What are your darkest fears?

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Arden said:
My second biggest fear would be losing my father. He'll be 83 this year, and is starting to have health issues. I lost my Mom almost 10 years ago.
;)

"Many Lives, Many Masters" - Brian L. Weiss, M.D.
Father was recently diagnosed with Altzheimer's. About then this book fell right into my lap when, by all rights, it shouldn't have. You're in here so I'll go out on a limb and assume you have somewhat of an open mind.
After I read it, I gave it to him to read.
It gave him this sense of calm and possative outlook on things. I know we're not doing a book of the month club but I thought I'd share the support.


Oh, and to answer the question of fear: Switch Dom with a hidden (and quite nasty :devil: ) sub streak

Fear -->Ending up either alone and frustrated having so much to offer OR simply wasting my "mesources" on someone who really doesn't understand what I'm about or what I offer them.
A wasted life I suppose. Other then that, the shark in the water helplessness issue. And the corpse thing. *shivers*
 
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What do I fear most?

Giving away my secrets and my submission to someone I thought that I could trust and being rejected and/or humiliated.

Failing someone I love

Those are probably my biggest ones. I have others, but these really worry me.
 
twysted73 said:
"Many Lives, Many Masters" - Brian L. Weiss, M.D.
Father was recently diagnosed with Altzheimer's. About then this book fell right into my lap when, by all rights, it shouldn't have. You're in here so I'll go out on a limb and assume you have somewhat of an open mind.
After I read it, I gave it to him to read.
It gave him this sense of calm and possative outlook on things. I know we're not doing a book of the month club but I thought I'd share the support.


Oh, and to answer the question of fear: Switch Dom with a hidden (and quite nasty :devil: ) sub streak

Fear -->Ending up either alone and frustrated having so much to offer OR simply wasting my "mesources" on someone who really doesn't understand what I'm about or what I offer them.
A wasted life I suppose. Other then that, the shark in the water helplessness issue. And the corpse thing. *shivers*

I'm not sure if you meant this or not but we DO have a BDSM book of the month club!

That books sounds interesting indeed. I'll have to look at it closer when I have a minute.

As someone who has lost my Dad, I must say it totally changed my family and not for the best. It was the second most difficult time of my entire life.

*HUGS* to those that want them.
 
Dying a lonely woman

Never finding love

Being abandoned by all who I love most

Losing complete control of my life

Heights

Anything with more than four legs

Snakes
 
1) going off the deep end .....
Sometimes it feels as I am walking a fine line between being sane and totally nuts ...
Thank goodness my body and one of my minds have a strong sense of selfpreservation and will keep my crazy mind in check (told you I am walking a fine line here ;) )

2) physically hurting somebody
This is quite an irrational fear as I am small so not many chances there
But I remember once, practicing Aikido, we were training with wooden sword and going through pre-established movements. My partner didn't move fast enough to avoid my sword and I hit him (not strongly, so not even a bruise). My mind saw blood and I just couldnt help but shaking.


Other fears are less dark and concern my not being able to protect my loved ones.
 
Well, I have a few irrational fears such as spiders, roaches, fast moving bugs... but in reality I am fascinated by them! After I scream and run away I hurry back and try to identify the little bugger.

I think I'm afraid of being broken. You know, chronic pain of some sort. Back pain, arthritis, etc. Feeling broken and suffering incapacitating pain that will never stop, the kind that won't ever let you rest comfortably. I know that this sort of thing isn't really to be feared, but I must say that I hope it never happens.

Oh, and having spent clinical rotations in a state psych hospital I fear having to spend time in a place like that. Hardly anyone gets better, the employees are calloused... scary place.
 
Doms, subs, switches and those unclassifiable or whom refuse to be classified,

What are your darkest fear? Which of them do you consider irrational and which are rational? Are any of them hold overs from childhood and are do you think any are true phobias?

Please mention whether you think of yourself as dom, sub, switch or something else in your answer.

Sub/refuse to be classified. :D Just being difficult.

I'm afraid of spiders. Held over from childhood, phobia, yes.

Also, death. Being abandoned.

Other than that, I'm cool.

Okay, cockroaches.
 
My biggest fear is that the last time I ate pussy is the last time I will ever eat pussy, it may sound funny but eating pussy is the most important thing in my life!
 
Am a sub, and have a true phobia about snakes. i will run the other way the second i see them, screaming at the top of my lungs. i start to hyperventilate if i even see one on tv.

i also am claustrophobic, but for some reason; don't think of that as a phobia. Just something i deal with, the best way i can at the time it happens.

As to dark fears, there are two.

1. My children dieing before me.

2. Me, from this point on - growing old; without having found another true Master, to give my all to Him. No questions asked. That One who truly cares for me, as i do for Him.
 
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