Always only you (pm first)

[AngelofyourNighmares]

She looked at him softly when he touched her face, he felt familiar and yet things were so different now. She had to agree it had been a crazy day and she didn’t think it was going to get any easier she thought to herself. She felt a little guilty not that she had a reason to be she hadn’t done anything wrong besides trying to move on with her life.

“You left me jack I was a shell of a person... I didn’t love him I couldn’t let him touch me not in that way at least, but in your letter you told me to try and move on so that’s what I was trying to do.” She said softly and again looked away from him. Was she supposed to wait forever she thought to herself why had he been so selfish surely he should have known there was a reason she hadn’t contacted him....

“I wasn’t hiding from you, I was shocked and hurt and angry... you were acting angry with me and I didn’t do anything wrong I did what your letter told me... I felt like you were blaming me I still feel that way....” she said before sitting back up on the bed. “You don’t know what I went through Jack without you.”

 

[yaturtle]

She wouldn't answer his question and it only served to fuel his suspicions. His stomach was churning and he could feel the heat coming into his face. Jack stood up and turned away from her ." I spent the last year on the run. unable to talk to or trust anyone but Evan. My choices were a long jail term or a bullet in the back of the head. I worked my ass off under false names so i could come back as your night in shining armor and take you away. Having had no Idea there was someone else,I never dreamed you would do that. I certainly fucked up, but I never gave up. Your boyfriend is an asshole but he's not stupid. He used Sean Patrick to get rid of me and I suspect he Knows where Evan is Too. By now he's probably pressuring your sister and Liz to find out if I reached you. Eventually the old man will get him. But in the meantime I need to keep moving." Without looking at her he took his gun and vest and went to the door. "If your coming with me there is an extra helmet on the back of the bike". He walked out and started the bike.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

“I never slept with him jack .” She finally simply said as he seemed once more to turn the tables on her and make it as if what was happening was someone her fault. He wasn’t who she thought he was anymore and he was the one that has chosen a life of crime had he told her what was going on she would have went with him anywhere he wanted and she would have started over with him. The way he turned from her as if she were some kind of whore hurt her more then any words ever would.

And I spend the last three months with a man I have no feelings for and the first 6 months of him being gone were pure hell but she didn’t say that after all. “I spent the last year thinking I did something wrong Jack!” She screamed anger over taking her. She knew he had a rough life but she thought she had always been enough for him. “I did what you told me too I tried to move on I never loved Paul, he was just there a friend when I needed one and I was only going to marry him because I thought it was the only way to ever get over him and then even then I don’t think I would have said yes” she screamed tears streaming from her eyes.

“I didn’t do anything wrong Jack stop making me out to be the one in the wrong!” She screamed. She took a deep breath as he mentioned Paul she had no idea she was being used and or that the person she was trying to get over turned out to be such a ass. She was so angry as hastily wiped the tears from her eyes before following him out to the bike. She snatched the extra helmet and got on the back of the bike.

 

[yaturtle]

He watched her grab the helmet and get on the bike as her words sunk in.
“I never slept with him jack .”
Before he could reply he spotted a cruiser circling around the mall parking lot next door and checking out a bike someone had parked there . He drove the bike alongside a big truck that was pulling out so they could not see him ,and took of down the road. It was a nice feeling to have her on the bike again. Jack smiled inwardly after two hour's on the road. He suddenly remembered the special bitch seat he had made for the bike. It had a hard foam insert that curved upward under the leather seat cover . In essence because of the vibration from the engine ,it made the seat a vibrator. He spotted an exit with signs for lodging and got off to find a red roof inn. He took her helmet from her and kissed her hard holding the the back of her head and finding her tongue." Why didn't you tell me that you never slept with him ."

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Being on the back of god bike once more brought back so many good memories, she felt her adrenaline rushing as she looked at him as he climbed on. She didn’t need to tell him that she didn’t sleep with Paul really it wasn’t any of his business, but then again part of her needed him to know. She noticed the patrol car just as he had and she tightened her grip around him knowing where this was going to go. The wind though her hair she had missed that so much.

She felt safe yet scared at the same time of that was even possible. She was tired it had been a very long day she hasn’t eaten and she hasn’t slept in a long time not really solid sleep and she was just emotionally drained. She took a deep breath she didn’t think Jack understood anything she was going though.

She sighed when they both jumped off of the bike she was taken aback when he kissed her leaving her senseless for a moment.

“It shouldn’t have mattered jack.... you left... and if you really ever loved me you wouldn’t have cared.” She said looking away.

 

[yaturtle]

He sat back down on the bike momentarily stunned at her last statement. "Are you serious ? You think I shouldn't care? If I never truly loved you ,why would I be here now? How the hell do you think the thought of you in another man's arms would not bother me? If it didn't piss me off ,you might have something to be mad about." He turned and walked into the office to pay for the room and get the keys. When he came back he gave her one." I'm going to get us some food and some beer. We could both use a hot shower and some rest."

