What Are You Thinking? Continued 14

[Secretintoelderly]

What helps me in darker periods, is writing down of what I’m proud of that day. Even if I just did the dishes, I’ll write it down. Hereby you remind yourself every day the things you did, and may be positive about. In a while you create a nice list, which feels good too.

For me it helps, but I understand it may be different if your suffering a severe depression.

 

[crazychemgirl]

Or we could go down the Winchester and wait for it to all blow over.

Lmfao god damnit.

 

[Chillygirl]

What helps me in darker periods, is writing down of what I’m proud of that day. Even if I just did the dishes, I’ll write it down. Hereby you remind yourself every day the things you did, and may be positive about. In a while you create a nice list, which feels good too.

For me it helps, but I understand it may be different if your suffering a severe depression.

I like that. I do something similar…I’ll ask what was the best part of your day? Cause even on my shittiest days there was something that made me smile.

 

[Desiree_Radcliffe]

Really interesting conversation here.
Self awareness and self image and extroverts and introverts.

Not sure what my personal thoughts are.

I think I'm hyper aware of how I may come across. I'm someone who overthinks everything she writes. Who, if she receives a reaction or a reply will go back to the post and check it still comes across how it was intended.

I spend quite a lot of my time alone too with only my internal echo chamber for company. I am working on getting back into the world but it's very daunting. That isolation can make me question and doubt every single thing.

I am unkind to myself which is maybe why I try so hard to bring kindness here as much as I can and I appreciate others that do the same too.

I feel so very much the same, friend. I offer you all the grilled cheese.

My isolation came from having to move to a new city where I knew very few people. I have a few friends who live here, but no one wanted to just get together and talk, so I stopped asking. One of my friends had helped me out with some things and we would talk, but then he just ghosted me two months ago, so outside of my part time job, I just stay at home. Sadly, the majority of my social interaction is done here. If my circumstances were different, I would go out into the world and convene with the people. But I don't have the means right now and it is not doing a great thing to my own mental health.

I really hope you will be able to get ready for returning to the world. Even if it's what I call "people bathing." Just immersing yourself in a crowd or at a coffee shop, just to be around people. Sometimes that is a therapy all its own.

 

[Desiree_Radcliffe]

Or we could go down the Winchester and wait for it to all blow over.

Sarah Winchester? I don't understand.

 

[Desiree_Radcliffe]

What helps me in darker periods, is writing down of what I’m proud of that day. Even if I just did the dishes, I’ll write it down. Hereby you remind yourself every day the things you did, and may be positive about. In a while you create a nice list, which feels good too.

For me it helps, but I understand it may be different if your suffering a severe depression.

I have a guided journal that has prompts for positive things, like affirmations, and a word to set the intention of your day. I tried to use it for a while and I think it helped. I also like making bullet lists for every day and checking off just one or two things feels very good.

 

[crazychemgirl]

I have a guided journal that has prompts for positive things, like affirmations, and a word to set the intention of your day. I tried to use it for a while and I think it helped. I also like making bullet lists for every day and checking off just one or two things feels very good.

I think having my dog and my friends to chat with on the daily go a LONG way towards my happiness.

 

[RosewoodTulip]

I feel so very much the same, friend. I offer you all the grilled cheese.

I'll share it with you

My isolation came from having to move to a new city where I knew very few people. I have a few friends who live here, but no one wanted to just get together and talk, so I stopped asking. One of my friends had helped me out with some things and we would talk, but then he just ghosted me two months ago, so outside of my part time job, I just stay at home. Sadly, the majority of my social interaction is done here. If my circumstances were different, I would go out into the world and convene with the people. But I don't have the means right now and it is not doing a great thing to my own mental health.

I'm so sorry.
I do my socialising here too. I'm a stay at home parent so I feel I'm not being completely truthful saying I'm alone most of the time but I'm not getting the conversation and companionship that I need.
A nice melting pot of various mental health issues has made it easy for me to hide away but I feel like if I don't try to fix that now then I never will.

I really hope you will be able to get ready for returning to the world. Even if it's what I call "people bathing." Just immersing yourself in a crowd or at a coffee shop, just to be around people. Sometimes that is a therapy all its own.

That's a really good idea. I get overwhelmed easily but I could start small and see how I go.

Thank you for being so understanding

 

[Desiree_Radcliffe]

I think having my dog and my friends to chat with on the daily go a LONG way towards my happiness.

I really wish I could have a dog. I miss having a dog to take care of and be friends with. I just withdraw a lot, especially over the past months, because they've been rough. So even my friends who live on social media and such, I kind of stopped talking to them, because I am just sure that they don't want to hear about my hard knock life anymore. So when I am struggling the hardest, I try not to talk to anyone. Or I come here and try very hard to pretend I am OK.

