You can now call me the bionic single Dom

[Richard49]

Hi Sir Richard!

I disagree. I can be sorry for many more things than that for which I need to make amends or have done in error.

I am a product of a certain generation raised in the South. As such I say "I'm sorry" easily. Children were always to blame for everything. They were to be differential to adults and know their place. My husband and I say it a lot by rote.

Further, in my first marriage, my husband required me to say I'm sorry about just everything. It took some mental gymnastics to do so. I had to lie a lot in both cases. Sometimes I'm sorry meant, I'm sorry I can't fucking kill your ass and get away with it. Sometimes it meant I'm sorry you are so damn dumb. Sometimes they/he had my head so turned around that I sincerely thought I was to blame for shit they/he did.

Now in this case, I was merely trying to be empathetic. I have lost people I cared about in my life for no good reason and it hurts. That is why I said I was sorry this time.

Fury

my sweet young thing
one can empathetic
we all need to work on being empathetic

I still say one can not be sorry for that which one can not make
or need not make ammends for .........

May I suggest
you get that darling ass of yours to the library or book store
get those lovely hands on a copy of
"Bradshaw on the Family"
by John Bradshaw

 

[FurryFury]

LOL!

Sir Richard, if you only knew how much time I spend in book stores and libraries!

I brought home a great load of books from two libraries just this week. I often have so many items checked out I have to use my kids cards!

Anyway I do feel bad (and sorry) when other people hurt even if there is nothing I can do but offer sympathy in some cases and empathy in others.

In fact if my husband or child bonks their head or knee and I see or hear it? I automatically say ow, I'm sorry, even if they don't. I'm a funny one sometimes.

Of course that's better than when I was an adolescent and accidentally hit a lady, gently with a grocery cart. I said "You're welcome or Thank you" then instead of I'm sorry or excuse me. Mom never let me forget that one. I was a dizzy girl that day.

Anyway, maybe I will look at that book someday. Right now I have at least 20 books bedside waiting for my attention. In this one way, life is being very good right now.

Fury

 

[Richard49]

LOL!


Anyway, maybe I will look at that book someday. Right now I have at least 20 books bedside waiting for my attention. In this one way, life is being very good right now.

Fury

May I suggest
you get that darling ass of yours to the library or book store
get those lovely hands on a copy of
"Bradshaw on the Family"
by John Bradshaw

 

[FurryFury]

May I suggest
you get that darling ass of yours to the library or book store
get those lovely hands on a copy of
"Bradshaw on the Family"
by John Bradshaw

You already have suggested it Sir Richard and it has been noted.

Thanks,

Fury

 

[Richard49]

You already have suggested it Sir Richard and it has been noted.

Thanks,

Fury

I know/knew I need
it did not seem you
saw how strongly I was suggesting

 

[FurryFury]

Sorry Sir Richard,

As I said I have noted it.

Did you mean, Bradshaw on the family : a new way of creating solid self-esteem or Bradshaw on--the family : a revolutionary way of self-discovery? We have it at several local libraries.

Fury

 

[Richard49]

Today, Sunday, has been like the 4th day in a row where I have been very weak
I over did it Thursday
Did I share that I canned saurkraurt?

It has taken me all day to cleans cats litter pan

I also have found she has a tumor

oh ya
Tuesday is my birthday

 

[Richard49]

Sorry Sir Richard,

As I said I have noted it.

Did you mean, Bradshaw on the family : a new way of creating solid self-esteem or Bradshaw on--the family : a revolutionary way of self-discovery? We have it at several local libraries.

Fury

To the best of my knowledge
there is only one (1) Bradshaw on the Family
it has an introduction by Carol Bernet

I know John has many other books also
but Bradshaw on the Family
was also turned into a PBS seris

 

[FurryFury]

Hi Sir Richard,

I hate to hear that you have felt so weak and that your kitty is sick. I know how it is to have a cat with a tumour.

Yes, there is more than one book by Bradshaw. Maybe I will offer you some good ideas for self improvement books one day as well. I have read a lot of them on many, many subjects as I tried to help those around me.

Fury

 

[lady-kat]

peeking in early ;-)

good morning all

popping in with fresh coffee and cinamin rolls. hope I brought enough *grin*

happy birthday sweetheart

headed out shortly for my CT. send me some good thoughts please? and I'll sure be doing the same for U
now off to drink my glow in the dark gunk. ummmm tasty

 

[Bandit58]

Happy Birthday Richard Hoping you feel better today Sorry to hear about your cat too, I think I have posted before about how I miss having a pet....

Sending good thoughts to lady_kat, hope everything went well *hugs*

Master has an appointment with the cardiologist tomorrow so we need good thoughts as well......

