I Can't Sleep.

[lucky-E-leven]

I can't bloody sleep.

I'm constantly on edge of tears. My stamina has gone down, I pant from the smallest of stress. I have migraines more than usual. My spirits are down.

I'm feeling so fucking hopeless. Last month I swallowed my pride and went to see my doctor. After giving me 3rd degree and making me cry twice (I hate crying in front of someone) she finally agreed to give me a perscription of mild sleeping pills. Only ten tabulettes, enough to get me through the worst.
The pills didn't help me at all. They just fucked up my stomach and had me feel like I was a bloody gas balloon. I'm lactose intolerant, and the lactose level on the pills was higher that the drug itself. I finished the perscription, because I believed it would just need time to take effect. It never did.

Now I feel crappy. I can't even find the strenght to carry myself the way I use to, though it's always been a source of pride for me to carry myself like a princess though I look more like a toad. I sit nearly doubled over, and it worries me. I just can't find the strenght in me again. It feels like somebody ripped the guts out of me, and now I'm just a wimpy shadow of myself.

And I'm so angry with myself. Why can't I sleep? Am I so bloody stupid that I just don't understand how to?
I know for sure I'm not ready to go back to that doctor. I couldn't bear her trying to patronize and squish me under her health-sandal at the same time.

I've tried all the calming herbs I've got stacked. Valerian, chamomille, hops, you name it. I'm starting to lose hope.

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I'm sorry about the rant. I needed to open up.

Thank Gods for caffeine...

All apologies, dear yaspis! Not being able to sleep is awful and can have a huge effect on your otherwise strong sense of self and character. It can become a vicious cycle and it sounds like you may need to see a different doctor.

Being able to sleep has nothing to do with being stupid! You're obviously troubled over other things and they are affecting your normal routines. I wish I had some good advice, but I often find myself awake through the night and can only say that you're not alone and that things will get better.

Speak not of being a toad, for here you are a princess! And I hardly think caffeine is the answer, but can understand if it makes you feel grounded. My sleep therapy is for my cat to curl up on me and purr until I finally pass out. If things don't get better, maybe you can borrow him for a bit!

~lucky

 

[yaspis]

Thanks, that's too kind. I'd love to have a cat, but permanently. Too bad the important people in my life are allergic.

It must be wonderful to have something warm and purring next you. Or does your cat lie atop you? My aunt's fat old tommy loves to sleep on me. He's just as cranky as I am in the morning and he's so large he should have his own zip code. Too bad he just weighs so much he cuts my blood circulation...

Caffeine is an answer for me, not probably the best one, but I have to get up every morning 6 o'clock. Falling asleep on the toilet seat is kind of unpleasant. Talk about waking up and feeling awkward...

My main problem is that I really am a nocturnal person. I hate early mornings, and I'd love to burn the midnight oil if I just could sleep 'till midday. Once off the balance of the "normal" rhythm it's damn hard to get back on the track.

 

[Lauren Hynde]

The eyeball! The hideous staring eyeball! Make it stop!

Surrender to Jesus. Cast out all evil and sexy underwear.

 

[destinie21]

Surrender to Jesus. Cast out all evil and sexy underwear.

so you're saying jesus wants us to go commando

done

 

[Lauren Hynde]

done

Good girl.

 

[lucky-E-leven]

Surrender to Jesus. Cast out all evil and sexy underwear.

Any other stipulations?

~lucky

 

[destinie21]

Any other stipulations?

~lucky

IF not I'm totally going to heaven. Cos I like going without underwear evil or otherwise

 

[Lauren Hynde]

Any other stipulations?

~lucky

Any other stipulations will be laid on the table on Sundays.

 

[lucky-E-leven]

Any other stipulations will be laid on the table on Sundays.

As we stand around it devoid of underwear?

~lucky

Wish I could be laid out on the table on Sundays

 

[destinie21]

I can't sleep and I'm beginning to think I'm sex crazed.

 

[lucky-E-leven]

I can't sleep and I'm beginning to think I'm sex crazed.

LOL!!!!!! She said beginning to think...

Very funny, Des. Your condition of sex-craziness is legendary, I think. I don't think it's unhealthy though. Quite the contrary.

Sorry about your sleep issues, but have a and know you're not the only one.

