Chilly’s Nighttime Radio

[Chillygirl]

Nights can be hard. I can corral my thoughts during the day but the minute the lights go out and my head hits the pillow it’s like my brain starts showing a film of every mistake I’ve made, pieces of life that I want to redo, conversations I never got to have.

So anyhow I thought I’d post the music that speaks to me.

ETA I’m really ok. I’m not going to hurt myself. I like sad songs. I have a lot going on in my life right now but honestly life is good. Don’t make me regret this thread and delete it!

 

[questquilya]

I really hear you. What's the music?

 

[Chillygirl]

 

[Chillygirl]

 

[Chillygirl]

I was never able to have children, years of fertility treatments and so many losses. I was so suicidal after my last loss and this song…was how I felt but couldn’t say.

 

[Chillygirl]

 

[Landpirate]

Nights are hard to turn the mind off.
Sokeep posting if it helps .

 

[questquilya]

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I was never able to have children, years of fertility treatments and so many losses. I was so suicidal after my last loss and this song…was how I felt but couldn’t say.

So sorry about it. I can only imagine the pain.

 

[Chillygirl]

I don't hate you
I wish I could
It would be easier that way
Instead I'll just say I'm happy for you
And hope that one day it won't feel like a lie
I still whisper your name when I pray at night
But I know I'm praying to something
That will never answer back
I was ready to give you every sunrise
But you wanted nights in someone else's hands
I was fighting to be the fire in your heart
But you only saw me as ashes in the wind

 

[Chillygirl]

I can feel you falling away
No longer the lost
No longer the same
And I can see you starting to break
I'll keep you alive
If you show me the way
Forever and ever
The scars will remain
Give me a sign
There's something buried in the words
Give me a sign
Your tears are adding to the flood

 

[questquilya]

Life is hard and beautiful. The beauty can be only appreciated through the hardship. There will nights that are less and less difficult, sooner than it probably feels tonight. Meanwhile, we are here for you.

 

[Chillygirl]

All the times that I've cried
All this wasted, it's all inside
And I feel all this pain
Stuffed it down, it's back again
And I lie here in bed
All alone, I can't mend
But I feel tomorrow will be okay

 

[Chillygirl]

Life is hard and beautiful. The beauty can be only appreciated through the hardship. There will nights that are less and less difficult, sooner than it probably feels tonight. Meanwhile, we are here for you.

I appreciate the sentiment. I’m really ok. Just some nights suck.

 

[questquilya]

I'm loving the compilation, btw.

 

[Chillygirl]

Ok one last one for tonight. I just love this song it feeds my emo heart

 

[questquilya]

 

[Chillygirl]

I lied…one more. Gotta end on a positive note.



No song…just this.

 

[Landpirate]

Good food for thought

 

[Chillygirl]

This song is worth posting twice

 

[MrPimms]

The sentiment behind this thread is beautiful.

SOAD - Lonely Day, a great choice.

Will have a look through collection.

 

[Chillygirl]

 

[Chillygirl]

 

[Chillygirl]

I was watching a bunch of videos about Chester Bennington and his struggle with depression. You could see how frustrated he was, a little angry even. It was sad to watch.

 

[Chillygirl]

 

[Chillygirl]

Ugh my ex husband….the hell he put me through