A Soldier's Love (closed)

[Asa]

She looked over from the chair and shrugged.

Some reality show or something. I saw them putting fish in a really interesting looking tank.

 

[Ravenloft]

"Fish? That's wierd... they win immunity if their fish survives or something? I'm not big on these reality competition shows... but there was this one I really liked. The Quest, I think? It was sort of scripted, the contestants were dressed up like medieval people and they trained with swords and bows. It was pretty cool."

 

[Asa]

No it is a company that makes creative tanks. Kind of interesting. But then fish tanks are always so soothing.

She drew her legs up onto the chair in a near ball till the show was over.

I think I will get a bath and try to relax more.

 

[Ravenloft]

"Yeah, soothing." Jack agreed, he was more interested in her than the show, but tried not to stare.

"Okay, there should be plenty of hot water left. Hey, I'm curious, how do you relax?"

 

[Asa]

I don't tend to get to be relaxed much but I guess the bath.

She hurried into the bathroom her deep almost instinct fear fighting again with her mind as she ran the bath and sank in the hot water.

 

[Ravenloft]

"I meant..." Jack tried to explain, but it was to late, she had already rushed off into the bathroom.

He let out a sigh of exasperation, she was still scared of him because he was a man.

He didn't blame her, she'd been put through hell, but he had to show her that he was different.

Doing a quick scan out the windows for any sign of trouble, he found this complimentary relaxation kit. It had a little packet of lotion, foot cream and some sort of aroma therapy spray.

Maybe he could give her a foot massage? And leave it at that? Give her a positive experience. Show her that not all men were after sex. Or wanted to hurt her. He doubted she would let him, but he wanted to try.

He left the kit out on her bed, prominently displayed so she couldn't miss it and put his clothes back on, thinking that maybe dressed, he wouldnot appear to be as much of a threat to her.

When she came out he was sitting up in his bed, flipping channels, looking for something interesting to watch. "Hey, feel better?" He asked, half interested in the episode of M.A.S.H. he'd found. It was the one where Hawkeye was trapped with Margaret Houlihan and they kissed.

He looked up and smiled at her.

 

[Asa]

She had put the long blouse back on before walking out and nodded trying to smile.

Yeah... What's this?

She motioned to the basket on the other bed and looked to him as she moved to get herself better hidden under the covers of her bed. Placing the basket on her lap to study it.

 

[Ravenloft]

"Oh, it's some kind of relaxation kit, I found it in the room. It's got lotion and foot cream and some kind of aroma therapy spray." He turned to look at her, propping his head on his hand. "I know you don't like to be touched. It makes you nervous. But I just thought that maybe if you let me give you a foot rub. Just a foot rub, nothing more. Then maybe you would see that not every man is out to use and abuse you..." he sat up and put his hands on his knees. "What do you think? You've trusted me this far, willing to let me show you I'm not out to hurt you?"

 

[Asa]

She bit her lip for a moment but nodded.

Okay... I guess

 

[Ravenloft]

"Really? I mean... okay!" He slipped off his bed and took the little packet of foot cream from the tiny basket in her lap, tearing it open. "Well, let's have them feet then, darlin!"

He took her right foot in his hands and worked the pads of his thumbs upward, along the arch of her Foot. Working the cream into her skin.

 

[Asa]

She tensed a little but just watched him biting at her lower lip.

 

[Ravenloft]

Jack looked up at her as she watched him working his fingers along the heel, arch and ball of her right foot. The cream had a mild mint scent to it that was nice. "Try to relax." He said softly as he cradled her ankle in one hand and gave her foot slow rotations with the other.

Then he started on her toes, sliding his finger tips between them with a firm pressure so as not to tickle her if she was sensitive there. He worked on each toe individually. In total, he spent a good fifteen minutes on the one foot before moving to do the same to her other.

He was getting turned on but he gave no sign of it as he finished massaging her feet. He sat back, and placed his hands on his knees. "There, what do you think? Was that good? Would you like some more?" He said he'd stop with just hef feet, but now that he had he hoped she wanted some more attention.

 

[Asa]

She nodded that it was nice chewing on her lip she shrugged and finally spoke

I... I guess that would be okay.

What was more going to be... She was a little scared but remained where she was even though part of her was screaming run.

 

[Ravenloft]

"Alright then..." he slipped one hand under her tight calf and began gently squeezing it, massaging away her tension. "I hope you don't mind me saying you feel really good. I like your legs, you've got some muscle, must be from all that dancing, huh?" He was clearly enjoying what he was doing to her. "It's been a while since I touched a woman... I hope that doesn't make you nervous." He wanted to keep running his hand up her legs, until he was massaging her thighs but she was already lookin nervous.

 

[Asa]

She pressed back firm into the pillows. She didn't want to be scared she also didn't want him to see any more scars from his brother's darkness. Robert had told her the scars would scare and disgust anyone who saw the real her.

 

[Ravenloft]

"Hey, relax, it's okay, I'm not going to hurt you, just tell me if you want me to stop, okay?" His hands edged up just a bit higher, hoping to make her more comfortable.

 

[Asa]

She just nodded but stayed quiet. It was nice but still even Robert used nice to lead into some of his more abusive events. She relaxed some the massage helped more than she wanted or expected.

 

[Ravenloft]

Jack felt her muscles slowly begin to relax and took that as a good sign. He smiled at her. "Your doing good, darlin." He encouraged her, wanting only to show her he cared for her. He massaged her one leg for another ten minutes before going to work on the other. "Mmm, you feel really good, I don't want to stop touching you..." he knew he was crossing the line but he couldn't help himself. He kissed her knee, looking up into her eyes with a wanting look in his, moving a hand slowly up along the inside of her thigh.

 

[Asa]

She tensed again at his words and his hand moving... The look in his eyes scared her a little too.

Jack... What are doing?

Her voice spoke more of her fear than her tensing.

 

[Ravenloft]

"I just want to show you... a guy can touch you... love you... without hurting you... I want you... I've wanted you from the moment I saw you." He let it all out, his finger tips brushing lightly across the thin fabric of her panties.

 

[Asa]

She wanted to believe but instinct and fear had control as she was trying to back away from him.

Scared...

The only word she could barely utter as she was near tears from fear

 

[Ravenloft]

"I know you're scared, what can I do to help you relax, make you trust me?" Jack moved his hand back down to her knee, hoping that the threat of it near her sex would help make her feel safer.

"How about... if I... let you tie me up? Maybe... if I can't I mean, if you get to be completely in control of everything... you won't feel so scared?"

 

[Asa]

I... I don't know. I don't want to be this scared. I know you are not Robert or Michael but... They are all I know.

She balled up sobbing she hated how she was reacting to him when all Jack seemed to want was to love her.

 

[Ravenloft]

Jack spooned up behind her, gently rubbing her arm. "Then let me change that. I want you, I want to be with you, show you it can be good." He started to say ax she began sobbing. "Oh, come here..." he gently drew her closer, holding her as she cried. "Let it out, just let it all out, you need a good cry. It's okay, I understand. Let me just hold you, I promise, you're safe with me."

 

[Asa]

She curled closer the comfort from him and everything finally escaping her was helpful. Leaning against him she slowly calmed though the sheer force of her tears still had her shaking a little.

How can I get past all of this?