~lucky

 

[destinie21]

thanks to bad that rose doesn't come with a...well nevermind
Thanks

 

[lucky-E-leven]

thanks to bad that rose doesn't come with a...well nevermind
Thanks

It might...how large is the misses? And how fast can she run?

~lucky

Would do me some good and might even help our sleep issues

 

[destinie21]

It might...how large is the misses? And how fast can she run?

~lucky

Would do me some good and might even help our sleep issues

She's small but crazy but she wouldn't mind seeing as we've had sex several times tonight. She's worn out

 

[lucky-E-leven]

She's small but crazy but she wouldn't mind seeing as we've had sex several times tonight. She's worn out

Pity she's worn out, but I'm all for it if she doesn't mind!

Do you have anywhere to be in the morning? I never get worn out

~lucky (loving the boots)

 

[lucky-E-leven]

Is sleep really necessary after all? I never get any and am somehow still able to function well enough for everyone but my best friend to notice. And even then, the bitch can only comment on how I need to do a better job with my foundation because my dark circles are showing. Friends. Ugh!

~lucky

 

[minsue]

Damn it! I can't sleep!

Sorry. Have to be up for work in less than 5 hours. Not the least bit sleepy (although tired as hell) & just needed to get that off my chest.

Feel ever so much better now.

 

[damppanties]

gently moves Min onto her right with her kness folded comfortably, pats in rhythmic motions on her back and runs a feathery hand over forehead while singing something lyrical in a low, soothing voice. Watches as her eyes close and she's Zzzzz...

 

[Dirt Man]

Is sleep really necessary after all? I never get any and am somehow still able to function well enough for everyone but my best friend to notice. And even then, the bitch can only comment on how I need to do a better job with my foundation because my dark circles are showing. Friends. Ugh!

~lucky

In the armed forces, according to my contract back then, we were considered to be on duty 23 out of 24 hours a day. So learning to take 15 min catnaps became standard operational survival tactics if you didn't want Charlie to put a hole in your head. When I got back to the world, sleep was never a real issue with me after that. If I got some, great, if I didn't there was no sense losing more sleep over it.

As Always
I Am the
Dirt Man

 

[lucky-E-leven]

In the armed forces, according to my contract back then, we were considered to be on duty 23 out of 24 hours a day. So learning to take 15 min catnaps became standard operational survival tactics if you didn't want Charlie to put a hole in your head. When I got back to the world, sleep was never a real issue with me after that. If I got some, great, if I didn't there was no sense losing more sleep over it.

As Always
I Am the
Dirt Man

My husband was military and I grew used to the constant 'alert' calls and spontaneous field operations that meant I had to get up and help with gear while he got ready so losing sleep is not a new game. An entirely new dimension was brought to the lack of sleep when my daughter arrived. It's never really bothered me before, but I rather enjoy sleeping and it's different to not sleep because you have things to do than it is to sit here and stare at a flashing cursor for hours on end and not be able to.

I suppose I'll either get used to it or continue posting minor grievances here Thanks for the insight into your sleeplessness. Maybe I should train myself to remain awake for days at a time and learn to power nap.

~lucky

 

[destinie21]

Lol you'd think having to wake up at 6 I'd get to bed by 12 but I generally turn in at around 2 am I rarely have more than four of five hours of sleep.

I don't feel tired though it's just the way I am I guess

 

[shereads]

By the time I realized I wanted a sleeping pill, it was too late to go to bed early. Five hours later, here I am wishing you all a good morning before I try once again to go to sleep.

Argh.

 

[Svenskaflicka]

Regarding the underwear-issue, I must say that I've always found it much easier to reach heaven WITHOUT underwear.

 

[shereads]

5:10 a.m.

If I sleep as soon as my head hits the pillow, I'll have a little more than an hour before the dog wakes me up for breakfast. If I refuse to wake up, the dog stands with her front paws on the edge of the mattress and actually pounds her fists. Yes, she has fists at that moment.

Even if I feed her now, she'll still wake me up at the appointed time.

 

[lucky-E-leven]

Me again...been sitting here so long I just heard the same song on the radio for the third time.

Anyone got any sleep aid ideas other than popping pills or getting laid? (I hate pills and I'm out of batteries.)



~lucky