Just an update (not a how-to, sorry!)

[Ms_Lilith]

This is for those of you who have been keeping tabs on my injured back. I went to get a CT scan last week, and... well, here are the results.



I have a hemmorraged disk in my back. This means that the disk has a tear in it (and the ligaments around it), and that disk fluid is seeping into the small cavity around the disk and vertebra. This is bad. The short description is a slipped disk. Because the disk (being kind of deflated) has moved and is pressing not only against some nerve that affects my left leg, but also against the main sac of nerves in the spinal column, and could cause serious harm if further aggravated.

Right now, I do NOT need surgery. This is a good thing. I'm beginning therapy next week, but I'm now off until August 3. If my job fires me, they fire me, whatever. It's not my fault.

I have to do excercises for my back every day for the rest of my life now, and that's alright, but it's something to adjust to. I have to be VERY nice to my back.. no lifting, not much bending, some walking, but if anything hurts, I am to stop right then, because it could take NOTHING AT ALL to make my back worse. And if it gets worse, then I WILL need the surgery.


So there you have it.

 

[SXCRgirl]

vix,

I'm glad that you finally know what ails you. They say that knowing is half the battle. I wish you luck in getting better.

Hang in there.

 

[Lust Engine]

Ditto on what SXCRgirl says and then some.

 

[Ms_Lilith]

Thanks, guys... *smile*

I've got a much more positive attitude now than I did in previous threads, and that's a good thing.

I'm beginning to realize why this is happening to me now, rather than later, and that is a very liberating knowledge.

I'm a control freak. I plan EVERYTHING. And this injury.. and the extensions of my sick leave, are keeping me from planning anything.. they're not letting me have any control here.. and I'm beginning to feel very liberated by that. I mean, yeah, I might lose my job. But y'know, if they're dumb enough to fire me over this or something else while I'm away.. so be it. I don't care... I hate working there anyway, and they're mean people, who can't keep their cruelty in check, and .... why would I want to stay?

I'm also starting to take the time to relax, to lose the weight I want to lose (going to make an appointment with a dietician soon), to heal on the inside (my mother's astrologer says my bad health is due to a bitterness from my past that I cling to... so it has to go.... which I mean.. I knew.). Things like that. And while my whole summer is shot, basically, as far as sports, etc, goes, I do have time to sit in the sun, I do have time to read the books I've been wanting to read, I do have time to relish my degree, etc.

Now I'm more upset about the no sports thing than anything else. I just bought a new bathing suit.. I hope I'll be able to use it before the summer's out. And I am hoping to buy a good bike when I heal enough, so my sweetie and I can go for long bike-rides to the ocean... *smile* Those are my goals.. the things I want to arrive at sooner rather than later... but don't worry, I won't be pushing myself.. I know this is a slow healing process...


Thanks for reading, to those who did, and thank you for responding, to those who did.

Have a wonderful day,

Vixie

 

[bobsgirl]

Glad to hear you finally know what the problem is.

Keep your chin up, kid. Things will get better soon.

 

[marge_w]

Hi sweetie

Glad to hear that you now know whats wrong and that you are taking the time to lie back and smell the roses and indulge yourself a bit.

Even though you dont like your job and dont like the people it is a worry that they might let you go (I had a similar situation but I loved my job just hated all the management with the exception of my immediate boss) but stressing about it will only make things worse.......think tension headaches and taughtened back muscles.....not good for you

So one way to get the control back.....one control freak to another lol......would be to have a look round and see what other jobs are on the market at he moment, as you already know the minimum time you will be off and the worst extent of your limitations any employer who is initially aware of this has got to be more sympathetic than your current employer

good luck

Marge

 

[Ms_Lilith]

Hi sweetie

Glad to hear that you now know whats wrong and that you are taking the time to lie back and smell the roses and indulge yourself a bit.

Even though you dont like your job and dont like the people it is a worry that they might let you go (I had a similar situation but I loved my job just hated all the management with the exception of my immediate boss) but stressing about it will only make things worse.......think tension headaches and taughtened back muscles.....not good for you

So one way to get the control back.....one control freak to another lol......would be to have a look round and see what other jobs are on the market at he moment, as you already know the minimum time you will be off and the worst extent of your limitations any employer who is initially aware of this has got to be more sympathetic than your current employer

good luck

Marge

I'm ALWAYS looking for a new job. Even when this first happened, I had the 'want ads' out the next day. I can't apply for anything yet, as I can't make it to an interview, but I don't really mind. I have money saved up in the bank that can last me the rest of the summer if need be, and I'm on EI, so.... *shrug*

 

[tbon45]

i know how you feel. im already to that point where i need surgery i have 3 vertabrays some what out the L3 is about half way out and pinching the nerve. i did it about a year ago at work and now they said there is no proof i did it there. but they are so wrong because i have all copys of the test that i did plus the ambulance bill for the ride from work to the hospital. i go monday to find out when i go for the surgery. i makes me want to cry somtimes.

 

[Ms_Lilith]

i know how you feel. im already to that point where i need surgery i have 3 vertabrays some what out the L3 is about half way out and pinching the nerve. i did it about a year ago at work and now they said there is no proof i did it there. but they are so wrong because i have all copys of the test that i did plus the ambulance bill for the ride from work to the hospital. i go monday to find out when i go for the surgery. i makes me want to cry somtimes.

Best of luck to you.. mine is not that bad, yet. I hope that you get things worked out, as far as worker's compensation, and that your surgery goes flawlessly.

*hugs*


(and I understand the wanting to cry thing. I'm just too bloody stubborn, most of the time)

 

[kinky shy girl]

vixen ~ glad to hear that you won't need surgery. my dad had chronic back pain, but he didn't need surgery. he thinks acupuncture is the greatest thing ever. he had a few sessions, and he felt a lot better afterwards. i don't know if you are considering that as an option, but i just thought i'd mention it.

good luck.

 

[RegisteredTroll]

for fucks sake will you just die already

whiny fat fucking shamu bitch

you have no friends, your job hates you

k