Im not really sure what went wrong, last I checked our friendship was going well, you seemed to be opening up a bit more and then nothing. You know I always enjoyed our time spent together over the past few years and I know you did too, if real life is getting a little crazy, please know I always respect that. My "door" will always be open to YOU if you need me. You know you can always talk to me about anything, okay?
Knowing you feel it is tainted makes me sulk in sadness. Overthinking about what might be on your mind scares me. Fearing I'd be hurt again sends me goosebumps and a burning sensation in my chest. But what can I do?
Like a pessimist you are, I have to consider the worst that is to happen: you leaving me.
They are so bad that they make me look good and in that sense they are good. But not so good that they make me look bad due to which I think of them as being bad. But they are quite bad. I am caught in a self contradiction.
Fuck my brain.
Do you get pleasure out of treating a woman like crap, just because they are behind a screen, or do you do that to women in real life too. Especially ones that were just looking for a friend when they really needed one.