Soliloquium: Reflections on my World.

[Mav Unlimited]

Cute *grins*

 

[yeishia]

Cute *grins*

I am not coming out...

 

[Mav Unlimited]

I am not coming out...

I am coming in.

 

[yeishia]

I feel him slip carefully in beside me gently pulling my trembling body closer. "Thank you," I whisper closing my eyes relaxing in his strong arms. It had been an exhausting week...

 

[Mav Unlimited]

wraps his arms around her trembling body and cuddles her close with a kiss on the forehead

There's always next week to look forward to...

 

[yeishia]

That there is...

 

[yeishia]

Mine...

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[Mav Unlimited]

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That is captivating...grins

 

[darkangel76]

She told me I was invited to visit at any time... so, quietly, tip-toeing in, I glance about the halls and smile. The ambiance, as always, is so very welcoming. I take a deep breath and slowly exhale. As I approach a small table in the corner, I unclench my one hand and try to leave a note upon it. But, as I do... it magically vanishes into a strange sort of mist. A tiny frown tugs at the corners of my lips as the paper disappears so suddenly. But, I realize that I can leave her another, one right here. I quickly move to a shelf and see the pretty parchment and pen just beckoning for my fingers to touch and use them. Carefully, lovingly, I pick them up and write...

Hi Yeishia,
I just wanted to drop on by and say hello and see how you were doing these past several days. I hope all is well. I've missed the couple of friends who've reached out to me here and you are one of them. Never hesitate to message me back.
Hugs,
DA.


I set the note parchment, now filled with words, down upon the table for my friend to see and find. Smiling, I back away from the table, happy I was able to leave her my note.

 

[yeishia]

I had put off visiting Solliquium quite simply I had not wanted to think of spending Christmas there alone.

Today however something drew me there against my better judgment, perhaps I would spend a few moments there before I headed out to the beauty and peace of Serendipity to spend christmas with my animal friends.

I slipped inside Soliquium and stopped my eyes widening at the unexpected sight of the most beautiful tree that I had ever set my eyes upon. Flanked on all sides by the floor to ceiling snow covered french windows it simply took my breath away.

It was exquisite!

It was the exact same tree I had found here a whole year ago, left my my beloved dark angel.

I stood there stupefied unable to process the whys of how this small miracle had actually occurred.

Stepping fully inside I glanced around hoping that he was still here I could almost smell his essence. The beloved familiarity caused huge unwilling tears to form in eyes that remained sad despite the beauty now surrounding me. "Thank you my love," I whispered into the silence.

I was of course alone....

I stood there before the gorgeous tree my mind traveling unwilling across time. A million fragmented memories beckoned me; beautiful , sensual images filled with a once upon a time special kind of love...the kind fairytales are made of.

He and I had experienced such a fairytale we had been twice blessed,he would reain in my heart forever.

I had been written that Time heals all wounds...

Empty words, those who wrote them had never truly known loss.

I still believed this.

Reluctantly turning from the tree I moved further into the room where I spied the unexpected note from DA. I took it to the couch before the fireplace and began to read. Soon I was smiling at her kindness.

I would reply on the morrow. Today Decorations needed to be put up and baking to be done.

Some times truly wished that the people who dropped by had the time to stay and chat.

My destiny was however to remain alone.

I recently had tried to connect with another and failed miserably.

Was I truly happy? For the most part I do believe I was.

Popping on some festive music I began to dance around the room counting my blessings as I whirled and dusted.



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[yeishia]

I had gone briefly to the Inn to tend to my beloved chores there. As I slipped back into Soll I immediately spied a gift under the tree.

I rarely received gifts amy more.

Excited I rushed over to kneel before the slender velvet box reverently picking it up between shaking fingers.

I turned the slim box over and over. No note no indication at all of whom it was from...

Should I open it or should I wait for Christmas?

Silly girl, silly question.

Reverently I opened it and my eyes widened. It was sheer perfection. It was a Christmas collar.