 

[Richard49]

good morning all

popping in with fresh coffee and cinamin rolls. hope I brought enough *grin*

happy birthday sweetheart

headed out shortly for my CT. send me some good thoughts please? and I'll sure be doing the same for U
now off to drink my glow in the dark gunk. ummmm tasty

yummy
coffee and cinamin rolls
and these are the fired ones like I like

My good thoughts always go your way

 

[Richard49]

Happy Birthday Richard Hoping you feel better today Sorry to hear about your cat too, I think I have posted before about how I miss having a pet....

Sending good thoughts to lady_kat, hope everything went well *hugs*

Master has an appointment with the cardiologist tomorrow so we need good thoughts as well......

good thoughts going your way and to your master also

best way I have found to deal with my heart is
1) avoid Drs at all cost
2) avoid relationships also

 

[FurryFury]

I hope you are having a wonderful birthday Sir Richard.

Fury

 

[Ava Nova]

Happy birthday!

 

[h_i_s]

Happy birthday wishes being sent your way , Richard49. & of course, very sorry to learn of your kitty's health concerns.


Hoping everything went fine, lady_kat.

An abundance of good thoughts regarding tomorrow, for you and Your's Bandit58.

 

[Bandit58]

Thank you all
Master needs to have an angiogram, to find out what treatment is necessary to fix His arteries. He does get extremely stressed about hospitals and procedures. He will probably not be worth living with for a week before the procedure!

I am thinking we are lucky this was found - if He had not been having tests to see if He could have a transplant we would never have known about the problem. Of course it is all my fault - if He hadn't met me He would not be having the aforementioned tests!

Of course I deserve a good spanking for it

 

[h_i_s]

Thank you all
Master needs to have an angiogram, to find out what treatment is necessary to fix His arteries. He does get extremely stressed about hospitals and procedures.

i know how that can be.

...... am thinking we are lucky this was found - if He had not been having tests to see if He could have a transplant we would never have known about the problem.

Routing for the two of you on this end ... and yes, it's a long tough journey, which can be much easier when not traveled alone.

 

[Richard49]

I hope you are having a wonderful birthday Sir Richard.

Fury

For many years I have not celebrated any of the important days
In this thread is the reaons for some
This year I have tried to make it a point to embrass those days

My birthday turned out to be so-so day

I got a nice gift from my friend Mary
I got a number of online cards
I got into a pissing match with my mother the night before
I got into a pissing match with a collections agency the day of
I heard nothing from my son or daughter or grandchilden
I had my cake with my recovery family

Now it is time to do that annual inventory
that is a moral inventory .......

 

[Richard49]

Happy birthday!

Thank you ....... for the well wishes and the kisses

 

[Richard49]

Please pass this on

VFW Helping in Hurricane Katrina Relief Efforts with Online Donation Form


Cherryland Post 2780 and it's Ladies and Men's Auxiliaries will be collecting donations for veterans in need because of Hurricane Katrina in the states of Lousiana and Mississippi. Representetives from the post and auxiliaries will be at Wal-Mart on Sept 10 & 11, 2005. They will be at SAM's Club on the 17th and 18th.
For those that wish to help, they may also donate online. The Veterans of Foreign Wars (VFW) has established an online donation form (<https://www.vfw.org/index.cfm?fa=what.levelc&cid=2774&tok=1>) for people wishing to donate to Hurricane Katrina relief efforts. The money collected will provide financial assistance to veterans and military servicemembers who need emergency help.
To date, National VFW Headquarters in Kansas City, Mo., has donated $100,000 each to the VFW Departments of Mississippi and Louisiana, as well as $30,000 to Alabama. Numerous VFW Departments and Posts are contributing to relief efforts, including the Department of California, who has provided $15,000 to Mississippi and Louisiana.
Newly elected VFW national commander, James Mueller, of O’Fallon, Mo., also is spearheading a campaign to urge individual VFW Posts around the world to donate $1 for every Post member.
“That could potentially generate more than $1.8 million,” Mueller said of his request, adding that he personally would like to see the relief effort top $2 million. “Our membership has a heart, and they do so much every day for others. I have no doubt that given the compassion and generosity of our members and those of our auxiliaries, we will exceed our goal.”
The VFW assists all veterans and their families obtain veterans' entitlements and for the well being of those serving on active duty, in the National Guard and in the Reserves. Founded in 1899, the VFW is the largest organization of combat veterans in the nation with more than 9,000 Posts worldwide.
All funds collected will go directly to the VFW State Commanders in Louisiana and Mississippi. No administration costs will be deducted allowing for 100% to go directly to needy veterans.

