The Isolated Blurt BDSM Thread

[catalina_francisco]

We have been together as M/s for 10 years...and married for almost 10 years....only 3 more months!!

Catalina

 

[BiBunny]

Taking a new tack as far as my phone biz goes. Tired of the same old promo shit. Now I just have to decide if I want to create another persona as the "owner" of this thing, or if I just want to do it as me...minus face pics.

 

[Cattypuss]

I am: 56% "whahey, freedom and a new life at last!"; 25% "OMG OMG OMG I'm going to die of poverty"; 4% "OMG what if the boyf and I hate living together?"; and 15% "WTF? 3 months of ridiculous stress and very long hours ahead of me even AFTER resigning?".

I'll focus on the 56%.

 

[cfuhrer]

I am: 56% "whahey, freedom and a new life at last!"; 25% "OMG OMG OMG I'm going to die of poverty"; 4% "OMG what if the boyf and I hate living together?"; and 15% "WTF? 3 months of ridiculous stress and very long hours ahead of me even AFTER resigning?".

I'll focus on the 56%.

I know exactly how you feel. I tendered one months notice and for even that short period of time it was hard to make sure I was there on time, stayed as late as I needed to, and still give projects my usual 100% effort.

But- I just reminded myself that while I was mentally out the door my reputation was still on the line.

 

[the captians wench]

I am: 56% "whahey, freedom and a new life at last!"; 25% "OMG OMG OMG I'm going to die of poverty"; 4% "OMG what if the boyf and I hate living together?"; and 15% "WTF? 3 months of ridiculous stress and very long hours ahead of me even AFTER resigning?".

I'll focus on the 56%.

I wish I could just jump in and do it, but my "OMG OMG OMG I'm going to die of poverty" is just too high right now. So I'm going to try to juggle all of mine.

So far the new store seems a lot less stressful, of course I haven't been assigned a "department" yet, and I may end up running one still as two of the managers prepare for sabatical. But I've made my mind up, and if it's too much, I'll take that other position out of the store. Hell, if I can keep my costume sales steady I'll take it anyway.

 

[DeepGreenEyes]

Hopeful to remember: We're all going to die of poverty, while corporations and influential one percenters reshape society for their convenience. So go with it, and have fun.

Make you feel better?

 

[IrisAlthea]

Hopeful to remember: We're all going to die of poverty, while corporations and influential one percenters reshape society for their convenience. So go with it, and have fun.

Make you feel better?

Freedom really is another word for nothing left to lose.

 

[Sir_Winston54]

<Sigh> I really *am* cranky the last couple of weeks. Much of it is to do with just being tired of hurting, and pain meds that do little besides dull things for a few hours, if that. Getting older, seemingly by the day, doesn't help, either. I'm even tired of being cranky.

If I've offended anyone (besides maybe a couple who damn well deserved offending! LOL!) (Most of y'all know which insulting/castigating posts were my norm), I apologize.

 

[the captians wench]

Hopeful to remember: We're all going to die of poverty, while corporations and influential one percenters reshape society for their convenience. So go with it, and have fun.

Make you feel better?

I grew up with my mom bringing in most of our income, my step dad on SS, and there were four of us living off of less than 30k a year. We had no extra, we never went with out mind you, but there was no such thing as a splurge.

My married life was much the same life style, and then when we separated and I had to decide between paying the electric bill or eating that month. Then I got the promotion to the position I'm in now.

Now I have extra. I can spend $100 to make sure my grandma has her summer garden, and buy lunch for my mom just because, and eat out because I don't feel like cooking, or buy a plane ticket with out worry. I like that feeling of not having to worry about having enough. So it is a very scary thing to think about being in a position where I do have to worry again. The posibility of this causes me to loose sleep at night. I think about it every time I buy myself a new skirt, or consider buying more ad space. In the end I have made my mind up to do it if I can't handle this position and school, but I hope and I will fight beyond all that is in me to make it work.

I feel a tinge of guilt at this, but this is what I want for me. I want to be able to have the little extra.

 

[catalina_francisco]

I feel a tinge of guilt at this, but this is what I want for me. I want to be able to have the little extra.

No need to feel guilty. It is difficult for many to relate to living without the extra's, or even the necessities, unless they have been there themselves. Once you have, and you find yourself in a better position, it is difficult to consider stepping back into the place you fought hard to escape.

Catalina

 

[cfuhrer]

I grew up with my mom bringing in most of our income, my step dad on SS, and there were four of us living off of less than 30k a year. We had no extra, we never went with out mind you, but there was no such thing as a splurge.

My married life was much the same life style, and then when we separated and I had to decide between paying the electric bill or eating that month. Then I got the promotion to the position I'm in now.

Now I have extra. I can spend $100 to make sure my grandma has her summer garden, and buy lunch for my mom just because, and eat out because I don't feel like cooking, or buy a plane ticket with out worry. I like that feeling of not having to worry about having enough. So it is a very scary thing to think about being in a position where I do have to worry again. The posibility of this causes me to loose sleep at night. I think about it every time I buy myself a new skirt, or consider buying more ad space. In the end I have made my mind up to do it if I can't handle this position and school, but I hope and I will fight beyond all that is in me to make it work.

I feel a tinge of guilt at this, but this is what I want for me. I want to be able to have the little extra.

So much of that sounds so familiar.
Hang in there, I know you can do it!
And know that whatever step back you take today is facilitating three steps forward in the future.

Btw- what degree are you pursuing?

 

[cfuhrer]

No need to feel guilty. It is difficult for many to relate to living without the extra's, or even the necessities, unless they have been there themselves. Once you have, and you find yourself in a better position, it is difficult to consider stepping back into the place you fought hard to escape.

Catalina

I know you didn't ask for an amen.
But I'm going to give you an amen anyway.

