memory kicks in rather quickly. Soon the fire is glowing happily, spreading light and warmth across the room.

Next is some hot chocolate for me as I sink into the comfy cushions of the couch. My Angel has been dealing with several unpleasant things in the real world, so I'm going to make sure her places of rest and relaxation here are ready to receive here when she returns.

 

[Last_Rider]

I return to Soll, breathing in the fresh scents. This place needs some holiday cheer. While neither my Angel nor I are huge fans of snow and winter, it has a place. Mostly outside, but still a place. I walk outside and close my eyes, focusing, focusing, and poof!

Snow is now outside, a thick white blanket on the ground, the trees, and no need to have a nasty snow storm either. With a smile I grab a box and find a large new pine tree outside of one of the large windows.

Eventually, I step back and admire my handiwork.

With that done I head inside, a tree in there is also in need of holiday touch.

With some holiday decorations done I sit down on the couch, I have writing to do.

 

[yeishia]

I had put off visiting Solliquium quite simply I had not wanted to spend Christmas there alone after the stress of my real world these past weeks.

Today however something drew me there against my better judgment, perhaps I would spend a few moments there before I headed out to the beauty and peace of Serendipity to spend christmas with my animal friends. Who knew perhaps the old sailor would find his way to my warm and tranquil island.

I slipped inside Soliquium and stopped my eyes widening at the unexpected sight of the most beautiful tree that I had ever set my eyes upon. Flanked on all sides by the floor to ceiling snow covered french windows it simply took my breath away.

It was exquisite!

Stepping fully inside I glanced around hoping that he was still here I could smell his very essence. The beloved familiarity caused huge unwilling tears to form in eyes that remained sad despite the beauty now surrounding me. "Thank you my love," I whispered into the silence, carefully placing his gifts beneath the tree.

I was alone....

The empty Christmas tree stood mocking me.

I carefully turned off the twinkling lights and picked up the gift that I had spied sitting on my writing desk and carried it through into my small bedroom to unwrap. I sat cross legged on my small bed and carefully removed their wrapping.....

The mirror was sheer perfection and as I gazed into it I did indeed think of Luna the enigmatic woman who I was slowly becoming to know. Closing my eyes I imagined my body changing like quicksilver into another form, one which would allow me to run free with her through her beloved woodlands....

Opening my eyes once more I simply saw myself and smiled softly, "Merry Christmas Yeishia, remember that you are loved and safe here in this reality."

Placing the wonderful gift and card on the night stand I stretched out on top of the covers. the past days had been exhausting I needed the solace of sleep.

I needed nothing more than to follow my beloved into dreamland, if only for a while

Time heals all wounds,,,
J
Empty words...those who wrote them had never truly known loss.

My eyes fluttered closed and finally I slept...

 

[Annisthyrienne]

*I slip into the refuge of my friend, unnoticed, stealthy as an elf...y. Creeping up behind her, I hold the sprig of mistletoe over her head and kiss her softly on her cheek. Temptation is great and I give into it, trailing more kisses down her cheek to her delicate jaw, down to the graceful column of her neck, little open mouthed, suckling kisses. At last my lips find hers, pressing tenderly, parting slightly, leaving us both breathless. As the kiss breaks, my lips curl into a mischievous elfin smile. My violet eyes twinkle merrily as I hand her this coupon.*

Merry Christmas, Yeishia, my friend. You've been tagged, and now you must pass it on. Start an epidemic of kisses.

 

[Last_Rider]

I could feel my Angel, she was here.

I moved from the couch and found her laying on the bed. I sit beside her, not wishing to interfere with her rest. My hand slowly strokes her side, eyes on her slumbering face. She is so beautiful, no matter what she always looks exquisite. She would wake and join me on this Christmas and we could celebrate together.

My body leans over hers, lips touch hers softly, delicately.

"Merry Christmas my Angel, my Love."

 

[yeishia]

*I slip into the refuge of my friend, unnoticed, stealthy as an elf...y. Creeping up behind her, I hold the sprig of mistletoe over her head and kiss her softly on her cheek. Temptation is great and I give into it, trailing more kisses down her cheek to her delicate jaw, down to the graceful column of her neck, little open mouthed, suckling kisses. At last my lips find hers, pressing tenderly, parting slightly, leaving us both breathless. As the kiss breaks, my lips curl into a mischievous elfin smile. My violet eyes twinkle merrily as I hand her this coupon.*

Merry Christmas, Yeishia, my friend. You've been tagged, and now you must pass it on. Start an epidemic of kisses.

Taken by surprise, but recognizing her unique sent I remain still blushing as she offers up her special kisses. My eyes remain closed as I feel myself to responding, mmmmmm seduction in its gentlest of forms...it called to me wrapping around my body like a warm embrace...I can do nothing but respond in totality....

As the kiss breaks my eyes slowly open and fasten on hers, breathless and bemused I smile glancing down at the coupon she has pressed into my fingers. As I read it I giggle she has given me a kiss coupon, probably knowing I would never wander out into the lounges to kiss complete strangers...

"Merry Christmas my friend," I whisper threading a slender hand into her long tresses kissing her back my lips returning to hers with a soft sensual promise.

