MrAfterGlow
Virgin
- Joined
- Jul 25, 2016
- Posts
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I'm writing this to find my way.
After my divorce I started dating and I met a woman that I didn't expect to meet. We had some of the same kinks - I enjoyed being watch and she enjoyed watching.
She wanted to wear a leash and find a way to shut off her brain and be pleased and controlled. I got hard simply readin her text about it.
I didn't have clue what she was talking about but it woke up something in me. So I began to research. At first, I was a little afraid of my yearnings.
But then I realized this was what I sometimes fantasized about. I had to admit, I often gravitated towards the Nonconsent/Reluctance section, but never
admitted why.
To meet a woman who told me our time together was a safe space for me to acknowledge this....was like letting a hungry tiger out of a cage back into the wild.
Does any other man here know what I mean? I began to stumble upon an ocean of woman who wanted to relax, to feel cherished, to feel opened up, to
feel the strange taboo of being powerful and evolved and confident and having achieved all their goals but in the presence of the right dude, being dominated
and controlled like a puppet, not know what would happen next. I began to savor the idea of meeting a woman, studying her, nurturing her, finding ways
to make her curl up her toes, plotting and scheming how to push her to the limits of her pleasure, at my command and discretion, seeing her open up to trust
me and allowing me to play her like a fine piano. Seeing her body quiver, watching her lose control, while I hold onto it.
I let go of shame and turned towards the burning heat within. My little friend and I parted ways, but she opened my eyes to something. Now I'm looking to see if I could find another like minded woman with whom I could explore this, even in subtle, non-sexual rituals or sharing ideas or other ways. How do I find a sub who is also on this journey, or an experienced sub to chat with, or someone to share ideas with. This is wild, I never expected this, and it's exhilirating. Tell me I'm not the only one
After my divorce I started dating and I met a woman that I didn't expect to meet. We had some of the same kinks - I enjoyed being watch and she enjoyed watching.
She wanted to wear a leash and find a way to shut off her brain and be pleased and controlled. I got hard simply readin her text about it.
I didn't have clue what she was talking about but it woke up something in me. So I began to research. At first, I was a little afraid of my yearnings.
But then I realized this was what I sometimes fantasized about. I had to admit, I often gravitated towards the Nonconsent/Reluctance section, but never
admitted why.
To meet a woman who told me our time together was a safe space for me to acknowledge this....was like letting a hungry tiger out of a cage back into the wild.
Does any other man here know what I mean? I began to stumble upon an ocean of woman who wanted to relax, to feel cherished, to feel opened up, to
feel the strange taboo of being powerful and evolved and confident and having achieved all their goals but in the presence of the right dude, being dominated
and controlled like a puppet, not know what would happen next. I began to savor the idea of meeting a woman, studying her, nurturing her, finding ways
to make her curl up her toes, plotting and scheming how to push her to the limits of her pleasure, at my command and discretion, seeing her open up to trust
me and allowing me to play her like a fine piano. Seeing her body quiver, watching her lose control, while I hold onto it.
I let go of shame and turned towards the burning heat within. My little friend and I parted ways, but she opened my eyes to something. Now I'm looking to see if I could find another like minded woman with whom I could explore this, even in subtle, non-sexual rituals or sharing ideas or other ways. How do I find a sub who is also on this journey, or an experienced sub to chat with, or someone to share ideas with. This is wild, I never expected this, and it's exhilirating. Tell me I'm not the only one