 

[Richard49]

The Lastest from lady_kat

i'm very rattled right now. and the crash and burn is worse when there had been hope involved.

the CT results showed NO change from may. all that the doctor and i had hoped for isn't happening with this chemo. and my suspicions of the last two weeks were confirmed. the nodes are growing again. she felt them and said yes, that i was right.
heh. just once i would like to be wrong about being right ;-)
but my internal barometer just doesn't lie.

i was typed and crossed today to be entered into the national donar registry. so many variables there. will there be a match? will insurance cover it? will i be a candidate for it & will i survive it if i attempt it? can my mind handle so many months of being away, and hell. can i handle the pain involved?

there are no more types of chemo they can try. we are going to keep with the current program because it is slowing it down. my next treatment date is unknown tho. my counts are very poor. just above needing a transfusion. this not good. it's been a month, they should be climbing. so many variables there too. is the marrow damaged? too involved with cancer?
and. because of my poor counts there is not a clinical trial available to me.

i got my doctor's version of "get your affairs in order speach" again today. i think she forgot she gave me that same speach back last spring.

jeff....
well, i don't know what his reaction is. i think i gave him all the info. tho maybe not. my natural instinct to protect......

i am desperate to talk to someone. and i wish i knew who to reach out at church to. so selfish of me i know, when they have done so much already. my one dear friend has too much on her plate with Glenn. i will not add to it. Lord knows what i am gunna tell her tonight when she asks about my CT.
and our group for sharing is not meeting any more.
oh ya. did i mention selfish? <shaking head> and man am i ever a coward.

but....maybe this is how it should be. & i should be reaching out to God instead. i'll survive this. i need time to pull myself together.

one thing i have done is placed a call to the gal at the hospital who handles patient info about their paliative care. it's time i learned what i can expect. my doctor has refused to discuss this with me - and i need to know. all i have to go on are memories of my dad, laying on our sofa in horrible pain before he died because there was no care for him. or my mother drugged into oblivion two weeks before she died. denying me this info is making it harder for me to deal with. if i make sense.

thank you, as always for your prayers {hug}

may take a few days before i'm back to my usual perky self ;-)
i guess i need time for my pity party here. do you know how i loath myself when i allow myself to get this way? Jesus admonished the deciples on the boat for their lack of faith, what does this say about me and my faith?
ok. enough about me beating myself up here. i should be rejoicing at the thought of where i'm going, and getting to meet that little soul that was my baby.
and i aint dead yet ...
remind me of that {hug}

and jeff still need to be babtised. i'm gunna enlist bill our elder in this i think ;-)

 

[Richard49]

Happy birthday wishes being sent your way , Richard49. & of course, very sorry to learn of your kitty's health concerns.


Hoping everything went fine, lady_kat.

An abundance of good thoughts regarding tomorrow, for you and Your's Bandit58.

Thank you for the birthday thoughts and special thoughts for my kitty Diablo (sp)

I like your AV
I'd like to see more of it

I have posted above the lastest on lady_kat

 

[h_i_s]

Thank you for the birthday thoughts and special thoughts for my kitty Diablo (sp)

I like your AV
I'd like to see more of it

I have posted above the lastest on lady_kat

Diablo is such an interesting & intriguing name for a kitty.
We have a new pet, which i refer to as our 'foster baby'. He was for sale with the cage included. We need a bigger cage for the two oldest girl's pet ball pythons that Santa left for them last Christmas ....... but we do NOT need any more pets added to this zoo of our's. He's a very sweet Fire Dragon Lizard ... his name is Flame & he's two years old, very tame and believe it or not, very receptive to attention and affection. He reminds me of a kitty. When i stroke his head and scratch behind his ears he closes his eyes in bliss and 'kinda purrrs' (his chest puffs in and out rapidly). He's up for auction on a reptile site ... current bid is over $50 .. we paid way less than that for him WITH the cage and all supplies. Someone will get a great & very fun/entertaining pet ... i'll hate to see him go, so will lay off holding and petting him too much so as not to get attached.

As for the AV, ty ... and i doubt Master will allow me to show 'more'... lol. i need to start a new thread though... something along the lines of 'What's your dungeon ... or what's your bedroom look like?'. That av photo was taken in our bedroom which we have finished (i think) decorating. The walls in that entire room are covered with black framed mirrors of different shapes and textures, various styles of black candle holders/sconces (sp?) and black shelves here and there ... bed has a black iron type frame .. with a billowing ivory colored half-canopy above the head of the bed ... which is placed in front of the window ... simply because we love how it looks when the sunlight shines through. Master even made a mobile of 4"x2" mirrors which hangs beside the bed in front of a black kiddy-cornered cast iron room divider screen. It's our fav room in the house .... for more than just a few reasons. Very unique, & i need to get Master's photos of the room to post them.

Whenever i pop in to post on this thread ... or just read, i hold high hopes & good thoughts for lady_kat .... ty for sharing, and keeping us informed Richard.

And, i hope your birthday was filled with happy moments ... does this mean you need a new ID? Richard50?¿? Just kidding .... heh. i have used the same ID at Yahoo since early 2001 ... at this rate i will be 33 .. FOREVER.

 

[Richard49]

I will try to get back here tomorrow and reply to all

I have not been feeling up to spunk

lady_kat has had a # of transfusions