"I do believe that you are one of the few friends I have left here on Lit ...I treasure you more than you can know."

I stroke her cheek as I speak before placing a final kiss on the corner of her gorgeous mouth.

 

[yeishia]

I could feel my Angel, she was here.

I moved from the couch and found her laying on the bed. I sit beside her, not wishing to interfere with her rest. My hand slowly strokes her side, eyes on her slumbering face. She is so beautiful, no matter what she always looks exquisite. She would wake and join me on this Christmas and we could celebrate together.

My body leans over hers, lips touch hers softly, delicately.

"Merry Christmas my Angel, my Love."

I returned to Sol , passing out kisses to people one hardly knows, is both intimidating and exhausting, but I did have to admit I had had fun. More later for now I needed a small break.

Curling up in fount of the warm fire I thought of Christmas day...

I had felt his warm lips on mine and had turned instinctively into his warmth curling into his arms a soft smile alighting my whole face.

We did indeed spend most of Christmas day together...electing to spend it away from Lit...we needed that time alone ...it was a magical and much needed break something to be cherished, not shared.

My eyes misted over I could still hear his voice, feel his touch, as clearly as if he were beside me know.

Perhaps he would join me here later for hot chocolate and kisses....I had saved the biggest, under the mistletoe, kiss for him...

 

[Last_Rider]

I returned to Sol , passing out kisses to people one hardly knows, is both intimidating and exhausting, but I did have to admit I had had fun. More later for now I needed a small break.

Curling up in fount of the warm fire I thought of Christmas day...

I had felt his warm lips on mine and had turned instinctively into his warmth curling into his arms a soft smile alighting my whole face.

We did indeed spend most of Christmas day together...electing to spend it away from Lit...we needed that time alone ...it was a magical and much needed break something to be cherished, not shared.

My eyes misted over I could still hear his voice, feel his touch, as clearly as if he were beside me know.

Perhaps he would join me here later for hot chocolate and kisses....I had saved the biggest, under the mistletoe, kiss for him...

I slide up behind my Angel and hop over the back of the couch and rest beside her. One arm goes around her shoulders, pulling her closer... closer... there. I dip my head and lean just a bit more towards her, barely touching my lips to hers at first.

She is so soft...

The kiss slowly, every so slowly, deepens. Just lips on lips, then my tongue slides across her lips, inviting her to open up.

 

[yeishia]

Moans gently as I willingly allow him access to all I have to offer......

"welcome home my love," I whisper against him lips as they are devoured alongside my will

 

[Last_Rider]

Moans gently as I willingly allow him access to all I have to offer......

"welcome home my love," I whisper against him lips as they are devoured alongside my will

Her whispered words slide along my lips, up to my ears, then down to my soul. This incredible woman, how easily she can touch the very depths of who I am.

The kiss deepens again, my tongue sliding between her lips and playfully finding hers. Our tongues tugging at each other, my arms pulling her closer, up and into my lap, my hands around her slender frame and holding her close.

This moment, this can last forever.

 

[yeishia]

I slipped quietly beck into my own small space happy to see that the Vassal staff have removed all traces of Christmas and set my small home to rights, transforming it back once again into the sensual stuff of dreams...soft muted...relaxing.

The pale gauzy drapes pulled across the huge French windows still allowed me to see the snowflakes softly falling on my Secret Garden...

I wished it were Spring already.

Moving to the couch I sat down knees pulled up, arms wrapped around them as I Stared into the flickering firelight.

I should make coffee I supposed, yet for the moment I was content simply to be...

 

[yeishia]

Friday Night

I had wandered back into the...

once upon a time refuge of my heart ...

Needing comfort ...

Happily I found a bottle of bubby , a left over gift from Christmas.

Neither myself nor my dark angel drank and so it had remained ...neglected.

Perfect bedfellows it and I this night.

I uncorked the bottle and poured myself a glass.

Slipping a dvd into the console I curled up on the couch .

Feeling the music wash over me, consumed by the evocative images reflecting the turmoil of my mind, relaxed by the unaccustomed alcohol...

Soon I was feeling was, Comfortably Numb..

Absolute perfection on this soulless, bitterly cold, starless night.


Comfortably Numb

ani difranco & dar williams

Hello, is there anybody in there
Just nod if you can hear me
Is there anyone home
Come on, now
I hear you're feeling down
Well, I can ease your pain
Get you on your feet again

Relax. I need some information first
Just the basic facts
Can you show me where it hurts

There is no place, you are receding
A distant ship's smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying

When I was a child, I had a fever
My hands felt just like two balloons
Now I got that feeling once again
I can't explain, you would not understand
This is now how Inam.

Ahh, I have become comfortably numb

Ok, it's just a little pinprick
They'll be no more, ah
But you might feel a little sick
Can you stand up
I do believe it's working, good
That'll keep you going for the show
Come on it's time to go

There is no place you are receding
A distant ship's smoke on the horizon
You are only coming through in waves
Your lips move, but I can't hear what you're saying

When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown the dream is gone

Ahh, I have become comfortably numb...

" I miss you "

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