Soliloquium: Reflections on my World.

[yeishia]

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A soft smile to see the beautiful Yeishia enter the room. She is so shy, but somehow it is endearing in her. He accepts her kiss and smiles. His hand coming up to grasp hers lifting it to his lips briefly. "Some tea I think would be nice." he answers after she asks of what he would wish to drink. "I am sure you know but you can call me Glad, most do." he says softly. A sudden grin, "I take it Thyri has spoken of me? Be careful she's ornery, don't believe the bad stuff." he says with a playful wink.

He reminds me of a time gone by I am enchanted by his simple gallantry delighted by the small kiss on my hand.

"Tea? it would be my pleasure to prepare some for you."

I rise up off the couch giggling at his next comments unable to imagine this denizen of light being bad at all. " So far her comments have all been very good ones," I lower my voice teasing " Perhaps you could enlighten me as to the bad?" I blush again surprised that I have asked him such a personal question.

A little overwhelmed I concentrate on preparing our tea while I listen to his melodic voice, eventually returning to place the tray laden with the accoutrements necessary for our tea.

My hands trembling slightly I pour two cups. Returning my gaze to his I smile softly, "how to you take yours...Glad?" I gesture to a small china plate. " I have home made scones with cream and strawberry jam if you should like one?"

 

[The_gladiator]

He smiles and accepts the cup. He chuckles at her words, "Mmm, the bad in that sense... I guess you will just have to hang around me and learn of them." he says with a small smile. "But In that way... I can be quite ahem bad." he tries to keep a straight face but can't hold it.

He takes a small sip of the tea, his honest face again warming with the flavor. "Thank you, I do not often drink tea myself, but I do much prefer it to coffee." he makes a type of yuck face at the thought. "however I do love the scent of coffee. I have often thought of making coffee merely for the smell." he says, "Silly as that sounds."

"I have seen you slip into the inn, but I never got a chance to meet you. But I was always intrigued by your shyness, it lends you an air of gentleness, and mystery even." he says, "That often makes one like want to know more." he says.

His smile is warm, reassuring as he watches her.

 

[yeishia]

Tucking up my legs under me as he replies I take his words at face value tilting my head to one side as I try to decide if he is teasing.

I take a small sip of my black teas just enough to be polite, “I do not drink either in the real world. I do agree though freshly brewed coffee does smells devine. I think that is why I started slipping into the inn in the early mornings reminds me of when I used to drink coffee a sort of comforting old habit if that makes any sense at all?”

I smile softly as he tells me of his impressions of me… shy yes, gentle mostly but mysterious I hardly think so I stifle down a small giggle at the thought the merriment still in my azure eyes as I raise them to meet his full on. “Thank you for saying that but I do think that you are in the minority. I used to frequent the lounges when I first came here, but then I was made to Irealized I did not ..well really fit in most of them. I tried for a while... to fit in but finally I came too realize that I liked who I was just fine.

I did not want to be pushed from Lit, I do so love it here when I need to escape from the confines of my real world and so I fashioned out my own small spaces, where I could be truly myself, where I felt safe and secure. The Inn used to be a second home to me once upon a time and I still like to slip inside when it is not too busy. Do you have an area of your very own? ”

Thinking I may have said to much my voice trails off and my eyes drop to my slender hands which I have clasped tightly in my lap. Why am I rambling on to a complete stranger I think fretting a little, I am not the most trusting of souls as a rule.

 

[Last_Rider]

I slip in, noticing the pictures that my Angel has conjured thinking of me. I get behind her and press a soft kiss to the side of her neck

Trust me, that more than goes both ways my Sensual Angel.

Seeing her guest I smile and wave

Pleasure to meet you, I'm Rider.

 

[yeishia]

I lean back into my Dark Angel's kiss my eyes fluttering closed before guiding him down beside me on the couch, "I have guest my love please meet The Galdiator, he is a l close friend of Thyri's " I return his kiss dimpling with pleasure.

"Glad this is the other half of me...my Rider."

I wrap my arm around his waist snuggling closer my now serious eyes on Gald.

 

[The_gladiator]

He smiles, "I had a home with another for a time. I am still welcome there or so I'm told, however I have long considered starting my own home here on lit. I have considered starting an elven sanctuary, something like a tree house or town. something in the comfort of the trees." he said softly.

Seeing Rider enter he smiles and nods, "A pleasure to meet you sir, I have seen you around but I don't think we have ever crossed paths."

 

[yeishia]

He smiles, "I had a home with another for a time. I am still welcome there or so I'm told, however I have long considered starting my own home here on lit. I have considered starting an elven sanctuary, something like a tree house or town. something in the comfort of the trees." he said softly.

Seeing Rider enter he smiles and nods, "A pleasure to meet you sir, I have seen you around but I don't think we have ever crossed paths."

I notice the sad look that briefly clouds his eyes as he speaks, I recognize it well.

"Please forgive me I am a little out of the Lit loop, I rarely follow most of the lounge threads anymore, one or two if a friends name catches my eye perhaps.