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

She put a emphasis on her last statement she needed him to understand that she in fact was the wronged in all of this, so she didn’t understand why he was putting all of this on her. Yes she was dead serious she thought to herself. She shrugged her shoulders thinking if you cared you would have taken me on the run with you instead of leaving me. She knew he loved her she never really doubted that but she was hurt so this was how she was feeling and he knew better then anyone else that she wasn’t one to hold back her feelings.

She sighed to herself thinking back to his letter in which she had saved all of this time always wanting to throw it away but never being able to bring herself to sound so. She looked at him anger in her own eyes. She watched as he walked away and she shook her head, she hadn’t brought any fresh clothes then again she hadn’t expected any of this to happen either.

She looked at him as he shoved the key in her hand. Asshole she thought to herself. He was right about that last part, she knew she must look a mess. She walked into the hotel room and locked the door behind her before walking to the bathroom and splashing some water on her face.

 

[yaturtle]

When jack got back to the room he placed the Chinese food and beer on the table before going to wash up. Even in a bad temper after a long day she was beautiful. At this point they should have both fallen on the food but it remained untouched in the stony silence between them. He opened beer for both of them as she continued too look away from him. He took a deep breath choosing his words carefully . Angel ... I think in the rush of information and emotions today some key information was missed by both of us. At the time I was told , you were being watched. The police were waiting for me to come for you. I also believed Danny may send people to force you to call me. The letter was to help protect you. All I knew was that the information was coming from inside the sheriffs dept. Until today when I found out the source was your fiance. Witch meant you were on his radar even then. The murder provided him a convenient way to get rid of me. You never told me anyone was after you. Do you understand what I'm feeling now ,why it's so important that I know?

 

[yaturtle]

When jack got back to the room he placed the Chinese food and beer on the table before going to wash up. Even in a bad temper after a long day she was beautiful. At this point they should have both fallen on the food but it remained untouched in the stony silence between them. He opened beer for both of them as she continued too look away from him. He took a deep breath choosing his words carefully . Angel ... I think in the rush of information and emotions today some key information was missed by both of us. At the time I was told , you were being watched. The police were waiting for me to come for you. I also believed Danny may send people to force you to call me. The letter was to help protect you. All I knew was that the information was coming from inside the sheriffs dept. Until today when I found out the source was your fiance. Witch meant you were on his radar even then. The murder provided him a convenient way to get rid of me. You never told me anyone was after you. Do you understand what I'm feeling now ,why it's so important that I know?

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

The last thing she really wanted to do was actually eat at the moment even if her stomach was saying something else. She still needed and wanted to cry she was so hurt and still so very angry over everything that was going on. She hated the silence between the two of them but at the same time she knew there were reasons behind all of this even if she hated it. She thanked him for the beer with a nod and then took a very long drink from it.

She took a deep breath and smiled at him slightly when he said her name she still felt excited when he said her name even when she was angry with him. He was right about all of the information. "I'm sorry. " she whispered even though again she knew she had nothing to be sorry for. The thought that she was being watched made chills go through her spine. She believed him but that did not mean she felt any better about him leaving. She felt stupid. She felt betrayed.

"I do, doesn't mean you had a right to be angry with me or treat me the way you did, you really hurt me. "

 

[yaturtle]

" I'm sorry too. I always Knew there were risk's , but I never envisioned the kind of trouble I found myself in or the pain it cause us. When it happened it felt like every move was a wrong move. We had better get some food in you before you faint on me" He reached into the bag and fed her a chicken finger . As he gazed at her his own appetites awakened slowly. Jack absentmindedly twirled her hair around his finger ,an old habit of his when he was deep in thought." So many nights I slept in cars in the back of the shop. When I closed my eyes I could smell your hair and remember just the way you taste." He blinked bringing himself back into the present. She was staring at him with a tear in eye and he realized she had stopped chewing. Jack finished his beer in one long pull and put it down on the table. He stood up taking her by the hand and leading her to the shower. Tilting her head back he kissed her deeply. She seemed to be still in a daze as his hands got busy removing her top while they kissed. Jack squeezed her to him as reached in and turned the shower on. Mmmm god I miss my angel!!

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

She took a deep breath she had missed him she thought to herself yet at the same time her head was all over the place. She knew they had both suffered that was easy to see not that it made her feel any better because she knew this was far from over. She listened intently to everything that he had to say, she needed to understand. He was right about the food however she hadn't ate since the night before. She accepted the bite of food that he had offered her.

She slowly started to eat her food even though she was still unsure about everything. She half smiles as he twirled her blond hair around his finger and she blushed a little. Hearing that her slept in cars had broken her heart. She had often felt the same way she thought to herself. She knew for a moment that he was lost in his own thoughts at she listened to him carefully.

