The "Fuck you cancer!" thread

[scotluvsoral]

My heart is broken. A friend in my rare cancer group died last night. There are no words. More than anything I'm angry because all of us in this group have been told this is a "good cancer to get." Yeah, well fuck you, you bastard doctors.

I am sincerely sorry for your loss. It's funny how doctors define good and bad differently than we do. And how they see suffering so clinically. It is is not clinical to us and our losses are real and very personal!! Again, my sympathy on your loss! FYC!!!!

 

[scotluvsoral]

The more I check in on this thread and the more I read, I realize how extensively cancer affects everyone. It really is the most "no boundaries" disease process I can think of. It doesn't care about sex, race, age, etc., if it's there, it will show its ugliness.

So to everyone who is fighting it directly, indirectly or assisting others to do their best, more power to you. Stay strong, fight hard, give hugs and kisses, send thoughts and prayers. Do whatever you have to do to win your battle or support your loved one(s). Most importantly, say, "I love you" to those around you as much as possible.

Hugs to all.

FYC!

Well said!! FYC!!

 

[LadyVer]

Thank you for the comments. Wishing everyone a great weekend!

 

[GoAztecs]

My heart is broken. A friend in my rare cancer group died last night. There are no words. More than anything I'm angry because all of us in this group have been told this is a "good cancer to get." Yeah, well fuck you, you bastard doctors.

Thoughts are with you

 

[Curious_in_Cali]

Leaves a lovingly baked warm and heavenly smelling tray of FYC cookies for all.

 

[GoAztecs]

Leaves a lovingly baked warm and heavenly smelling tray of FYC cookies for all.

Very sweet

 

[scotluvsoral]

Just need to vent! It is soooooo personal to me, anytime a friend or relative or even a casual friend loses a step with cancer! Since my own battle, it never is clinical or unimportant to me anymore! I get mad and want to find some personification of cancer and do battle. I'm crazy, I know *LOL* But that's how it is now. My SIL went into the hospital this morning. She is on constant morphine and it just pisses me off! She is a sweet lady and obviously, (like ALL of us) does not deserve this. I, like so many of us, am sick of losing friends and family to cancer. I hate YOU.. soul sucking, cell sucker of a disease and I want to end YOUR FUCKING EXISTENCE...FOREVER! FUCK YOU CANCER!!!!!!

 

[midwestyankee]

I just signed up with Imerman Angels as a volunteer mentor. This group provides 1 to 1 support for anyone who has been hit by cancer. When someone whose cancer story closely matches mine (primarily matching gender and cancer type/staging) asks for a mentor through their website or by phone call, they may ask me to connect with that person and support them with phone chats, emails, even coffee in person if we're located closely. I'm looking forward to being able to give back a little.

 

[GoAztecs]

I just signed up with Imerman Angels as a volunteer mentor. This group provides 1 to 1 support for anyone who has been hit by cancer. When someone whose cancer story closely matches mine (primarily matching gender and cancer type/staging) asks for a mentor through their website or by phone call, they may ask me to connect with that person and support them with phone chats, emails, even coffee in person if we're located closely. I'm looking forward to being able to give back a little.

Sounds like a great program

 

[midwestyankee]

Sounds like a great program

It is. They're based in Chicago but have contacts in all 50 states and several other nations as well.

 

[GoAztecs]

It is. They're based in Chicago but have contacts in all 50 states and several other nations as well.

Wish I knew about it at the start of my process

 

[midwestyankee]

Wish I knew about it at the start of my process

I do too. There's no reason not to see if you could connect with someone now if you'd like.

 

[GoAztecs]

I do too. There's no reason not to see if you could connect with someone now if you'd like.

Maybe, will have to consider that

 

[scotluvsoral]

I just signed up with Imerman Angels as a volunteer mentor. This group provides 1 to 1 support for anyone who has been hit by cancer. When someone whose cancer story closely matches mine (primarily matching gender and cancer type/staging) asks for a mentor through their website or by phone call, they may ask me to connect with that person and support them with phone chats, emails, even coffee in person if we're located closely. I'm looking forward to being able to give back a little.

What a great idea!

 

[Apple_of_Eden]

Just need to vent! It is soooooo personal to me, anytime a friend or relative or even a casual friend loses a step with cancer! Since my own battle, it never is clinical or unimportant to me anymore! I get mad and want to find some personification of cancer and do battle. I'm crazy, I know *LOL* But that's how it is now. My SIL went into the hospital this morning. She is on constant morphine and it just pisses me off! She is a sweet lady and obviously, (like ALL of us) does not deserve this. I, like so many of us, am sick of losing friends and family to cancer. I hate YOU.. soul sucking, cell sucker of a disease and I want to end YOUR FUCKING EXISTENCE...FOREVER! FUCK YOU CANCER!!!!!!

I second you thoughts scotluvsoral...as I write this, I've just spent two days in MSKCC waiting rooms with my brother in scan after scan. Almost ten hours of tests and waiting on Monday, followed by four hours of scans on Tuesday. Today, we sit in the hotel room because he's too tired to do anything and the radioisotopes for one scan make him feel like his tumors are larger. He feels pressure from the uptake. Between that and the contrast medium he had to drink, he simply feels "sick" today.

