Lil_Jenni's Adventures, Past and Present...

[lil_jenni]

It's so nice of the government to limit everyone's enjoyment just to make sure something is legal

Oh, the warning is because of site rules.

 

[ShaneoD]

I don't know. Most of the guys who came to the brothel didn't last long. Except the really gross ones. We all agreed those lasted an eternity.

Of course, in theory we were independent contractors and could turn down the gross guys... In practice, we were strongly encouraged not to turn down too many guys...

I'm guessing most guys are at the point of being so horny they're distracted from everything else in life before the visit a brothel, then if you meet a beautiful lady what hope do you have of lasting (was that too much empathy?)

 

[lil_jenni]

I'm guessing most guys are at the point of being so horny they're distracted from everything else in life before the visit a brothel, then if you meet a beautiful lady what hope do you have of lasting (was that too much empathy?)

Oh, I was average there... Well, maybe a bit above if you like petite and small breasted. But there were some really hot women there.

 

[JerseyJade]

Hey guys... I gotta scoot. Time to head home and take care of my babies. And then after they're in bed, maybe a little fun for me. Bye everyone. Cya Jenni.

 

[lil_jenni]

I meant anywhere, not necessarily a brothel.

Do you need any help with your yard work, etc?

My eighteen year old neighbor got paid that way this summer, you know. But I'm being monogamous right now because the pregnancy has put me in that frame of mind, mainly. I was a little worried Hubby was not as okay as he said he was. So, no paying for yardwork that way this summer...

 

[13Fantasies]

Oh, I was average there... Well, maybe a bit above if you like petite and small breasted. But there were some really hot women there.

You ARE hot

 

[lil_jenni]

Hey guys... I gotta scoot. Time to head home and take care of my babies. And then after they're in bed, maybe a little fun for me. Bye everyone. Cya Jenni.

Bye JJ.

 

[13Fantasies]

My eighteen year old neighbor got paid that way this summer, you know. But I'm being monogamous right now because the pregnancy has put me in that frame of mind, mainly. I was a little worried Hubby was not as okay as he said he was. So, no paying for yardwork that way this summer...

Shoveling the walk next winter?

 

[ShaneoD]

Oh, I was average there... Well, maybe a bit above if you like petite and small breasted. But there were some really hot women there.

I'm guessing you were always happy to see most of your coworkers

 

[ShaneoD]

My eighteen year old neighbor got paid that way this summer, you know. But I'm being monogamous right now because the pregnancy has put me in that frame of mind, mainly. I was a little worried Hubby was not as okay as he said he was. So, no paying for yardwork that way this summer...

That was one hell of a read.... more than once. Now he was lucky

 

[lil_jenni]

I'm guessing you were always happy to see most of your coworkers

Sort of. I never did anything with them. In a lot of ways, the brothel was my self-imposed penance for cheating on my now Hubby (then fiance) less than two weeks after we got engaged.

 

[13Fantasies]

Sort of. I never did anything with them. In a lot of ways, the brothel was my self-imposed penance for cheating on my now Hubby (then fiance) less than two weeks after we got engaged.

You seem to go out of your way to punish yourself. Everyone handles stress and mistakes differently, but in the end, you two are still together. Focus on that, hun.

 

[ShaneoD]

Sort of. I never did anything with them. In a lot of ways, the brothel was my self-imposed penance for cheating on my now Hubby (then fiance) less than two weeks after we got engaged.

Oh, almost like you were punishing yourself and making sex unenjoyable, I'm glad you got past that and enjoy it again

 

[lil_jenni]

Oh, almost like you were punishing yourself and making sex unenjoyable, I'm glad you got past that and enjoy it again

Yep, exactly. After the brothel, I was celibate for over six months. It was my rock bottom.

 

[13Fantasies]

Yep, exactly. After the brothel, I was celibate for over six months. It was my rock bottom.

I've been celibate for six years. Rock bottom can always be lower.