Amen!

 

[BiBunny]

No need to feel guilty. It is difficult for many to relate to living without the extra's, or even the necessities, unless they have been there themselves. Once you have, and you find yourself in a better position, it is difficult to consider stepping back into the place you fought hard to escape.

Catalina

Yep. Just exactly that. I believe that if you grow up poor--or if you've ever been poor for any length of time--it never really leaves you mentally.

 

[Curious_in_Cali]

We have been together as M/s for 10 years...and married for almost 10 years....only 3 more months!!

Catalina

Congratulations!

I feel a tinge of guilt at this, but this is what I want for me. I want to be able to have the little extra.

Stuff like this is not about right or wrong, it is just about choices. Just chose what works for you and don't feel guilt or bad about it. It is your life to live... enjoy it!

Freedom really is another word for nothing left to lose.

*like*

<Sigh> I really *am* cranky the last couple of weeks. Much of it is to do with just being tired of hurting, and pain meds that do little besides dull things for a few hours, if that. Getting older, seemingly by the day, doesn't help, either. I'm even tired of being cranky.

If I've offended anyone (besides maybe a couple who damn well deserved offending! LOL!) (Most of y'all know which insulting/castigating posts were my norm), I apologize.

When considering a good offence to a bad mood you might just need one of these...

(((((WARM SQUISHY HANG IN THERE HUUUUUG)))))

 

[cfuhrer]

hub pages

Has anyone here ever done any posting on hub pages, or know someone who has? I'm curious on two fronts:
A) The quality of the feedback and B) the compensation scheme.

I have a book I want to write and I thought hub pages would be a good place to get feedback as I work through it and maybe make a little money to put towards publishing it.

 

[cfuhrer]

I have gone way too long without posting an actual, real live blurt.

I'm not keen on living in the city.
Today's reason is, I dislike all the running around I'm doing. When we lived in the country I went to town one day a week. It was a long day, a tiring day, but it was only one day.

Now its laundry on Tuesday, volunteering on Wednesday, groceries on Thursday. Library on Friday.

Ugh. Not fun.

Not to mention the baby can only take so much before he calls it a day, too.

 

[the captians wench]

So much of that sounds so familiar.
Hang in there, I know you can do it!
And know that whatever step back you take today is facilitating three steps forward in the future.

Btw- what degree are you pursuing?

Psychology, and I'm so excited about it. I've always been very psycho-anylitical, like since I was a small child. I used to have debates about human nature with my step dad at the age of five. What's funny about it is that I never really considered a career in this area before, but when I saw it as one of the choices, it just felt right.

It's going to be a long hard road I know, but I keep trying to focus on what the end will mean, and not the fact that the time difference will feel so much greater, and sleep will become some what of a luxury. This will mean a happier me and a job that I don't do just for the money, but because I care about what I do.

No need to feel guilty. It is difficult for many to relate to living without the extra's, or even the necessities, unless they have been there themselves. Once you have, and you find yourself in a better position, it is difficult to consider stepping back into the place you fought hard to escape.

Catalina

I know you didn't ask for an amen.
But I'm going to give you an amen anyway.

Amen!

Thanks. I know many here have faced the same things, and I realize this is a want, and not a need. I'm making preperations in case I do need to step down. I'm putting more in savings than I usually do, and I didn't go out and blow my bonus check like I usually do, I put a small portion in my "fun money" account, and the rest in my savings, so I will have a cash stash if I need it, or just want it. The fact is, I really am tight with my money, I've just been lazy lately and haven't been eating at home as much as I usually do, which is also making me feel tired and icky. I just need to get back to cooking at home and taking my walk every morning. That will get my energy level back up and I'll perk around again.

 

[Curious_in_Cali]

My Pup is super sick... I really REALLY need him to be OK!

 

[cfuhrer]

My Pup is super sick... I really REALLY need him to be OK!

Oh no!
Pupper prayers.

 

[intothewoods]

We have been together as M/s for 10 years...and married for almost 10 years....only 3 more months!!

Catalina

Mazel!

 

[Curious_in_Cali]

Oh no!
Pupper prayers.

Thank you!

 

[DeepGreenEyes]

Freedom really is another word for nothing left to lose.

Well, I hate to see the U.S., or anywhere else, that free.

<Sigh> I really *am* cranky the last couple of weeks. Much of it is to do with just being tired of hurting, and pain meds that do little besides dull things for a few hours, if that. Getting older, seemingly by the day, doesn't help, either. I'm even tired of being cranky.

If I've offended anyone (besides maybe a couple who damn well deserved offending! LOL!) (Most of y'all know which insulting/castigating posts were my norm), I apologize.

No more offensive than usual. . I hope you feel better, bud.

In the end I have made my mind up to do it if I can't handle this position and school, but I hope and I will fight beyond all that is in me to make it work.

I feel a tinge of guilt at this, but this is what I want for me. I want to be able to have the little extra.

You will.

My Pup is super sick... I really REALLY need him to be OK!

I know that he's more than a dog. I really hope you get good news.

 

[Sir_Winston54]

My Pup is super sick... I really REALLY need him to be OK!

How in hell did I miss this earlier?!?!

:: Mounts special new get better quickly antenna just for CuriCali's Pup ::

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x95/Sir_Winston54/21URGE2BfR-L.jpg

 

[DeepGreenEyes]

How in hell did I miss this earlier?!?!

:: Mounts special new get better quickly antenna just for CuriCali's Pup ::

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x95/Sir_Winston54/21URGE2BfR-L.jpg

[ASIDE]Um. That's cool. Can I borrow it sometime?[/ASIDE]

 

[Sir_Winston54]

[ASIDE]Um. That's cool. Can I borrow it sometime?[/ASIDE]

PM sent with data. Enjoy!