Now, we wait for tomorrow's appointment to meet with his onco. specialist and find out the results. Physical pain/discomfort and a lot of mental stress. So, I COMPLETELY agree with every word you said.

Hugs to you and your SIL. Hugs all around to those in need or want.

FYC!!!!! and every cell you plant yourself in or grow~!!!!

 

[Apple_of_Eden]

I just signed up with Imerman Angels as a volunteer mentor. This group provides 1 to 1 support for anyone who has been hit by cancer. When someone whose cancer story closely matches mine (primarily matching gender and cancer type/staging) asks for a mentor through their website or by phone call, they may ask me to connect with that person and support them with phone chats, emails, even coffee in person if we're located closely. I'm looking forward to being able to give back a little.

You are a very kind and giving person. You reach out to everyone here and always have supportive words, sage advice, and kind thoughts to share. Your experience, wisdom, and general information is of great support here and I'm sure will be of greater support when you are able to relate one on one with someone who is experiencing similar situations to what you have/had to live through. You will make an excellent mentor.

Thank you for being you~! Thank you for reaching out to all of us.

 

[midwestyankee]

@Apple of Eden, thank you for the very kind words.

 

[Apple_of_Eden]

@Apple of Eden, thank you for the very kind words.

Most welcome and much deserved. Thank you for being you~!

 

[scotluvsoral]

I second you thoughts scotluvsoral...as I write this, I've just spent two days in MSKCC waiting rooms with my brother in scan after scan. Almost ten hours of tests and waiting on Monday, followed by four hours of scans on Tuesday. Today, we sit in the hotel room because he's too tired to do anything and the radioisotopes for one scan make him feel like his tumors are larger. He feels pressure from the uptake. Between that and the contrast medium he had to drink, he simply feels "sick" today.

Now, we wait for tomorrow's appointment to meet with his onco. specialist and find out the results. Physical pain/discomfort and a lot of mental stress. So, I COMPLETELY agree with every word you said.

Hugs to you and your SIL. Hugs all around to those in need or want.

FYC!!!!! and every cell you plant yourself in or grow~!!!!

My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your brother! Big old bear hugs to you both!!1 FYC!

 

[Keroin]

Thought I'd drop this here before I head off to spend some time with my sister again. Hopefully not our last time together but it's hard to say.

Anyway, it's some short thoughts on the limbo cancer puts us in.

http://the-coconut-chronicles.com/2015/06/05/normal/

 

[GoAztecs]

Thought I'd drop this here before I head off to spend some time with my sister again. Hopefully not our last time together but it's hard to say.

Anyway, it's some short thoughts on the limbo cancer puts us in.

http://the-coconut-chronicles.com/2015/06/05/normal/

Thoughts are with you

 

[scotluvsoral]

Thought I'd drop this here before I head off to spend some time with my sister again. Hopefully not our last time together but it's hard to say.

Anyway, it's some short thoughts on the limbo cancer puts us in.

http://the-coconut-chronicles.com/2015/06/05/normal/

Wonderfully written. Thanks for sharing that!

 

[scotluvsoral]

My SIL lost her battle with brain cancer last night. Or maybe not...she is no longer in pain, she left this world knowing she was loved, she saw all her children before her passing, she finished her battle with cancer on her own terms (to the best of her ability). And as her sweetie my BIL said, she left to go with God. Maybe, just maybe, that is not a battle lost so much as surrendering her body to save her grace, her laugh, her soul! In any event, I will miss her and mourn her passing. Cancer still, mostly, pisses me off! Makes me a little crazy I guess, to see cancer as such a real villain. I wish all of you continued strength and peace as we deal with the soul sucker! FUCK YOU CANCER!!!

 

[DeepGreenEyes]

I'm so sorry, SLO. Truly. Her being at peace doesn't make it so for those left behind.

Thought I'd drop this here before I head off to spend some time with my sister again. Hopefully not our last time together but it's hard to say.

Anyway, it's some short thoughts on the limbo cancer puts us in.

http://the-coconut-chronicles.com/2015/06/05/normal/

I hope not too, K. It's weird when you start thinking in terms of, "okay, this may be the last time I see her in street clothes. Or, "this could be the last time she's able to truly understand me."

I chose yesterday to give my mom a long letter thanking her for ways big and small that she's helped make me who I am. I just started writing and came up with tiny things, like a memory of her cleaning me up as a crying 3-year old, after a mud fight, to big things such as thanking her for conveying to me an openness to unusual ideas.

It was incredibly uncomfortable to give her, because not only was it tremendously personal, it was as close as you can come to saying, "you could be dead in three days, so, um, here."


FYC.

 

[redslady]

I chose yesterday to give my mom a long letter thanking her for ways big and small that she's helped make me who I am. I just started writing and came up with tiny things, like a memory of her cleaning me up as a crying 3-year old, after a mud fight, to big things such as thanking her for conveying to me an openness to unusual ideas.

It was incredibly uncomfortable to give her, because not only was it tremendously personal, it was as close as you can come to saying, "you could be dead in three days, so, um, here."


FYC.