I had one too many drinks to drive, so I walk home. He followes me from the bar, until he draggs me into the alley. I kick, I curse… until his fingers make me moan. And then im left with his seed dripping out on my way home. I never see his face.
I would say, You’ll learn that what surrounds you doesn’t shape who you are. And it’s okay to want something different—even if you can’t explain why yet.
I wouldn’t now, but likely did in the past, intentionally seduce some men that in hindsight I probably should not have. I like to think I’m more mature now.
I vividly remember many hands-on lessons in anatomy and anatomical functions that I don’t think most girls (18 years old) received at home.
I met this guy at a bar one night, he was the singer in the band that was playing. When they had a break he came over to my table and we started talking, bought each other drinks and had made soft plans to meet after his set was over for the night. It was clear to the both of us that there was some chemistry between us.
When he got back on stage, he would look at me while singing certain words that grab is cock (like most men do) sometimes it was like he was making love to the mic. I would lick my lips back at him and mouth to him that he was making me so hot and horny, this went on for several minutes.
After the set was over, he came to my table, grab my arm and pulled me outside where we found a bit of darkness and had each other right there. It was so erotic and I could barely breath. Afterwards, we went back into the club, did some dancing and more drinking. Then he took me home and did it the right way .....
The first time i had sex, i was on my early 20's. The woman i had sex with was 10 years older than me and married but seperated. She became pregnant. I wasn't in love with her, yet she tried to force it using the baby as the reason. When that didn't work, she had her husband threaten me as well as writing me letters that were abusive.
I am getting out of a mean, nasty, degrading and hurtful relationship with my husband of 12 years. I am taking a break from, and giving up on, men for the time being.
However, I am not anti-men, just anti-men for now.