An Elven Sanctuary sounds beautiful,

in a tree house...

perfection"

I clap my hands excitedly at the thought of such a wondrous place thinking it belongs in my Secret garden knowing I shall never tell him that.

"I shall be retiring back into the real world for supper it had been truly a blessing to meet you. Glad please stay here as long as you like I shall return later on if I can. There is a guest bedroom which remains unused should you need a place to stay"

I gave a hug to my dark angel and a soft smile to my most welcome guest and fade back into the real world.

 

[The_gladiator]

He Smiles. "No worries, as I have saidwe have not really crossed paths. I have longed to start it but have not had the inclination. Thyri and I once discussed starting a place, but It was never finalized. We will see. It was indeed a pleasure to meet you. I will stay around, so as we can continue our discussion later if you would like." he says softly smiling.

 

[chris2c4u]

Hi,

Hope you're able to carry on the thread.

 

[yeishia]

I slip in, noticing the pictures that my Angel has conjured thinking of me. I get behind her and press a soft kiss to the side of her neck

Trust me, that more than goes both ways my Sensual Angel.

Seeing her guest I smile and wave

Pleasure to meet you, I'm Rider.

" I am so glad you liked the pictures my dark angel"

He Smiles. "No worries, as I have said we have not really crossed paths. I have longed to start it but have not had the inclination. Thyri and I once discussed starting a place, but It was never finalized. We will see. It was indeed a pleasure to meet you. I will stay around, so as we can continue our discussion later if you would like." he says softly smiling.

"I am sorry I was unable to make it back yesterday. I would love to talk more it is not often I have visitors in Soliquium it is not a popular spot even amongst those who know me.I fear that I am boring *giggles*

I would welcome the conversation.

Hi,

Hope you're able to carry on the thread.

"Welcome to my place I am thrilled that you dropped by. Wonders which thread you are referring too? If you mean this one Chris of course I plan on writing here whenever I can.. I am sorry I missed you please do come back and visit when you have time.".

 

[yeishia]

By the time I arrive back in Soliloquium tears are streaming down my face, dropping my writing accoutrements on to my desk I stand in front of mirror and study my reflection

"I am beautiful and I am loved." I tell my reflection without conviction. If I am indeed beautiful then why...

People think it makes it easy to simply do...it does not...it does not!

Shaking my head I move to my comfy couch and curl up into a small ball of misery wishing I could turn back the clock I would have gone to the stupid class...I would have forced myself to do so.

The fact that I was missing my dark Angel was not helping me this day nor was the fact that I had lost a thread that I had loved.

 

[Last_Rider]

I can sense her distress and kick myself for allowing issues yesterday to have kept me from being here for her. I slip into sol, my Sensual Angel curled on a comfy couch. I'm beside her, then around her, my arms holding her close. I whisper softly into her ear.

"You are beautiful and you are loved."

A soft mantra, spoken over and over again.

 

[Veroe]

I enter Sol happy to see Rider, already there. I nod to him as I cross to the mirror. I place a sticker onto the glass.

I cross back to the sofa, allowing Rider to maintain his embrace of her. The two of them are close, symbiotic even, but Yeishia is a good friend of mine and I want to be here for her.

 

[Last_Rider]

I nod at Veroe, always happy to see him.

 

[Veroe]

I return the nod, not saying a word. It'd be taking the focus off the person who needs it the most.

My hand gently rests upon Yeishia's shoulder. Allowing him to continue his mantra unabated.

 

[Annisthyrienne]

*Slipping in quietly, my healer's empathy sensing emotional pain in my friend, I sit next to Veroe, nodding a greeting to Rider, and reach out a hand to touch Yieshia, closing my eyes in slight concentration, feeding positive energy to her to soothe the anxiety.*

We do think you're beautiful Yeishia, inside and out. All of your friends care about you, and love you, and not just when you are outgoing and bold, but all the time.

 

[Veroe]

My free arm wraps around Thyri making something of a wheel of love with Yeishia in the center.

Which is not entirely a bad metaphor come to think of it. After all where would the three of us be without Yeishia and the influence knowing her has had on our lives here on Lit and perhaps even the world beyond.

While I had met Rider through another it was through Yeishia's thread and the dedication she has put in it that we became more than pleasant acquaintances, and I would probably have not met Thyri at all if Yeishia had not befriended her first. Funny how many connections one person can forge even with something as ephemeral as over the internet.

 

[yeishia]

I am overwhelmed by the love I feel surrounding me, although at first I am bewildered and cry all the more small silent sobs intensifying, my grief an almost palatable thing. I am sobbing as if my heart would simply break.

My mind and body both recognize those surrounding me, from my beloved an affirmation, “You are beautiful and you are loved." A trusted friend’s warm and comforting hand on my shoulder Veroe, and lastly a wave of blessed calm washing over me like a a summers breeze, Thyri is here also. I take comfort from all three as the storm subsides finally becoming a blessed lull.

Pressing closer to my dark angel's arms I manage to whisper.

” I believe I am having a subbie melt down, forgive me please I …I am … I ...”