 

[lil_jenni]

You seem to go out of your way to punish yourself. Everyone handles stress and mistakes differently, but in the end, you two are still together. Focus on that, hun.

Yeah, I know. And I only cheated because I was terrified of the commitment/intimacy. And because I'm poly and was repressing it 100%. That's was all a lot of stress. So I sabotaged everything. But about eighteen months later, I drunk texted him, he responded, and they spark was definitely still there. We took it slow, and I was honest with him about a lot of stuff I'd sugar coated before. I know I will never be the wife he was expecting to share his life with, but I'm the one he wants... and sometimes I still can't believe it.

 

[ShaneoD]

Yep, exactly. After the brothel, I was celibate for over six months. It was my rock bottom.

I'm glad you got past it and seem to be enjoying life now

 

[13Fantasies]

Yeah, I know. And I only cheated because I was terrified of the commitment/intimacy. And because I'm poly and was repressing it 100%. That's was all a lot of stress. So I sabotaged everything. But about eighteen months later, I drunk texted him, he responded, and they spark was definitely still there. We took it slow, and I was honest with him about a lot of stuff I'd sugar coated before. I know I will never be the wife he was expecting to share his life with, but I'm the one he wants... and sometimes I still can't believe it.

Sometimes the reality of where you end up is better than the expectation. Sounds like he won out.

 

[lil_jenni]

I've been celibate for six years. Rock bottom can always be lower.

I meant the brothel was rock bottom. The celibacy was the cleanse.

And sorry to hear that.

 

[13Fantasies]

I meant the brothel was rock bottom. The celibacy was the cleanse.

And sorry to hear that.

Ohhhhh.

I understand.

And thanks.

 

[lil_jenni]

I have to hop off now. I've had the students working on an art project this afternoon, and I just realized it's devolved into near chaos. I've been a bad teacher today...

 

[Centauri1]

Good luck, enjoy the rest of your day!!

 

[13Fantasies]

I have to hop off now. I've had the students working on an art project this afternoon, and I just realized it's devolved into near chaos. I've been a bad teacher today...

You? Bad? Never.

You're not bad, you're just drawn that way.

 

[dkak001]

Sure, but you guys have no idea how much of a mess I can be. I mean, I don't usually make it on here when I'm down, or when I'm hyperactive. So, you all don't see how bad the ups and downs can be. And it was worse back when I drank. And he forgave me cheating before we got married (accepted a lot of shit, really... the period when we were apart was when I worked at a (legal) Nevada brothel... so imagine getting back with your ex and she told you that she had been a literal (legal) whore during the breakup... sure, we were apart 18 months, so it was a long breakup, but still...)

Sorry... I should just say thank you... but it kinda kicks my anxiety up a notch when people say he's lucky, because I know the fucking truth... But again, sorry. You guys are sweet and I'm being a bitch.

So, the grass is greener, huh?

Honestly, it's shit like this that makes me like reading what you write. Honesty to yourself, about yourself, and to us. There's a certain anonymity here that helps us all open up. But, you really set that bar high. Despite what you say about yourself now and your past, that level of honesty usually is very telling about a person. It takes a pretty good understanding of oneself, as well as acceptance to write these sorts of things. That takes a level of intelligence that's not always common out there. So yes, in a sense he is lucky. Because you're not lying to yourself, and probably also not lying to him about who you are. He gets to see you for who you really are, flaws and all. How many people in real life get to see what you've shown him, and us here?

None of us are perfect. We all have our issues. So, I applaud your honesty being able to admit to yours, publicly on this forum no less. I'm not there yet, not even on this forum.

And, yeah the cars help.

 

[lil_jenni]

Well, Hubby did give me an orgasm with his fingers last night but did not let me reciprocate in any way. He said he was sore... Which I think is quite possible.

This morning, my nausea was just horrible. It's not been that bad for a couple of weeks. So, nothing happened then either. Maybe tonight...