Carnal Instincts (closed)

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"Fine, whore. Get the fuck out. Ill be moving in this weekend." He screeched to a stop, made them both get out, and sped off.

Camilla pulled up her panties and grabbed her phone, sobbing. "Kailey!" she cried.

 

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Kailey shook her head when Adam stopped the car and made them get out on the side of the road. They were already a good few miles away from school, and it was too far to walk. "Fuck off" she hissed as the girls got out and walked away from the car.

"I'll call Mikey, he'll cut a few hours to come pick us up" she said, turning to see how distraught Camilla was when the girl called her name. She moved closer to her and hugged her "I really think you need to tell your dad" she whispered. "That would make things a lot better" she added, pulling her cell phone out of her pocket to text Mikey.

 

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"Thank you. That's kind of him." She hugged Kailey back, but pulled away a minute later. "You think he'll believe me? He won't. I was always the one he loved but I was usually lying and at fault. He'll think I'm crazy or being dramatic. I can't tell him."

She sat on the curb and lit a joint, taking a hit. "Mm. Mikey's nice, huh? I hope Gabe's a good boyfriend." She couldn't let Kailey see how disturbed she was, so she tried to pretend things were normal.

When he got there, she got in the back. "Thanks so much." She whispered, almost crying again.

 

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Kailey hugged Camilla, shaking her head at what the girl said. "Of course he'll believe you Cam" she said hating the way Camilla doubted herself. "Even if he doesn't believe it at first, I was here and saw what happened today, he's gotta believe the two of us, or at least my mom will, and she'll talk to him" she said trying to calm her down.

They both sat down on the curb, Kailey pulled out her cigarettes and decided to save her joints for later, incase she wound up going back to school for the afternoon. Soccer didn't started until the next week, but it would be good to get a workout in anyways.

Mikey pulled up in his hybrid suv a while later and Kailey sat in the front seat, reaching over and kissing him. "Thanks baby" she said as Camilla got in and thanked him, sounding again like she was gonna cry. Kailey turned around and rubbed the girl's knee gently, letting her know everything would be okay.

"Why don't we grab lunch, it's already too late to get back for third period" she said, looking at Mikey and then Camilla.

 

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"I'm sorry. I know you'll probably think I'm crazy, but I can't tell him. As horrible as Adam is... I can't."

After they'd been driving for a while, Camilla smiled at Kailey's comforting. "Yeah, food sounds great. I haven't eaten in a while." She admitted.

They drove for a while longer and as they stopped for food, Mikey told them to wait. "You gotta tell me...what's your brother done that's so terrible?"

 

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Kailey decided not to push the issue, eventually she'd talk to Camilla more, her dad had to know about what had happened and what was continuing to happen. Mikey drove across town to one of Kailey's favorite places, a small stand alone sandwich shoppe called John's shoppe.

They parked in the lot and Kailey smiled seeing a few tables still open outside. She was about to get out of the car when Mikey stopped them, telling them he wanted to know what Adam had done to Camilla.

"Babe, it's up to Camilla, if she wants to tell you or not, if she doesn't, don't push it" she said quietly, wondering just how much her soon to be step sister would want to share, with her potential future step brother in-law.

 

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Camilla whispered, "And you can't tell him. Okay?"

When Kailey defended her right to tell Mikey or not, Camilla thought for a minute. She would be willing to tell him since Kailey was so serious about him, but as a guy, she knew Mikey would flip.

"Let's go inside and I'll get something to eat. Then we can talk about me telling you." She said to Mikey. Then she let him walk ahead of her and whispered to Kailey, "Do you think he'll attack Adam? I can't have that. I need to trust he won't get involved." She wanted Kailey to know that she trusted her, if she didn't already know.

 

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Kailey nodded. She looked at Mikey who knew to drop the issue at that point. The girls walked behind Mikey and Camilla asked her about telling Mikey.

"If you tell Mikey he can't say or do anything about it, he won't" she reassured her. "He would only see Adam when we're all at our house, and that wouldn't be very often anyways" she added as they grabbed a table in the corner outside, picking up their menus.

 

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After they were seated and had gotten their menus, Camilla looked at Mikey. "I trust Kailey a lot, and I know you two are serious about each other. She says I can trust you. So if you promise me you won't say or do anything about what I tell you...then I'll tell you. But be prepared. Nothing you can imagine will..." she cut herself off as the waiter approached.

She ordered her food and something to drink, and Mikey was silent until the food and drinks had been brought and the waiter had gone away.

 

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Kailey and Mikey sat on a two person bench with Camilla across from them. She held his hand and gave it a soft squeeze as Camilla started talking about what she was going to tell him, and what he had to promise not to do.