I had not worn a collar in many months, mostly I wore the gold filagree chain from which hung my initial.

Standing slowly I went to the mirror beside the fireplace upon which Veroe' s note still held pride of place

A potent and often needed reminder.


Carefully I placed the gift around my slender neck, as I did so my eyes fluttered closed my fingertips becoming His...

All the anxieties of the past months slipped away and my breathing slowed.

This is the woman I truly was...

"Thank you, " I whisper smiling softly.


I was indeed loved.

I would survive yet another holiday season.

Survive and flourish.

~ I am not a beautiful woman but in my submission, I am breathtaking. ~

~ When I trust of you I become an erotic goddess, a bringer of sensual poetry, a stealer of beautiful souls.



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[yeishia]

A small reminder to myself...

 

[yeishia]

Always...

"I'll Be There"

Mariah Carey

You and I must make a pact
We must bring salvation back
Where there is love
I'll be there

I'll reach out my hand to you
I'll have faith in all you do
Just call my name
And I'll be there


I'll be there to comfort you
I'll build my world of dreams around you
I'm so glad I found you
I'll be there with a love so strong
I'll be your strength
You know I'll keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness well it's all I'm after
Just call my name
And I'll be there

I'll be there to protect you
With an unselfish love that respects you
Just call my name
And I'll be there

If you should ever find someone new
I know she better be good to you
'Cause if she doesn't
Then I'll be there

Don't you know baby
I'll be there
I'll be there
Just call my name
And I'll be there

I'll be there baby
You know I'll be there
Just call my name
And I'll be there

Just look over your shoulder
Just call my name
And I'll be there


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[yeishia]

This with a special someone....

This always.

( minus the perfume of course)

 

[TampaNaughtyNurse]

Good Bye

 

[yeishia]

I return to Solliquium via the catacombs the present given to me by Amc carefully tucked under one arm. Forgoing coffee for the moment a I sit down excitedly before my own tree.

The box is wrapped in Green. I smile softly wondering what it could possibly contain. pulling off the christmasy wrapper I find that it is a rather large box, plain and brown and wonder for a moment if it might be something naughty. Grinning I open it to find a large panda to add to my growing collection.

He is beautiful he is even wearing a Santa hat. I giggle he is perfect.

Pulling the large panda out I find it also is a back pack and has removable straps on the back so i can take them off and cuddle it in bed or take it with me wherever ai got.

Hugging it to me I smile sending a silent thank you to Amc.

I know that I am crying overwhelmed and happy that someone has thought to send me such a thoughtful christmas gift.

My eyes widen a soft padded zipper runs up and down it's back and inside to my delight I find even more unexpected gifts.

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There is a note attached. Two Christmas outfits one to wear around the Inn, and one to Wear for that someone special I want to enjoy your Christmas with this year. Also some fun panties, with mistletoe on the front, also for that special someone.

The note also reads...

"Marry Christmas Yeishia! I hope you like the gifts and that your special someone enjoys the naughty gifts as well! May your holiday be filled with people who love you and the warm fuzzy feelings that go with them!

Your friend Amc.

My eyes sadden, for this year there is no special someone in this realm, well there are many but none that I....

I quickly banish the thought and try on the items he has choose, modeling them for an unseen someone as if I were on a Victoria Secret runway, giggling as I turned this way and that before the full length mirror.

Keeping the very last outfit on complete with the mistletoe panties discretely hidden under it I stuff all of my own presents that i had previously packed into huge sack and head off to the china pearl . No point in leaving them under my tree and no one ever came to Soll anymore ...

I would deliver them all in person.....

 

[yeishia]

I slipped back into Soll and stood in front of the empty tree.

Only the present I had given myself stood waiting...a magical rose. How had the woman put it in the China Pearl? I shrugged away the thought knowing that her mean-spiritedness probably stemmed from some pain unknown to me...

Christmas had come and gone tomorrow the vassal staff would come and remove all evidence that it has existed at all.

I felt bad no one had come to visit not even me...