Man, this got emo really fast. Apologies. I am glad that you have a dog. They are very helpful friends and always cheer you up.

 

[RosewoodTulip]

Sarah Winchester? I don't understand.

It's from Shaun Of The Dead

 

[DeerTrace118]

I really wish I could have a dog. I miss having a dog to take care of and be friends with. I just withdraw a lot, especially over the past months, because they've been rough. So even my friends who live on social media and such, I kind of stopped talking to them, because I am just sure that they don't want to hear about my hard knock life anymore. So when I am struggling the hardest, I try not to talk to anyone. Or I come here and try very hard to pretend I am OK.

Man, this got emo really fast. Apologies. I am glad that you have a dog. They are very helpful friends and always cheer you up.

I just want to give you a big ol hug right now.

 

[lavendersilk]

Really interesting conversation here.
Self awareness and self image and extroverts and introverts.

Not sure what my personal thoughts are.

I think I'm hyper aware of how I may come across. I'm someone who overthinks everything she writes. Who, if she receives a reaction or a reply will go back to the post and check it still comes across how it was intended.

I spend quite a lot of my time alone too with only my internal echo chamber for company. I am working on getting back into the world but it's very daunting. That isolation can make me question and doubt every single thing.

I am unkind to myself which is maybe why I try so hard to bring kindness here as much as I can and I appreciate others that do the same too.

I always smile when I see a post from you.

 

[Desiree_Radcliffe]

I'll share it with you

I'm so sorry.
I do my socialising here too. I'm a stay at home parent so I feel I'm not being completely truthful saying I'm alone most of the time but I'm not getting the conversation and companionship that I need.
A nice melting pot of various mental health issues has made it easy for me to hide away but I feel like if I don't try to fix that now then I never will.

That's a really good idea. I get overwhelmed easily but I could start small and see how I go.

Thank you for being so understanding

I don't have that experience. I've never been a parent. But I could see how there could be a certain form of isolation to it. I mean, one loves one's children, but you can't make them your friends. You can't make them your confidants.

And you've got this. I also have found that walking in parks or (for me, especially) cemeteries (during the day) has been very helpful. Being outside with nature and not cooped up in the same four walls every day is helpful. And as a bonus, if you're in a cemetery, the people there won't complain or be annoying.

 

[RosewoodTulip]

I always smile when I see a post from you.

Yay
You are a force for positivity here too and I think it's wonderful

 

[Wand3rlust]

I think having my dog and my friends to chat with on the daily go a LONG way towards my happiness.

Aw. You guys.

(Did I do that right?)

 

[Secretintoelderly]

I have a guided journal that has prompts for positive things, like affirmations, and a word to set the intention of your day. I tried to use it for a while and I think it helped. I also like making bullet lists for every day and checking off just one or two things feels very good.

Happy to read that you are doing these things also! I think it’s fun, and sometimes I laugh quite loud if I write down that I made a walk. “Is it that special to write it down”

 

[crazychemgirl]

I always smile when I see a post from you.

Same.

 

[Secretintoelderly]

I like that. I do something similar…I’ll ask what was the best part of your day? Cause even on my shittiest days there was something that made me smile.

Yes, that’s the whole purpose of it. Finding a blink of positivity

 

[Secretintoelderly]

Aw. You guys.

(Did I do that right?)

You’re in a learning curve

 

[Bry1313]

OP live your life and leave me alone. I do not respect you as a person, and you do not respect me. I posted vaguely to try and avoid calling anything out directly but maybe this will finally stop things.
I find you toxic and deceitful-your lies of omission, which so many defined as lies in this very thread, started at the beginning of our “friendship”. You have claimed it was so hard for you to not be honest but you were never were and neither was Bry, the person that was supposed to be my closest friend.
I had opened up to both of you, about so many things, even comforting you when you were upset that Bry had not told you we had been together and telling you to not be upset with him that he was still your friend and just being a ding dong. You let me do while the two of you were together having already lied once and then lying again when asked if there was anything going on between the two of you. So please do not try to claim you do not know why I was upset.

Were my emotions too big. Yes, because what I had lost was not real. I had believed that my friends were honest with me and I was shown to be wrong. It sucked. Did I blame you more than I blamed Bry? Initially, yes but I also knew he would not have told me if it wasn’t for you. But it was easier to blame you more and it allowed me to try to find a way to still be his friend.