She couldn't eat anymore and once again another tear was rolling down her cheek. She fought back More that threatened to come. She looked at him confused when he took her hand and led her towards the small bathroom. She sighed into his kiss, it had been so long she had kissed his lips she had almost forgotten what he tasted like. As he removed her top she felt her heart begin to race against her chest. She smiled into his kiss as he turned the shower on. "I. I missed you so much. " She whispered her voice breaking a little.

 

[yaturtle]

He slowly stripped them naked as they continued to kiss. Jack led her under the hot water standing back briefly to take in the women he had hungered for. His body pressed her to the tile as he held her face in his hands and looked down into her eyes. Jack reached began soaping them up as he whispered in her ear.
" I don't know why I needed to wash you up only to fuck you into a senseless sweaty mess". His hands dropped to her ass cheeks gripping and pulling her to him while he bit softly on her neck.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

His kiss was something she had longed for, for so many nights. The water felt so good against her skin almost as good as she was telling just being in his arms. She smiled gently at him as he looked down into her eyes her heart was racing she had missed him more then he would ever know.

She moaned deeply at his words she had missed that the most.

 

[yaturtle]

Jack led her to the bed. His lust for her spinning out of control. He threw on the bed and fell on her like the starved animal he was. She moaned under his kiss and rubbed against his erection with leg signaling her own need.Jack was never one to give you what you wanted right away. He sat up and lifted her bottom of the bed wit both hands. Looking into her eyes he plunged his tongue into her wet pussy lapping away slowly while he enjoyed her taste and the wild expressions on her face. Jack squeezed her but cheeks hard as he sucked her clit into his mouth and battered it with his tongue . dropping her back onto the bed he kissed her hard again" Now my Angel , are you ready for a good hard pounding now?"

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Her heart was pounding as jack led her to the bed, she wasn’t sure if they were moving too fast at the moment but then again it didn’t matter to her. She had wanted and needed him just as much as he needed her, this wasn’t romantic then again with then sex never was, and in this instant she wanted And needed him. She giggled when he threw her into the bed not to rough but just rough enough to put her in her place. She could feel his hardness against her leg as she moaned. She had longed for this moment for so long and she needed more she knew he did too.

She gasped when he grabbed her ass and pulled her to the edge of the bed. Fuck she screamed out when his tongue started lapping at her tight and now very wet pussy. She moaned deeply when he found her hard nub and sucked on it as she cried out once more. “God yes.” She moaned out as she looked up into his eyes.

 

[yaturtle]

Jack hooked his arms behind her knees and pushed himself into her warm opening. the sounds of their body's slamming into each other in pent up lust reverberated around the room. Their hands came together and palm to palm and their fingers interlocked as he picked up the pace. Jack grunted with the effort and watched his angels mouth hanging agape ,a tiny puff of air escaping her throat at the bottom of every stroke. Her chest and neck began to flush with color ."That's it angel take that hard cock, fuck it good for me baby". He dropped her hands and legs and lowered himself onto her kissing at her neck and ear as he whispered " No cumming without my permission Angel, ask me nice.
Jack slowed almost to a stop.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

She let out a loud moan it had been so very long since Jack had been inside of her his cock felt like heaven. He felt so good as she wrapped her legs around his waist clinging to him as she pulled him against her meeting him thrust by thrust. She felt safe and happy once more, though still hurt confused and angry there fingers intertwined felt right. She was so close and she hated that she couldn’t hold off like she normally could but it had been so long and she had dreamt and ached for him night after night. She moaned her face and body turning red with passion.

Hearing his words she dug her nails against his hands, moaning as she felt her pussy tightening against his cock knowing she wouldn’t be able to hold out for much longer. She moaned when he kissed her neck her favorite spot. She knew she couldn’t wait so she did just as he told her... “Please Jack please let me cum.” She managed to gasp out.

 

[yaturtle]

Jack was grinding her slowly giving himself a reprieve from his own pending explosion when he heard her reply"Please Jack please let me cum." He grunted and bit at her neck just below her ear as he picked up the speed and power of his thrust. Pulling her hands to his flexing ass cheeks growling in her ear." Hold on angel ,daddy's gonna let you cum good" . The bed was protesting loudly at the bottom of every thrust , her pussy clutched him in rapid spasms and they were both covered in a sheen of sweat. Her short choppy breathing changed to a long wail as he watched her snap back. Jack backed out abruptly as his cock released a years worth of batter in one stream after another from her mound up to her breast and neck . He fell on her kissing her as she gasped for breath, and their bodies stuck together.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

It had been so long and she was on the edge teetering to the point of no return and Jack knew that all too well considering she knew he was too. Oh god she groaned out when he bit the sensitive skin below her ear on her neck, God he made her insane. She moaned loving the feel of her hands on his tight ass moaning her nails digging now that he had let her hands go. She moaned in contentment when he told her her was going to let her cum... it had been so long and she missed this she missed him and the passion they shared together.

