Leather and Lace

[DustyWolfe]

Keri leans forward slowly and kisses the top of Jen's head. "No one ever said that would happen immediately, and with you isolating yourself it never will. You have to learn to depend on people more and share your burden. Then you can slowly get stronger"

 

[JenJ]

Jen shivered as the top of her head was kissed. "I supose so but a lot of this no one but Kristen knows." She wiped at more tears falling from her face.

 

[DustyWolfe]

Keri looks into Jen's eyes "And that is ok, you have to do what you are comfortable with, but you can't keep yourself locked up forever. It's not healthy."

 

[JenJ]

Jen nodded. "You are right of course and I'm working on it. I truely am it's just hard because it hasn't been that long." Jen looked at Keri. "This is eating away at me I need to tell someone but it's just hard."

 

[DustyWolfe]

Keri nods as she listens to Jen and squeezes her hand as she leans back in the bed to ease her soreness "I'm here if you need me."

Katelyn listens quietly, truly not knowing what to say.

 

[JenJ]

Jen squeezed Keri's hand softly and stood up a moment pulling the back of her shirt up to show the faint scars along her back. "Kristen truely saved me from things." She took a deep breath. "This is a long sad story."

 

[DustyWolfe]

Keri gasps and sits up suddenly, she winces in pain but doesn't bother to lay back down. She feels herself seething with anger just as she had with Katelyn. Keri subconciously runs her fingers over a group of stitches as she tries to figure out what to say. She just nods "Yes, I see that...."

 

[JenJ]

Jen gave Keri and Katie soft smiles. "Calm yourself Keri you don't need to pull stitches." She lowered her shirt down again. "As you can guess I was abused this happened when I was but a mere child and continued for three years until I went to Kristen she took me in."

 

[DustyWolfe]

Keri sighs and nods "Seems we have a lot in common then. Though my dad wasn't that bad. he made me who I am though, and I guess that much I would not change. I'm happy with who I am now." She sighs and looks back at Jen, opening her arms to her.

Katelyn sniffs as she listens, knowing how horrible that must have been. Those feelings very close to her heart at the moment in light of the situation.

 

[JenJ]

Jen carefully slips into Keri's arms needing very much to feel safe. "If all he did was beat me I wouldn't feel as I generally feel like I'm all used up and no one in the world would actually want me. Kristen proved me wrong on that but know I feel that way again and I suspose that I will for a little while longer."

 

[DustyWolfe]

Keri holds Jen as tightly as she can in her strong arms, kissing the top of her head occassionally and stroking her hair as she listens to her. "Your not used up, I felt the same way after Krystall, but believe me... You have a lot left to give and I know that you won't be alone for long. Someday you will find someone for you that is perfect. I promise this."

Katelyn smiles as she listens to this, knowing that it is true. She looks back to where Kallie had been laying with her and wonders if such is the case with Kallie.

 

[JenJ]

Jen just snuggled against Keri as she listened. "True enough." Jen took a deep breath. "Kristen knew what had happened even before I told her she let me tell it when I was ready and helped me more then anyone. I supose I should start therapy know that would help probably but I don't know that I can do it." Jen just layed there a moment contemplating telling everything everything there was so much that could come spilling out of her.

 

[DustyWolfe]

Keri smiled softly "Yes, I can see how you would feel incomplete without her. But you will be a whole person soon enough. I do agree that you need to get into therapy though" Keri says as she holds Jen, letting her feel safe and warm.

 

[JenJ]

Jen sighed softly. "Then I'll need to find a therapist." She wasn't to happy about that plan but it was needed. "I know I will never be anyone's submissive again I can't be I don't think I'd trust anyone that much again." She shivered recounting something nasty. "I hate memory flashes."

 

[DustyWolfe]

Keri kisses the top of Jen's head, and wraps her arms more tightly around her whispering "Shhhhh, it's ok. Your in the present now, try to stay with me."

 

[JenJ]

Jen shivered again and fought to remain in the present but it wasn't working. "No please don't hit me with that again." She whimpered a bit and went rigid in Keri's arms her eyes clamping shut as she went into herself for a moment to retreat. She opened her eyes again and looked at Keri a look of pure fear in her eyes.

 

[DustyWolfe]

Keri takes a deep breath as she listens to Jen and feels her grow rigid. She holds her tightly and rocks her gently, letting her get back into the present. She sighs at the look of fear and brings one hand up to brush Jen's hair away from her face and looks straight into her eyes. "You need to confide in someone before this eats you alive Jen."

Katelyn listens quietly

 

[JenJ]

Jen took a deep breath relaxing and she looked at Keri. "I should have long ago but I couldn't bring myself to. It took Kristen a long time to get it all from me." Jen took another breath. "What I just had the flash off was what happened at it's worst. He had friends over and they used me then decided it would be fun to beat the living life out of me with a belt after the belt I don't know what happened I passed out only to come too in my own room feeling like I"d been run over my a mack truck."

 

[DustyWolfe]

Keri craddles Jen in her arms, holding her tightly and running her fingers through her hair but remaining quiet so that she can say what she needs to say.

 

[JenJ]

Jen relaxed a bit. "That was by far the worst thing that happened. I was stuck in bed for over a week he wouldn't let me do anything until the cuts and bruises were gone and then I found out my so called 'mother' knew all about it."

 

[DustyWolfe]

keri just shakes her head and holds to Jen tightly, not understanding why anyone could let their child be abused like that other than the fear of the same being done to them.

 

[JenJ]

Jen felt comfort in Keri's arms real comfort for the first time since Kristen wasn't there with her. "It started when I turned 13 I no longer fought him off he did the one thing he knew to make me not fight he threatned to go after my little sister."

 

[DustyWolfe]

Keri continues to hold Jen tightly in her arms, snuggling her close and rocking her gently, whispering "Your safe now though and no one else is going to hurt you"

 

[JenJ]

Jen looked at Keri and nodded. "I know that I am and he is in jail he won't hurt anyone again."

 

[DustyWolfe]

Keri kisses Jen's forehead and rocks her softly as she holds her "Good... I'm glad" she thinks for a moment "Now, how can I help you?"