They were interrupted by the waiter when he came to collect their order. Kailey ordered an iced tea and tomato, mozzarella and basil panini and they waited until they had all gotten their food before Camilla brought up the subject again.

Mikey nodded, "I promise not to get involved, and I won't say anything to anyone, I just think I need to know so there's not a big thing between me and Kailey that involves her new life, we've already got enough to figure out for being away from each other and getting into the same school next year, a big secret between her and me wouldn't be a good thing" he said, hoping it made sense to Camilla.

 

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"That makes sense, Mikey. Thanks." She ate for a few minutes and then coughed. Once she had his attention, she spoke.
"When I was just turning fifteen, my parents went out of town. My brother got really weird on me. He started asking weird questions. Then he came into my room and...he...he raped me. Painfully. He stole my virginity. He said terrible things to me and he made me feel like a dirty...whore...he left me bleeding and crying and he had the nerve to smirk at me, and say 'Happy birthday, little sis.'

"The next day he threatened me about telling anyone. Then he brought three of his friends over. One of them raped me. And then one raped my mouth while the other molested me. They left me dirty on the floor until hours later my brother came and kicked me til I got up, showered, and went to bed. Or so I tried.

"Later that night, my brother came into my room and raped my mouth. But when he finished, he pulled up his pants and pulled me up. He kissed me all soft and sweet. He tried to confuse me. Tried to make me believe lust was going to his head and that he actually loved me. He told me he was sorry he'd been so terrible and he was gonna make it up to me and make me feel good. I wanted to scream at him, but I was so blind and confused and scared. He got me off and he left. I was shaking and confused and crying...

"He didn't talk to me for two days. Then he hosted a party. I tried to find some quiet place to myself, but people were fucking in my bed. Gross. So I tried to hide but he and his pot buddies were smoking in his room and he called me in. I refused. He ordered again. The guys all knew. I could tell.

"He told me for a small price, he was allowing his friends to fuck me. My brother was taking money from his friends and was going to let them fuck me? He told me to relax. He told me this would all go away soon and things would be normal. He told me that he was gonna get some drugs and 400 dollars. He laughed in my shocked face and said I was worthless. I tried to run but I couldn't as I was pulled down. The four guys gang-raped me...it was...horrid.

"Um, I took a long shower. Tried to wash it away. I was so hurt and confused. I went into my room and stripped my sheets. Then I got in bed. Um... he came in. He kissed me. He was soft and gentle and pleaded at me to forgive him. He said they'd threatened him. And it was like Stockholm Syndrome. I'd somewhat fallen in love with some image of Adam that he'd manipulated me into seeing. He made love to me. He kissed me goodnight.

"I had hoped that would be the end. End with at least one good memory, as sick as it was. But the last day before my parents got home he raped me again. He came partially inside me and laughed at me afterwards, 'You really thought last night was about love, didn't you? I just know I can control you now, you little whore.' Adam moved out not long after that."

Camilla had been talking quietly the whole time and when she was done, she looked up at Mikey, hoping he didn't think she was disgusting and tell Kailey she should move away or something like that.

 

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Kailey watched Mikey as Camilla retold the sory she had shared with her just a few days earlier. She slowly rubbed Mikey's back, doing her best to calm him down. Mikey was always a protector and wanted everyone in his life, especially the girls, to be treated well.

She felt his fist clench, and she forced her hand into his, her thumb running over his hand. "I know it's hard but you can't do anything" she reminded him as Camilla finished her story. Kailey took a sip of her tea, and looked at Camilla. "I really think you need to tell your dad, we'll all back you up" she said to her. "And once you tell him, things will start to click and he'll realize it's true" she added.

"What the fuck is that punk's problem" Mikey said angrily, still clenching and unclenching his fists. "You've seriously gotta tell someone Camilla" he said taking a deep breath.

 

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Camilla shook her head. "You guys don't get it. You understand so little of it. You can't imagine what it is like to be raped. Over and over. Especially by someone you trusted. Someone you were threatened by..." she stood up, shaking. "I've never told anyone till now. You think I'm going to go tell my dad? I can't...do that." She ran out, crying.

She got in the backseat of the car, laying down, crying and shivering.

 

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Kailey sighed, wishing she could get Camilla to understand how important it was for her to tell her dad. She and Mikey had the rest of the food packed to go and paid the bill, moving back to his car quickly. They got in and saw Camilla in the back seat.

"I'm so sorry Cam" Kailey said as Mikey put the leftovers in the trunk. "I know it's hard, but you've gotta tell someone. Maybe not right now, but we can't all live together after he did that to you. Maybe you could tell someone else, like my mom, or another relative of yours?" she suggested, knowing she was grasping at straws.