I had been putting my affairs in order both in this realm and in my real world. I couldn't shake the urgency, the need had been like a malignancy...

I hated snow maybe I would take my Champagne into my love song thread as I usually at this time of year. Crying, laughing, remembering and getting tipsy before I headed off to the warmth of Serendipity...

Maybe I would open my gift and press my finger onto the wicked torn and make my wish.

Maybe he would join me there, maybe I would be transported somewhere new.

Maybe I would simply loose myself in dreamland...

 

[yeishia]

I had just finished making my first green smoothie of the new year. Standing before my mirror I raised my glass to toast my reflection.


" To me....

May your very best of 2013 be your very worst of 2014

May those you hold in your heart be happy and safe in the new year to come.

May we all find peace within us.

To the sunshine, may we always walk towards it! "

Smiling softly I took a sip...it was delicious.
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[Veroe]

Hope you have a wonderful 2014, Yeishia.

Sorry about the gif in LPR. That was me posting it in the wrong browser window. My bad. Unfortunately it deleted my post when it did that. Fortunately I had 2/3 of it in Microsoft word so all I need to do is rewrite the ending I was working on today.

sorry again.

 

[yeishia]

Hope you have a wonderful 2014, Yeishia.

Sorry about the gif in LPR. That was me posting it in the wrong browser window. My bad. Unfortunately it deleted my post when it did that. Fortunately I had 2/3 of it in Microsoft word so all I need to do is rewrite the ending I was working on today.

sorry again.

I hope yours is wonderful too Veroe. Filled with love and hope.

About LPR not sure what you are talking about, I hadn't realized that you had even posted.

Unless you tell me for some reason Lit refused to send me notifications.

* runs to look * ​

EDIT: * giggles* I see what you mean.

 

[Veroe]

I hope yours is wonderful too Veroe. Filled with love and hope.

About LPR not sure what you are talking about, I hadn't realized that you had even posted.

Unless you tell me for some reason Lit refused to send me notifications.

* runs to look * ​

EDIT: * giggles* I see what you mean.

Almost through with it. RL is trying to distract me with supper right now though.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

Life has kept me from this realm of make believe, of pretense, but certain fair few cause me to stop through, every now and again. And yet...yet, one of those is found here...yee-she. Pretty girl.

I had stumbled past my Old Den and found her gift...and I wanted to return the favor. But how? No idea...and so I stepped lightly, wandering along sea shore and through dark woods until I found...

Sol~one of her many heart homes.

SO, with a simple white rose in hand, I move toward the door. Boi, brown skinned, curved, short hair, full lips, a dimple. I knock..and enter, placing the rose where it will be easily found and adding a card...

Then gone again, leaving only the scents of sandalwood and vanilla, behind.

 

[ArcticAvenue]

.... oops, posted to the wrong thread ...
.. pay no attention to the bear in this post ..​

 

[yeishia]

Life has kept me from this realm of make believe, of pretense, but certain fair few cause me to stop through, every now and again. And yet...yet, one of those is found here...yee-she. Pretty girl.

I had stumbled past my Old Den and found her gift...and I wanted to return the favor. But how? No idea...and so I stepped lightly, wandering along sea shore and through dark woods until I found...

Sol~one of her many heart homes.

SO, with a simple white rose in hand, I move toward the door. Boi, brown skinned, curved, short hair, full lips, a dimple. I knock..and enter, placing the rose where it will be easily found and adding a card...

Then gone again, leaving only the scents of sandalwood and vanilla, behind.

I slip softly into Soll and immediately spy the Exquisite white rose.

Picking it up I read the attached note and smile softly as I place it in a slender crystal vase.

Many had moved on without saying goodbye it was the way of Lit.

"Thank you," I whispered quietly.

Slipping off my clothing as I move into my small bedroom, nude I climb under the soft duvet and snuggle into a small ball.

So far 2104 had been full of lovely surprises...

 

[yeishia]

This is the only place the darkness doesn't swallow me whole at times.