My Evolution

[Samantha47]

You will be just find that one preferably straight friend.
Your friendship will be even stronger

Would be wonderful to experience that

 

[Samantha47]

My friend asked me to be naked for him when I was younger

 

[Samantha47]

Did i scare you off

 

[Suckharder55]

So I try. I go out and look at huge boobs, lesbians, beautiful women and I am usually soft to half hard. I can’t help myself because I then switch to gay porn and I am hard for hours, can have multiple orgasms and I start chatting with men and we talk about what we want to do to each other. My mind gets dirtier and dirtier going from gay love making to sucking each other’s cum covered cocks when they’ve been pulled out of asses and then kissing and closeups of gay tongues sliding into gay freshly fucked asses. Things like that. It gets my so aroused for hours and sometimes days.

I just love stroking to gay exploration. One of my favorite things when I am alone is to hop in the shower after a long gay edging session when my mind is 100% immersed in being gay and just work a big dildo in my ass as well as pound myself to orgasm.

I often fantasize and masturbate about a gay friend I have been secretly in love with for decades. I met Bill at work in 1994. He is 18 years older than me. I had a wet dream about him the first night after we met. I have this hyper sexual attraction to him. Since I met him, he has opened this gay Pandora’s box I didn’t know existed within me. Bill is highly intelligent, intellectual, proper, slightly snobbish, warm, and so kind. And he is a true bottom. He is a bit “limp wristed,” which is a big turn on for me. Whenever I would see him at work, I would get hard. We became good friends and when I switched jobs in the company we worked at, we decided to go to lunch together once a month. Since we both got in early, we would go at 10:00. We would go and quickly have a burger together and then go to Barnes & Noble, get a coffee, and talk philosophy, life, etc. for hours. A couple times he invited me to his house to fix his computer. When I was fixing his computer, I peaked at his temporary internet files and found a massive amount of gay porn. We ended up having sex a number of times.

I have been exploring internet porn since 1997 but have been only able to cum to gay porn, gay phone sex, or gay vid sex since 2012. I started reading gay erotica. I found them so hot. I jacked off to them all the time. There was one author I loved reading a lot. His user name was DW_Simon here on Literotica. The gay love and gay sex was so authentic. It fueled my feelings for Bill and curiosity for gay love and gay sex. One story in particular was about a fireman rescuing another man and they fall in love and have a lot of hot sex and eventually get married. I often masturbated and pictured myself as the guy being rescued who was the bottom in the story. Rescued by some muscular, manly firefighter who is gay as fuck. That story inspired me to start exploring with toys on my ass. I learned I was versatile over time. It depended on my lover and our chemistry in my fantasy or in real life if having online sex.

I also started writing gay erotica in the first person. I learned so much about myself as I wrote about gay love and lengthy detailed descriptions about gay sex.

It isn’t uncommon for me to have 3 orgasms during vid sex. If my wife is gone and I can really dive into gay porn for hours, I’ve cum 9 times over a night. In about 2010, I started getting up at 4 am and indulging in gay porn and chatting with men online. I would do that until 6 am and then rush to work by 6:30 am. I would then get home about 3:30 and indulge in gay porn and chat with men until 5 or so. When my wife would leave, I would be indulging in gay porn and online encounters. I’ve had lengthy cyber affairs with a married man 10 years older than me, a divorced man a few years younger than me, a single man my age, and a hot 30 years older old lawyer when I was 50.

What do you think?

I think I might want to chat with u if you’re interested. I had a massive sex drive when younger but 9X? DM me

 

[Sounding22]

Did i scare you off

lol no silly, had a guy friend cum over grrr.
Now you have to go let that female side out for someone, just start in a domestic capacity.
Go slow.
Been easy for me because I’ve never done things boys/men do. Even named my dolls.