 

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"Maybe someday." She was quiet until Mikey spoke. He asked where he should take them. "Home. Amanda's covering cheer for me." As soon as they got home, she ran into the house, through the yard and into Logan's chair.

It was peaceful. She watched the slight flow of the pool and felt the breeze on her body. That's when she got the text. "Gonna be late on moving in." She ignored it. She was in an unbreakable mood. She closed her eyes and drifted off, so she didn't notice Logan come out of his house.

"Having fun?" he lit a cigarette and stood, watching her. "Oh, hey Kailey." He said, as she watched outside.

 

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Kailey glanced at Mikey as they drove home. She wished she could get Camilla to talk to someone who could do something about Adam. She shook her head as Camilla grabbed her stuff and ran into the house.

"Do you wanna come in for a little bit?" She asked Mikey. He said he could, and they walked in, and they saw Camilla sitting in the yard by the pool, so they went out onto the deck and sat in one of the lounge chairs together, to give her a little space.

She cuddled against Mikey for a while, wishing she could do this every day. Without even looking up, she waved slightly when Logan said high to her.

 

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Camilla and Logan sat and talked quietly, smoking a blunt that Logan pulled out of nowhere. She smiled at Kailey and Mikey, who were cuddling. She'd never had a relationship like that.

That's when Camilla realized why her relationships had been so shallow and usually short-lasted. Adam hadn't just violated her sexually, he'd really messed her up emotionally. She couldn't handle love. Any time a guy developed real feelings for her, she dumped him. She never cried over guys.

"Logan, I love you." She blurted out. He smiled at her,

"Girl, you're stoned."

"But I really love you."

"Come here." He pulled her up and led her to the door of his house. He shoved her against it. "This isn't about love, you don't do love."

"But I want to. I don't want another sexual fling. I'm tired of it."

"Camilla, you're not capable of it. If I developed feelings for you and told you I loved you, you'd split."

"Ill talk to you later." She pulled away and headed inside.

 

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Kailey stayed in Mikey's lap when Camilla and Logan walked away. She saw the look Mikey gave her and she shrugged. "I think Adam really messed her up for future relationships and shit" she whispered, feeling so safe in his arms. "I just wish she would tell someone that could help her" she said, confiding in her boyfriend.

She didn't notice that Camilla had gone back into their house because she had used the side door. "Thank you so much for everything you did today" she whispered, kissing Mikey as he slid his hand around hers. "Camilla said that if we have any problems getting into the same place for next year, her dad would make some calls for us" she said remembering what she had said a day or two before. "So we've just gotta make it through this year" she said optimistically.

They cuddled a little while longer before they both decided they'd wasted away enough of the day, especially seeing they had missed classes for most of the day. Kailey walked with Mikey back to his car and kissed him again. "I'll stop over sometime this week after practice to see you and I guess he's our dog now" she said realizing her puppy was going to have to stay at his house because of Camilla's cat.

"Maybe you should be here when Adam moves in, just to help out and incase something happens" she said, hoping Adam was at least smart enough not to try anything anymore. She was worried though, that he would do something to her because she'd stopped him in the car earlier.

 

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As soon as Kailey came in, Camilla hugged her. "Adam won't hurt you, you know. He's not moving in for a while anyways. And I realized...he's really fucked me up emotionally. So I'm going to work on that." She stepped back. "You're so lucky to have a guy like Mikey..." she thought for a moment.

"Thanks for your help earlier." She tilted in and meant to kiss her cheek, but accidentally kissed the side of Kailey's mouth, and then kissed her again.

 

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Kailey walked into her room and sighed, realizing the massive amount of homework she had to do before she could go to bed. She picked up her backpack and tossed it on her bed to grab the books she would need and was about to head to the study downstairs to get started when Camilla spoke to her.

"He didn't seem very happy with what I pulled in the car earlier" she said in response to Adam not hurting her. She smiled though when Camilla brought up Mikey. "Yeah, I really am lucky to have him" she agreed, thinking about how good next year would be with him when they would be living together.

"No problem" she answered when Camilla thanked her for helping earlier. What happened next threw her though, and she didn't know how to react. She blushed bright red when Camilla kissed the side of her mouth, and started to pull away, but before she could, Camilla kissed her again.

"Umm, I've uh, I've gotta go get some homework done" she stammered and picked up her books and cellphone before heading downstairs, trying to shake what had just happened from her mind.

 

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Camilla went for a run, and when she came back she went straight into the bathroom to take a shower. She felt mortified that she'd kissed Kailey. She hoped she didn't hate her now.

When she got out, she walked into her bedroom. She got dressed quickly, not looking towards Kailey's side of the bed, in case she was back. When she was done, she decided to just go to bed. She didn't feel good at all.

