StrayKat
Conquered By A Tiger
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- Sep 20, 2009
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That's all very real to me. I get that. I guess with my unique situation, I LIKE easy. Because I'm never ever giving it my full attention. I like being able to go afk and come back and be alive.
I'm sorry your favorite game's fading. I don't really have a favorite, I have lots that I can immerse myself into, or not immerse myself and just skim. I just like having lots of options, setting goals and achieving them. But crafting is my true love, really.
I've played insanely hard games, and I often get that bullheaded "I WILL kick this game's ass..." sense, and then I burn out. Final Fantasy XI was like that. I get this perverse satisfaction through leveling up high enough to kick something's ass that kicked mine, or do that hard quest, or run some difficult trial or whatever. But once I've kicked enough difficult ass, I sigh and want a nap and I don't get that much payback out of it. End result is when things reach their point of diminishing returns, I take off. And I don't get much return from challenge, I actually get return from measurable progress. All the games I'm playing now, I can get decent advances in whatever area I choose with reasonable investment of my time.
I know I used to be much, much more involved with games and the people IN the games, I met my husband online in an RPG. Now it's just really quirky and casual and it suits me for what it is.
The games I'm playing now are mostly pretty and fun. With all the channels off so I don't have to listen to people bitch. Because I'll feel compelled to bitch about their bitching, so I should just give it a rest and go make something or kill something.
I can only hope I will get to your level of gaming sometime. I really want to get there. Just to play without getting too much involved, enjoy crafting and collecting..... sounds so relaxing
I think that my problem is that I am competitive. Not with others, I dont care if somebody else has Xywz-Sword-of-Wonder that I dont have. I dont care if someone can kick 8 mobs and I can only do 3.
I compete with myself.
I know perfectly well when I make mistake and it annoys me, I cant be happy until I do the same thing again and correct that mistake. I know my limits in game and I am trying to expand them all the time. Its quite tiring sometimes. I am never in peace with myself and just playing and having fun, I always have to test and challenge.
Oh well, maybe some day I will be able to develop more relaxing ways of playing like you did.