My voice trails off I am unable to express either my pain nor my gratitude for their support this night. I am crying over what they may see as simply nothing and yet at this moment it almost seems too much.

 

[Last_Rider]

I smile, not sure why, but I love the woman cradled in my arms.

"No need for apologies my love. We all have meltdowns at times. The important thing is you have those who care deeply for you to help you through it."

Now my hands slowly rub her arms, shoulders, and back as she allows the storm of emotions to pass.

 

[Annisthyrienne]

I am overwhelmed by the love I feel surrounding me, although at first I am bewildered and cry all the more small silent sobs intensifying, my grief an almost palatable thing. I am sobbing as if my heart would simply break.

My mind and body both recognize those surrounding me, from my beloved an affirmation, “You are beautiful and you are loved." A trusted friend’s warm and comforting hand on my shoulder Veroe, and lastly a wave of blessed calm washing over me like a a summers breeze, Thyri is here also. I take comfort from all three as the storm subsides finally becoming a blessed lull.

Pressing closer to my dark angel's arms I manage to whisper.

” I believe I am having a subbie melt down, forgive me please I …I am … I ...”

My voice trails off I am unable to express either my pain nor my gratitude for their support this night. I am crying over what they may see as simply nothing and yet at this moment it almost seems too much.

I smile, not sure why, but I love the woman cradled in my arms.

"No need for apologies my love. We all have meltdowns at times. The important thing is you have those who care deeply for you to help you through it."

Now my hands slowly rub her arms, shoulders, and back as she allows the storm of emotions to pass.

* I smile, despite her renewed tears, for I know she is in good hands. And I know she understands the support we offer her. She knows she's not alone, and not rejected, even when she feels that way. Rider will soothe her, understands her, perhaps in ways the rest of us cannot. Uncertain whether to remain for support, or slip out quietly to let them be alone, I stay....for the moment.

 

[yeishia]

His words are like balm to my senses and I begin to relax melting intro his loving hands as they calm my exhausted body. He cares deeply I am loved and that is all that matters. With his strength to guide me hopefully I will take the small steps I would prefer not to have to take in the real world, steps I balk at even her in the realm of Lit...

I turn my head finally and smile softly through the sparking tears still clinging to my long eye lashes. "Thank you all." I reach out my hand and place it over Thyri's

EDIT: I feel I must pop this here in dedication to all three of you.

Quotes of the Day!

~ A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are. ~
unknown.


~ A friend is the one who comes in when the whole world has gone out ~
Grace Pulpit

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[Annisthyrienne]

His words are like balm to my senses and I begin to relax melting intro his loving hands as they calm my exhausted body. He cares deeply I am loved and that is all that matters. With his strength to guide me hopefully I will take the small steps I would prefer not to have to take in the real world, steps I balk at even her in the realm of Lit...

I turn my head finally and smile softly through the sparking tears still clinging to my long eye lashes. "Thank you all." I reach out my hand and place it over Thyri's

EDIT: I feel I must pop this here in dedication to all three of you.

Quotes of the Day!

~ A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are. ~
unknown.


~ A friend is the one who comes in when the whole world has gone out ~
Grace Pulpit

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*Feeling her touch, I know the feelings that the gesture communicates. She doesn't need to say it in words. I consider offering her a handkerchief to wipe her tears on, but blush heatedly instead when I remember my nudity. I'd gotten used to the condition. I guess one of the gentlemen's shoulders will have to suffice.*

 

[yeishia]

I must have fallen asleep in my angel’s arms. I awake with such a sense of calm in the protection of my sweet lover’s arms. Gently I sit up and simply watch him sleep, how I got so lucky?

One door closes and another is opened. I am blessed indeed.

A song comes to mind and I hum it gently as I snuggle back down in his arms loath to leave my sanctuary just yet.

( I took a small liberty with the words forgive me Sarah)

In The Arms of MY Angel

Sarah Mclachlan

Spend all my time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it ok
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of my Angel I’ll fly away from here
From my dark, cold insecurities, and the endlessness that I fear
I am pulled from the wreckage of my silent reverie
I’m in the arms of my Dark Angel; I have found some comfort here
So tired of the straight line, and everywhere I turn
There are vultures and thieves at my back
The storm keeps on twisting; I keep on building the lies
Trying to make up for all that I lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees

In the arms of my Angel far away from here
From my dark, cold insecurities, and the endlessness that I fear
I am pulled from the wreckage of my silent reverie
In the arms of my dark Angel; I have found my comfort here

I am in the arms of My Angel; I have found some comfort here


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[yeishia]

I wander back into my private world content to simply sit and think...

Today is my anniversary another year cancer free, I simply do not count the few near brushes with death I may have had on and off.

I had courted them deliberately when my state of mind had me neglecting to nourish my body and soul.

This past year the fates had been kind to me...

My thoughts naturally turned to my dark angel and the few true friends I had come to cherish.



I was lucky indeed.​

 

[Last_Rider]

I slip into Sol, bearing several light peach colored roses I had found on her doorstep, and added a single dark red one to the middle. I set them on the table in front of her before joining her on the couch.

"Happy anniversary my sweet Angel."