She leaned forward and kissed his neck her hands moving from his ass to his back as she wrapped her legs tighter around him with a loud moan and pulled her deeper against her. She couldn’t contain her orgasm any longer, as she screamed out. She moaned feeling his hot cum against her body. She moaned lightly against his lips and held onto him for dear life.

 

[yaturtle]

Jack rolled slowly off and walked back to the shower. As he washed he expected her to follow him in ,but she did not. He knew his immediate need had been sated, Yet it was a far cry from restoring the complex relationship of love and dominance between them.It would never work for him if she defied him and refused to answer his questions. He longed to go back when she would bend to his will, kneel before him and confess her darkest needs for him. He could just not see granting her that without removing the tiniest seeds of doubt that her actions had planted in his mind. Stepping out of the shower he could see she had not moved and just stared at the ceiling above. He brought her a warm wash cloth and towel and sat next to her on the bed. Gently washing and drying her front he asked "can you eat? or would you like to rest?

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

She watched as he went to take a shower she wanted to join but at the same time she needed a few moments to herself. She took a deep breath there was so much to take in, the dev had been amazing but at the same time the connection was nothing like it was before. She hasn’t felt that close to someone in a long time, part of it made her want to cry, part of it made her feel a little less incomplete. She could feel tears in her eyes again she felt like he blamed her for all of this. She hated the distance between them but what did he really expect.

No she wouldn’t allow him to blame her for her actions she didn’t do anything wrong! She thought to herself. She was all over the place and she didn’t even think he really knew How hurt and how torn up she had been and actually still was. She watched as he sat gently next to her in the bed. He gently cleaned her and she was grateful that he had done so, he always took great care of her. “I’m honestly exhausted.” She admitted softly.

 

[yaturtle]

When she told she was exhausted he simply pulled the blanket up over her and brushed her cheek with his fingers. Jack eyed the food on the table but ignored taking a couple of beers from the fridge instead. He sat in the small arm chair in front of the tv and put his feet before cracking open a beer. behind him he could hear breathing change to a soft snore as she fell asleep. He felt strongly that she was holding something back ,and could not push from his mind. The various possibilities that ran through his mind made his stomach do flips. Eventually he fell asleep in the chair for an hour or two before he heard her moving around in the little kitchenette. When he turned she was sitting at the table already dressed and sipping coffee.The silence in the room was deafening as he pulled on his boots and washed up before heading out to start the bike and wait for her. She sat on the bike without a word and he popped the clutch sending them on their way. He stayed on the back-roads as a precaution not yet knowing what was going down back home. a single tear escaped his eye in the cool morning air as he wondered if this would be their last trip. As determined as he was to give her more time he knew this could not go one like this all the way to Florida.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

She smiled at him as he took care of her, she was always busy taking care of other people she didn’t even know what it was like to be taken care of, she sighed when he touched her cheek. She watched Jack for a few more moments there was so much unsaid between the two of them and yet she still loved him more then ever... she snuggled up under the blanket enjoying the warmth and the feeling it had given her more do the comfort and that’s what she needed the most right now. It didn’t take her long to fall into a deep sleep.

She never wanted to hurt him and she knew deep down he hasn’t meant To hurt her and even if he felt he was protecting her obviously he went about it the wrong way. She did toss and turn and wake up several times in the evening but stayed in bed trying not to let her thoughts get the better of her. She woke real early so she could take a quick shower and dress she hated wearing the same clothing but circumstances that they were in she had no other choice. The last thing she wanted was the silence that they shared but at the same time she didn’t want to start a argument.

She took a deep breath and straightened the room up before grabbing her purse and heading out to the bike where he had been waiting for her. She hopped on behind him and gently wrapped her arms around him she had missed this she thought to herself. She hoped Liz was okay and wondered what was going through her family’s mind. She hugged against him almost as if she didn’t he wouldn’t really be there. “Jack.... I’m going to have to stop at a store of some sort... I can’t keep wearing the same clothes.” She yelled as the wind ripped through her blond hair.

 

[yaturtle]

Jack loved the feel of her arms around his waste. It brought memories of her teasing him while they rode. An hour more into the ride he found a small mall for to get her things . He waited for her in a small coffee shop down the end and ordered breakfast sandwiches for them both. They ate in silence and she only finished half as she looked away out the window. Jack could not take his eyes away from the finger that had held her engagement ring." you know it should be much easier to forgive you than myself as i know I put you in a bad situation."
he hesitated for a second. How can I do either if you won't tell me what happened. You had never held anything back from me before , Why now?