The next morning, she waited for Kailey to get in her car, before speeding towards school. Once she got there, she ran in. With everyone in the halls watching, she walked up to Johnny and kissed him.

"Whoa, baby." He shoved her against the lockers and kissed her back. "You're messed up, aren't you. You don't want to do this." He whispered it against her ear, kissing softly.

"Yeah, I'm fucked up. I don't know what I want anymore." He kissed her neck. The bell rang, and she squeezed his cock through his jeans, before sliding off to class. She rolled her eyes at Amanda, who was gaping as they all went into homeroom.

 

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Kailey had her headphones on, her music turned up loud while she did her homework. She finished faster than she'd expected and she walked back upstairs. The bathroom door was closed and the shower was running so she changed into her bikini and put her hair up in a messy pile on the back of her head and grabbed a towel from the hallway linen closet before heading outside to the hot tub.

She turned most of the lights out on the deck and started the jacuzzi before sliding into the hot, comforting water. She turned her iPod on and put it away from the edge of the jacuzzi, listening to music, still trying to clear what had happened with Camilla from her mind.

She pulled her ear buds outs and called Mikey, the doors and windows to the house were closed and she slid her hand into her bikini bottoms while they talked about all sorts of naughty things, some they'd done and some they wanted to do. Her back arched against the wall of the jacuzzi and she moaned softly as she came, her eyes closing while Mikey did the same on his end.

They talked for a little while longer before Kailey said goodnight to him and walked back up to her room where Camilla was asleep. She went into the bathroom and showered quick, braiding her hair so it would be wavey the next morning before going to bed.

She woke up the next morning and grabbed her things, wishing soccer started that day instead of Monday of the next week. Her car was still at school from the events of the other day, so she decided she would go and visit Mikey after school instead of going straight home.

The bell rang as she sat down in her first period, AP bio, the class that Adam had interrupted the previous day. She closed her eyes for a second, and hoped he wouldn't show up again.

 

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Camilla sat through homeroom, until she got a note from Amanda. "Your brother asked me out. Cool?" she rolled her eyes. If she said no, she'd never hear the end of it.

"He's a sleaze, but go ahead." She then passed a note to Kailey as they left homeroom, "Sorry. I have been really confused lately." That's when she saw Gabe. She had no clue what he was doing there. She smiled, "I gotta get to class. Lunch is 11:30. See you then."

At lunchtime, Gabe was standing outside the cafeteria. Kailey caught up with her. "Hey, wanna come to a party with me tonight? You too, Kailey, just...not as my date." They both laughed.

"I'd love to." Kailey nodded her answer, and headed into the cafeteria. Gabe kissed Camilla's cheek and headed off, whistling. Camilla caught up with Kailey in the line. "So?" she smiled. "Forgive me?"

 

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Kailey raised an eyebrow when she got a note from Camilla. She really wanted to keep her distance for now, last night had been way to weird. She read the note between classes and brushed it off, decided to still keep her distance for a while.

During lunch, Kailey saw Camilla and Gabe standing near the entrance to the cafeteria and knew there was no way to avoid them, so she walked over and said hey, surprised to get an invite to a party from Gabe. "Yeah that sounds great if I can bring Mikey" she said. Gabe said it wasn't a problem so she said she'd be there.

She was in line at the salad bar when Camilla caught up with her again, asking if she forgave her. She paused for a minute, filling her plate with baby spinach leaves and nodded finally answering Camilla's question, grabbing some veggies with a pair of tongs.

She sat down at a table with some of the girls from her tryout squad earlier in the week and texted Mikey, inviting him to the party Gabe had invited her to. Her phone buzzed a minute later with a reply from Mikey saying his soccer team was having a team dinner before their first game of the season so he couldn't make it. She sent another to him saying she wouldn't go either, but quickly got one back saying he trusted her, and she should go to meet some people from school. She promised to go to his game the next afternoon and told him she loved him in her message and finished her lunch, talking with some of the girls before the bell rang for her next class, Calculus.

 

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Camilla slid onto the seat of the long table next to the girls from her cheer squad. "So, where's my brother taking you?" They talked for a while, and Camilla's phone buzzed.

"I'll pick you up at seven at your place. Cool?" she smiled and texted back,

"Sounds great." She started thinking about what she was going to wear as she picked at her food. She wondered if he'd like if she dressed on the slutty side or the clean side. She shook her head. It didn't matter. She'd have fun no matter what.

After classes were over, she had cheer and then a short soccer practice, all of which were pretty uneventful. Afterwards, she drove Kailey and herself home and went up to her room to get dressed. She'd already showered at school.

"So what are you wearing?"