Did I use my words in my poetry thread to sort through things? Yes, I did. Was there anger and sadness? Yes, there was. Did you and Bry come into that space and mock me, yes you did. More than once. I have reacted to you and I have instigated things but it is not one sided and the one thing I have not done is come to fight anyone else’s battles or try to pile things on like you three do. It has happened over and over.

Honestly, I don’t think about any of you except when you make it too hard to avoid you. Then yes, it comes up for me and sometimes I react or engage. You like to say I am a gaslighter and toxic but that is the pot calling the kettle black.

I skipped you in your thread. That is my most recent crime. Was it petty? It was but I also had nothing to say to you and was surprised at what the poster above you had said. I’m not excusing it, I should not have commented and I’m sorry I did it. Usually, I do my best to avoid all of you and it has meant I’ve distanced from folks I like. But I don’t pretend to have you on fake ignore and write about it all over lit. Usually i just don’t engage.

I’m not sure what threads I have “no right” reacting in or what your friends see when they have decided I am fake ignoring you. I have friends that go in lots of threads and while I avoided some threads initially it seems that it has been long enough were we that really shouldn’t be necessary.

Please stop thinking everything is about you. It’s not. I’m not trying to shade you but that does not mean I need to put up with the incessant bullying behavior of you, CCG and Bry. It is old and unnesessary.
We don’t like each other and that is fine. This is a big playground there is no reason for us to interact.

And to everyone that has been forced to see this crap unfold hopefully now that it is out in the open it can end. If I’m tired of it I can only imagine how you all feel.

There was no desire to rile things up this past week. You wrote a poem in your thread that was very similar to others targeting me, and next thing I knew you started visiting the spaces hosted by your “bullies”. While in those spaces you were not the greatest guest and yes, things did get unpleasant. Additionally, none of the bullies have participated in your hosted spaces, so the engagement this past week has been your doing, not those you accuse of bullying you.

You were in a separate, very close, relationship, when the lie of omission was committed. It was very clever of you to conduct that survey without giving context, while overtly claiming it was not about us, but now subsequently stating it was absolutely about us. (That is a lie of commission) Yes, in its beginnings, I did not inform you of what was happening because I wasn’t certain myself other than I was having fun with someone very fun, smart and clever. I’m sure you weren’t sharing every one of your Lit relationships the moment they happened either. I’m sure very few people, even those coming out against lies of omission, in this thread, have fully documented all of their flirtations to the greater world. If everyone did, the tea would be overflowing daily.

Avoiding conflict is easy, don’t go to the hosted space of someone you don’t like, or if you do, don’t behave rudely to the host. I’ve not referenced you or engaged with you for months, until you engaged on what were safe space for those you profess not to like. If we avoid each other’s spaces, it should all be easy.

I’d love nothing more than to give you and your new partner, all the space and peace you’d like, I just ask the same in return.

 

[RosewoodTulip]

I don't have that experience. I've never been a parent. But I could see how there could be a certain form of isolation to it. I mean, one loves one's children, but you can't make them your friends. You can't make them your confidants.

And you've got this. I also have found that walking in parks or (for me, especially) cemeteries (during the day) has been very helpful. Being outside with nature and not cooped up in the same four walls every day is helpful. And as a bonus, if you're in a cemetery, the people there won't complain or be annoying.

Pro tip - hang out with dead people.

I joke but I actually find cemeteries to be really calm spaces.

Feel free to drop me a message if you ever make a grilled cheese again haha

Happy to talk should you need a friend

 

[Shady_nz]

Why does it take so long for my tag line to change? It used to be relatively quick but these days...

 

[Desiree_Radcliffe]

Pro tip - hang out with dead people.

I joke but I actually find cemeteries to be really calm spaces.

Feel free to drop me a message if you ever make a grilled cheese again haha

Happy to talk should you need a friend

They are the best. I really would just make a thread of cemetery pictures if there were interest. The cemetery here is mildly creepy and huge and a joy every time. And I will happily make you one. I started using keto bread (because I am diabetic) and it has been good. I only ever used bread for grilled cheese, so it was sad when I couldn't have it anymore. Also, pimento cheese has, like, 1g of carbs per serving. So I win.

Thank you so very much. Very much the same.

 

[ImpishSeraph]

Mother F'cker, piece of sh!t, scum of the earth, f'cktard, wimpy a$$, weak F'KING A$$HOLE!!!!!!!

Kiss My A$$$ POS



***edited: I'm sorry. This is not about anybody here on LIT, but RL. I just had to get that off my chest, so my kid didn't hear me say it

 

[fsa52]

Mother F'cker, piece of sh!t, scum of the earth, f'cktard, wimpy a$$, weak F'KING A$$HOLE!!!!!!!

Kiss My A$$$ POS

Hope things get better!
Hugs!!